Title: You Lead, I'll Follow
Series: Our Wicked Ways
Author: Aceetha/Dawn
E-Mail: shyspyke@toowicked.com
Disclaimer: This is pure fiction. Nothing in this story happened. I don't know the BSB's. If I did I wouldn't be sitting here writing this alright.
I let Brian lead me into the shower, nibbling gently at his neck as he turns on the shower, not wanting him to move away from me even for a scond.He turns around, smiling at me, and I lean my head down to kiss him. Our lips meet, and out tongues dart out, each trying to overpower the other, to gain control of the kiss. It's the way we do it, and it's the way we want it.
Brian pulls back, panting hard now, and I can undertsand why, cuz I'm doing the same thing. He looks at me, his blue eyed gaze sending shivers down my spine. I love the way he looks at me, the way he seems to take in eveything I say and do.
If I didn't know better I'd say he was savouring the moment, for a time when we would not be together.
But I know better.
I know I am all he thinks of. I know I am all he wants. And above all, I know I am all he needs to be happy.
I know all this, just as he kows he is all I think of, all I want and all I need.
We're two parts of the same.
We belong together.
And one day, we will be together. But for now, I am willing to settle for the beautiful man standing in front of me, looking at me, grinning.
Wait a second, he's grinning? Oh man, he's up to something. But what can it b......FUCK!
MAN, HE DID IT AGAIN. DAMN YOU LITTRELL.
OK, so maybe I shouldn't be mad. I mean, all he did was remove both our boxers, which would be coming off pretty soon anyway, but, I DON'T GET IT!
How the hell does he get my clothes off, my BOXERS OFF, without me noticing it.
The answer, it's pretty clear actually.
I get lost in him, so lost that he can do whatever he wants to me. Hm, why am I complaining? Cuz, you know, that's actually good. Well, to my defence, I don't like it when I come off all dumb. I'm actually pretty smart.
*****
I pull away from Nick, panting hard from the kiss. I love to kiss him, to feel his soft lips on mine, to play with his tongue, to suck on his lips. I love everything about the man in front of me, and I know that he loves me just as much as I love him.
It's a good feeling, love. To love someone, and have them love you back, that's what life is all about. Love is simple, where other thing s are complicated.
Just look at me and Nick.
Our love is simple. I love him, and he loves me.
The thing that is complicated is out situation. I can't love him in public, I can't ever show him how much he means to me unless no one else is around. Our love has to remain a secret. No one can know.
I hate that. I hate to have to lie to the other fellows, to have to make up excuses as we go along. I hate having to watch ever step I take, every move I make, every word I say.
But I can't tell anyone, and I know that.
So I live with what I can have for now, and hope that some day in the future, me and Nick can have it all.
I stare at him, and he's looking at me, yet he's not really there. I know the look in his eyes. Lust, desire and love, it's all there. He's lost in me again, I know it. And heck, I have to take advantage of the situation.
I'm pretty good at doing things to him when he is in this state. I quickly slip out of my boxers, and move towards him, slowly pulling his boxers down.
No reaction.
I pull him against me, and closer to the shower. He steps out of his boxers, and I turn around for a second to check the water.
Perfect. Not too hot and not too cold.
I look at him again, and his eyes move for a second, taking in the situation. He's coming back to me now. 'Bout bloody time to Carter'. I raise my eyebrows at him and groan. Did he have to do that?
I nod towards the shower, and he grins, pushing me inside.
*****
Evil creature.
Fisrt he removes my clothing without my knowledge. Not that I'm complaining, but...oh heck..Anyway. Then he raises his eyebrows at me, and Godamnit I didn't think I could get any hornier than I was a second ago. I guess I was wrong.
But I'll get my revenge.
I look straight at him, and lick my lips, well knowing of what that did to Brian. I grin as I hear him groan, and push him into the shower.
As the hot water starts to run down our bodies I lean down to kiss him once more. This is good, right, needed.
His hands come around my neck, and mine around his body, running from his neck to his butt. We part, if only for a second, and then we kiss again.
My hands reach the bar of soap, and I pull away again.
"Turn around baby" I whisper into his ear. He obeys, and I start to run small circles on his back with the bar. I love to wash his back, and he knows that. And for now, it is all we have time to do.
He leans back against me, and I lean down to nibble at his ear.
"God Nick" he moans, and turn to face me, kissing me for the longest time.
I lick over his lips, down his jaw and to his neck again.
"You know that I love you?"
I turn him around to face me, staring into his blue eyes.
"I know. Just as you know I love you" I answer, leaning in to give him kiss.
"I'll never leave you" he says when I pull away.
"I know" I say, kissing him again.
"I don't ever wanna hurt you. I WON'T ever hurt you." he pauses, looking into my eyes as if he is searching for something. "I'd die before I'd hurt you"
I look at him, smiling.
"Relax Brian. I know all this, I know."
He shakes his head, a tear running down his cheek.
"But I...I can't call it off...I.."
I know where this is going, and right now, that is not a place I wanna go. So I lean down quickly, capturing his mouth in a kiss again, my tounge seeking entrance into his mouth. It is given, and I enter fast, kissing him hard, trying to let him know how much he means to me with that one kiss.
I pull back, and he looks down, and I know that he is crying, that tears are running down his face, and he doesn't want me to see that.
I let my hand run through his hair, and down his chin, pulling his face up so I can see. I lean in and kiss him softly, looking straight into his eyes.
"I know. And I love you."