ruined
Mood:  sad
I made a heartbreaking discovery today. The drawing of my daughter that I did 3 years ago, where I drew her face and then added elven ears, long hair and fairy wings.... It has been lost for 2 years. I finally foudn it today. With some mysterious black substance, possibly printer ink or finger paint, smudged on it. It is ruined. Just as someone was actually interested in looking at my work. :( With every moment of joy or hope seems to come a double serving of anguish or disaster. I feel like I can not win.

I was reminded of the verse in Matthew chapter 6 that says, basically, do not treasure the things of this world, where moths and rust destroy. But store up your treasures in heaven. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. (I didn't look up the exact translation, you may do so if you wish.) I do know and beleive that God knows our needs and will provide for us, because we have asked him to. And I am trying to use my talents for His glory. Perhaps I am doing it all wrong... I don't know. I can't seem to get it right. I just feel discouraged today. Perhaps tomorrow will be a better day.