Mood:
lazyI still feel very tired. Wish I had a hammock on a beach like the one in the emoticon to sleep in. I could sleep some more, pretty sure of that. I don't think I've been sleeping very well when I m asleep because my brain has been working overtime on all these strange dreams. Most of them I can't remember when I wake up. But the one I do remember from last night (as an example) was fairly short (I think it was the end of a longer dream, I just can't remember the rest. I was doing a journalistic article on the big Asian grocery store near here. Uwajimaya I was talking to the lady at the fish counter, and she was telling me how they were catering a preschool/daycare luncheon (with fillet of sole, sushi and crab salad?) and she was showing me the uncooked fish in the clear plastic containers when I realised I had not brought my camera with me. I guess that's why I'm not a journalist in RL, because I can't even remember to bring my camera with me in dreamland! Does anyone else have dreams like this?
Anyway, I suppose I should make some kind of attempt at breaking out of this lethargy and sleep deprived, allergy induced exhaustion and try to actually accomplish something. I know I should be working on a new drawing but currently my motivation for drawing is not real high. Still frustrated at the series of events which served to crush my spirits this weekend. Oh, I don't think I mentioned the end of the story... See Saturday afternoon, I spent my last $6 on some used frames. Because I've been told I can't display my art unless it is framed. And I can't afford $75-125 per frame right now, and another artist I met suggested searching Thrift stored and yard sales for frames, so that is what I did. And I found several nice ones this time. There was one that fit my Grandma's picture perfectly, and looks really nice, so I put that one on her picture and will give it to her when we see her later this month. Then I put as many others as I could find into frames, and took the one of the Chimpanzee downtown to some a couple galleries, a frame shop, and coffee shops where it had been reccomended that I might find someone who would hang my art on consignment. I got 3 no's and 2 call back laters. One of the Art galleries I went to, I learned later, was run by a college art professior and he only displays his own art in the gallery. I guess that's what artist's have to do these days to get their work on display to the public for sale is to open a gallery exclusive to their own art. Anyway, it was horribly discouraging and after the emotions of the night before and the experience of that afternoon, I was left feeling like maybe I was wrong in following the lead of my heart to work on my drawing again. Maybe I was better off not drawing at all. No one is interested in pencil drawings. /sigh
But I do have this one commissioned work I have to try and get to look right, and hope to deliver this week. I may end up drawing 3 pictures - the one I finished already, a face portrait that I think will look really nice (but isn't actually what he wanted), and another full body pose if I can make it look good. I thought about trying to do one where he is holding her also, but both of them have their eyes closed in that photo, and I would have to sort of invent the expression in the eyes, and it might just turn out looking creepy, so I think I'll skip it for now.
Beyond that, I also need to do some more work on my game. I still haven't finished the work on that "special" 3D model I started a month ago. I've put some extra details into it, and it's taking longer than I thought to get it finished. I need to get back to working on some of the more mundane models. There are so many that need to be drawn! And I need to try and get hold of my friend also to see if she is still interested in helping, or if she has come up with any new inspiring ideas.
I can't believe it's the 6th already! Fathers day, my husband's birthday, my youngest son's birthday, my Father's birthday, a trip planned to Seattle, and I think a couple of kids' camps are all supposed to happen this month! Summer is way too busy! June especially, July isn't a whole lot better. And August is just plain too hot to be much fun. Ugh... Here we go again! Hopefully we'll be able to stop spinning long enough to be able to enjoy each activity as it happens.
Blessings to you all.
-Sparkling
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