A North Wind
My life has been a flurry of activity lately. So busy that I've had no time to post, even though I've contemplated several random ponderings I wanted to share with you all. Some were probably not particularly important and so it does not matter that I didn't take the time to post. One thing that kept my busy yesterday (always takes longer than I think it should) was updating my website, again. I got the Sneak Peek page constructed, and then had to go back and update all the other pages to include the new link. And in so doing I broke one of the chicken pages, and 2 of them need to be updated some more anyway. So there is still more work to be done. But I'm making slow progress on the website. It's starting to look a little more professional now I think, rather than a hodge podge. I still don't know how to make all the fancy bells and whistles, but at least the content is (I hope) easier to navigate and better organized.
One thing that I did particularly want to share, and have been wanting to post this since it first came to mind on Sunday, was a contemplation of Communion. For those not as familiar with my church history, I will give a brief background. My parents and Grandparents were raised in the Church of Christ. My parents took me to church since I was a baby. I have been a Christian since I was 4 years old. I was baptised when I was 12. We attended several protestant denominations when I was growing up, including Assembly of God, Nazarene, and a non-denominational Bible Church. In high school we lived in a much smaller town and there were fewer church choices, but we attended the Assembly of God there and I had some great Sunday School teachers and Youth leaders who helped me through those trying years. In college I attended a Catholic church, a Baptist church, a Nazarene church, and several non-denominational churches. I enjoyed the Catholic mass the most, but I was told it was a non-traditional Catholic church, whatever that means. Then I got married, to an Athiest (that didn't sound exactly right - not because he was an athiest, I married him because I love him and he loves me and I believe we were meant for each other) and discovered that church congregations respond differently to people who are "unequally yolked" than to those who "meet their expectations". A topic which I will not go into at this time. After bouncing from one church to another for a time, I gave up for a while. I was not attending a regular church when our first son was born, so we asked the pastor who had married us to Dedicate him to the Lord. Then when my first son was 2 I decided that he needed a Christian upbringing like I had, and found a church within walking distance from my home and began taking my son to church. It happened to be a Friends church. I attended there for over a year before I discovered that a Friends church is a Quaker church. High School literature paints a very dark image of the "Quaker faith" and I likely would have never gone to that church had I known it was Quaker, but once going there discovered that they are truly very friendly and some of the most NON-judgemental people I have ever met. And sometimes my husband went to church with us too, so this seemed like additional motivation to continue attending. Our three younger children were Dedicated to the Lord by pastors of the Friends church. But Quakers do not practice Communion, and they do not pratice Baptism. These are things that Jesus specifically has commanded us to do, and that the Apostles were faithful in doing in the early church. So while the Friends congregation was friendly, and welcoming, I also felt as though something important was missing. Some close friend of ours had their daughter Baptized at a local non-denominational Christian Church. The presence of the Holy Spirit seemed to be strong in church body. And the Sunday School classes encourage the young children, even as young as 2 and 3, to memorize Bible verses. I was impressed. And the issue of Baptism and Communion kept coming up in various conversations and situations. Then the begining of the year, my youngest son asked if he could be Baptized, because he wanted to take Communion. I contacted the pastors of both churches, but only the pastor from the Christian Church responded. So we began a family discussion of why we take Communion, and what it means to be baptized. In February all the children were baptized. That was an amazing experience! =) And we have been attending the Christian Church ever since.
So why am I still pondering the meaning and reasons for taking Communion? Well, it has to do with some comments that people have made, a mix of words from friends, family and strangers, as well as articles I've read on the internet over the past few years, and my own Bible reading. Moreso perhaps though, it is because of a burden on my heart. The church we attend now, practices Communion every Sunday. As it should be. And every time the communion plate is passed, I feel Jesus whispering in my heart asking me, "Will you still follow me, even if you have to come alone?" That question hurts. I am a social person, and I don't want to go alone, I want my husband with me, my children, my friends, my family I want all of my loved ones with me. But Jesus walked the road to Golgotha alone, he bore the stripes of punishment for our sins alone, he died alone, he went to the pit of Hell alone and defeated the grave, conquored death and rose again to life fulfilling the prophecies so that we could have life together with him, and never have to be alone ever again. I know there can be no other answer, I have to say "Yes. I will follow you." And I always cry, because in that moment, my husband denies the plate and passes it on to the next person. In that terrible moment when I am confirming, again, that "Yes," I will follow Jesus, my husband husband says "No," he will not. And he never understands why I'm crying.
There are many who say that one should not take of Communion if their heart is not right with God, if their life is not straightend out, if they are not living a righetous God-centered life. And there are verses in the Bible which say that if you have a problem with your neighbor, to leave your offering at the Temple, go and make things right with your neighbor, and then come back and give your offering to God. And there are other verses referring to Communion in a similar fashion as well. When these are extrated from the Bible without the surrounding teachings, make it seem as though a person must be completely perfect before any are worthy to partake of the Holy Communion. And indeed some people will reject the plate of Communion because of feelings of guilt in their heart, or feeling unworthy of accepting Christ's gift. Yet, Jesus knows that none of us are perfect. "ALL have sinned and fall short of the glory of God." We will NONE of us ever be clean enough on our own power to be worthy of taking Communion. Not a single human on this planet will ever be "worthy" according to a standard of perfection - we are all sinners, we all make mistakes, we are all flawed, we are all imperfect. That's WHY we need Jesus. Alone we are flawed, but in Christ we are perfect. The practice of taking Holy Communion is not a profession of personal rightousness, and those who believe so are blind to the truth. Communion is a humbling of the spirit, accepting the gift of sacrifice that Christ has offered us, so that we can be made whole. When a person rejects the plate, it is as if they are spitting on the gift Christ has offered them and turning their back against Jesus. When we accept the plate, we are re-affirming our acceptance of Christ and following him. We are showing our Love for him by obeying his command, "Do this in remembrance of Me." Jesus said "If you love me, you will obey my commands." This is why we take communion. Not because it is required for salvation - it is not. All that is requred for salvation and eternal life is to Believe in the Lord Jesus Christ. We take Communion to show our love for him. Those who do not follow Jesus, do not accept the plate of Communion. It is an activity that sets Christians apart from other people.
I do not believe that a person has to have "all their ducks in a row", has to have their life perfectly in order, or has to have all the answers to life's questions to be able to accept Communion. Jesus knows we are not perfect, but he has offered his gift to us anyway. They only have to answer the still small voice in their hearts that asks them, "Will you still follow me, even if you have to come alone?" When you can say "Yes, Lord. I will follow you." Then you can take Communion.
Peace be with you.
-Sparkling