Title: Maybe.. Just Once
Pairing: Kev/Nicky, AJ/Brian
Author: Jules
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Rating: Im'a say R... don't understand that NC-17 stuff
Disclaimer: If the first part never happened... then this part sure as hell never happened... Just something I came up with while in an elevator and ran with it...
Chapter 5~Brian~
Do you know that feeling you get when you know something. But you don't know you know it, but you find out about it and knew you knew it all along? That nagging feeling in the back of your mind that won't leave you alone but you don't have any solid proof to back that voice up? Well...that's my life right now. I knew it. I knew it. I knew it. How did I know it? Why did I have to know it? What the hell am I doing standing here? I need to get out of this room! My head was spinning and I felt like I was going to be sick. Now, deep down I knew that there was going on with Nick and Kevin. I knew it! I thought back to that day when Kevin came to talk to me about Nick, and smacked my forehead. Of course he wanted to know for himself. He hadn't heard anything about Nick..he needed to know if Nick was gay because he was interested. And after that day everything changed. I just didn't want to see it. Well a lot of good that did, avoiding the issue, because I had just seen it. With my own two eyes. Larger than life. I would have laughed at that joke... Larger than Life... but I was in too much shock to do anything but stare, gasp and run out of the room. Like I said, knowing in the back of my mind that they were together, that they were seeing each other is one thing..but seeing it for my own eyes is a whole other kettle of fish!
I had gone up to Kev's room to talk to him about going home for the holidays to Kentucky. My mom really wanted to see us, cook us a decent home cooked Kentucky meal, so I went to ask if he wanted to come with me. I heard mumbling coming from behind the door and knocked a bit harder. Still nothing, so I tried the knob. When it turned in my hand, I decided to go in and see why he wasn't answering. As I walked into the hotel room I stopped and felt my whole world spin out of control. I surely wasn't expecting the sight I was met with. There was Nick, lying on Kevin's bed ...naked ...covered in sweat ...breathing hard ..eyes closed ...mouth open ...head back and pinching his nipples seductively with one hand while the other was firmly woven through Kevin's hair. My cousin's head was in his lap, sucking his cock. I could hear his moans vibrate through the room, echo in my chest and I felt myself react to the two lovers in front of me. I feel my groin tighten and my pulse quicken. Whoa! What the hell is that all about? I think I'm as shocked about my reaction as I am about watching them on the bed.
"Mmmmm.... Kev.... Your mouth feels so good baby... I like it when you suck my cock Kev..." Nick growled, thrusting gently into Kevin's mouth which was bobbing furiously on Nick's erection. I could tell by the way Nick's eyes were scrunched up tightly that he was about to cum and I knew I had to get out of there. I didn't know if I could take watching him cum into Kevin's mouth. As I closed the door behind me, I heard him howl and I began to run down the hall, my legs wobbling. I didn't know if they would be able to support me. In my panic driven haze, I didn't see anyone walking towards me until it was too late.
~AJ~
I saw Brian running towards me and figured he'd move in time. Figured he'd seen me and ...
CRACK
I figured wrong. Before I knew it he had flattened me and I was flat on my back. He looked as if he'd seen a ghost and was flailing on the ground, muttering something to himself that I couldn't clearly make out. "Oh my god.. I can't believe it.. How long.. When.. .why? Wrong... So wrong."
I laughed and pulled him to his feet, shaking his shoulders gently hoping to bring him out of his trance. "Rok. What's wrong?" I asked. He looked at me and I saw him get even paler than he was. I didn't think it was possible but I guess so. "AJ?" He looked genuinely confused. Lost. Like he doesn't know what's going on.
I pulled him down the hall into my room and sat him down. He was in shock about something and was still muttering to himself. He didn't give me any resistance and I waited for him to snap out of whatever he was in. I gave him a glass of water which he accepted, drinking it down in one gulp. Like a small child, he extended his arm with the glass in his hand, silently requesting a bit more. My face softened at the look in his eyes, the expression on his face. He was so beautiful. His facial features defined to perfection, those eyes so clear and blue that I wanted to dive right in and get lost in them. His lips were thin, but could turn into the most breathtaking smile known to man. I had to get a hold of myself. Something was wrong with him, something had happened. I'd deal with the fact that somehow, I had fallen for Brian, later. There were bigger issues to deal with right now.
"What happened Rok?" I asked softly, hoping he'd tell me what was wrong.
"I saw them. Naked...moaning...blow job..." His eyes were distant, he was picturing something.
"Who did you see? Who was naked.?" He cut me off before I got a chance to go any farther.
