Cloudy
Looks like more busyness is in store for the day. Things to do, places to go. Perhaps I will hear back from one of the people I called yesterday about creating Lithographs of my drawings, or about having them displayed on consignment in a gallery. What I wish I had been able to learn in college, that I don't even know if any classes taught such a thing, was how to break into the artists market. I can draw, but I don't know how to attract buyers for my work. Who buys pencil drawings?

But today started out with donuts and chai tea. So it can't all be bad right? I should take my vitamins too, so hopefully I won't feel so sleepy all day.

Yesterday I took the kids out for a drive. And while I did find some construction sites, I couldn't tell where they were throwing their scrap wood. It all looked mixed together with the good wood, I don't know how the workers can find their new wood when it's all piled together with the scraps like that... but either way, I didn't want to take something that wasn't acceptable, so just decided not to try that for now. And then we went for a drive up the mountain, looked at some truly gorgeous properties. And some places back there were thickly wooded enough that it looked much like Idaho. Beautiful.

It's been brewing for a while I suppose, but yesterday it hit me full force and once again I started wishing for a bigger house so each of the kids could have their own room, and a place in the country so I can have the farm animals I want. And so I came home to see if there were any 5+ bedroom houses for sale around here. I found three 6 bedroom houses and one 8 bedroom house listed. Two of the 6 bedroom and the 8 bedroom houses were all in town on smaller lots, for nearly $300k. The one I wanted the most was the 6 bedroom house on 53 acres in the country, but it was $580k. That's not gonna happen any time soon! :( If ever. And then the other houses of similar size for sale were $700-999k Totally and completely beyond my faintest dreams.

So, here we are in our small house, living our small lives. And my brain is back to arguing with itself about how I should be grateful for what I have, and how at least this house is bigger than the 2 bedroom apartment we lived in before we moved here, and how many people in the world are less fortunate than us. And it's hard to listen to all those arguments when I see what seem slike veryone I know in bigger houses with more land or better features than what we have. And I know I'm being selfish, so I have to just stop, and give it to God. It's hard to keep from wanting what I can not have.

Ah well, dreams are exersice for the imagination, right? Back to my fantasy land... I have a model to work on this morning, as well as everything else on my schedule for the afternoon.