"Nick... Kevin." Was all it took to get me giggling. From what I could tell, Brian had just walked in on Kevin and Nick spending quality alone time together. They really needed to learn how to lock the door before getting it on. Sometimes they were just in such a frenzy that they forgot little details...like wandering band mates...locking doors... All that stuff.
He recounted the story in excruciating detail and I tried not to laugh. It seemed to me that he had gotten an eyeful and was still in shock from it. I was fighting off an erection, trying to listen to him, thinking he must have stood there a while before leaving. I wonder what that's about.
~Brian~
He was trying not to laugh at me. I could tell. That made me mad because he should have been surprised. He should have been outraged that Kevin and Nick were keeping this from us. Were DOING this in the first place. "What are you laughing at Bone?" I asked, irritation evident in my voice.
"You're acting like I did the first time I caught them. But from the sounds of it, you got it easier than I did." He was enjoying this. His eyes were mocking me, laughing at my shock.
"What the hell are you talking about AJ?" I was so confused.
"Well Bri. Nick and Kevin are together. As in dating together. Have been for a few months now." As I heard him talk I could feel everything go out of focus, I was having a panic attack. I think he noticed because he came over to me, pushed my head down between my knees and started rubbing my back. "Breath Rok. It's okay. Just breathe..." When I had finally calmed down a bit he continued.
"They've fallen in love." It was such a simple statement, but held so much meaning.
"When? Why? How?" I couldn't get the questions out fast enough.
"It's not really for me to tell you Rok. I know they want to be the ones to tell you everything."
"Why haven't they?" I was really hurt. Was I the only one that didn't know? Did Howie know? Why did they tell AJ and not me?
"I know what you're thinking Brian and no. They didn't tell me. I guessed. And D doesn't know so don't think it's a big conspiracy. Don't flatter yourself." He smiled at me and I felt my stomach tighten, my pulse quicken.
"I figured it out." He was still stroking my back, and oddly enough I found it really comforting. Soothing even.
"You've seen them?" I whispered, looking over at him. I was so confused.
"Yeah." He laughed as he remembered whatever visions were going through his mind. "I had gone over to Nick's room because we were going to go and get something to eat. We had made plans for 6, but was bored so went over early. I knocked but they didn't hear me. The door was slightly open so I walked in figuring that if the door wasn't locked, they were decent. Well I was wrong." My eyes bugged out as I anticipated what he was going to tell me. "I walked in and there they were."
Before I could stop myself I asked the question that was haunting me. "What were they doing?"
He looked shocked and didn't say anything for a few minutes. "Well... Do you really want to know Rok?" He asked, I guess making sure I knew what I was asking.
My heart was beating madly, my stomach churning with anticipation. With a sexual tension I hadn't expected.
"Yeah." I couldn't do more than whisper.
AJ's voice got really low, seductive even and I don't know if it was intentional, or not, but I had never heard anything more erotic in my life. "Nick was on top of Kevin, they were both naked and so hot, so sweaty. Kevin's legs were propped up on Nick's shoulders, as his hands were gripping on Nick's hips, helping him drive into his ass Brian. One of Nick's hands was gripping the railing of the bed as leverage, while the other was jacking Kevin off. With each thrust, he'd stroke Kevin's cock." When he stopped, he licked his lips. Slowly. Teasingly. FUCK. I felt my own cock harden and I tried to jump up and get away from AJ. Away from the vision he was painting for me. He felt me begin to stand and he grabbed onto my arm, keeping me in place.
"Brian. It's okay." Was all he said. He didn't remove his hand from my arm. His touch felt so hot, so forbidden.
"I can't believe this." I whispered, looking at AJ, perhaps for the first time. I mean I looked at him, REALLY looked at him. This was wrong. This wasn't happening to me. This wasn't.. His voice broke into my thoughts.
"Haven't you ever wondered what it would be like to be with another guy Brian? What it would feel like to kiss another man?" I barely recognized his voice and felt myself react to it. React to the question he was asking.
"Have you?" I asked, trying to get the focus off of me.
He thought about it for a few seconds. "Yes." Did he just say yes? He just said yes. He continued on. "Well? Have you?"
"I love Leigh." I did. I loved Leighanne so...
"That's not what I asked Brian." Shit. He knew I was trying to avoid the question. I knew that Leighanne had nothing to do with this. This was about me. "I asked if you had ever wondered what it would be like to kiss another guy." Suddenly AJ's face was very close to mine. I could feel his breath on my cheek. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know what to say. I turned to look at him and saw something I wasn't prepared for, lust. He was sitting there, biting his lip, waiting for me to answer him and suddenly it was more than I could handle. "I'm sorry." I mumbled, feeling tears spring to my eyes and I ran from the room. I had to get out of there. Get back to my room where everything was safe. Shit.