- 3/1 Had a Friday school. (For those of you non-lexonians *lucky* - That means sitting after school for three hours in a craphole with a bunch of potheads and LD kids.) Not that I personally have anything against them, I just think it sucks that I get the same punishment for 5 tardies to school that they get for being caught fighting or breaking far other worse rules. Most of the kids in there are there so much they make plans for what they're going to do afterwards every Friday. To make it all worse, at around 6:00 my mom started getting really sick, and we had to call my grandpa to take her to the emergency room at 10:00.
I would be lying if I said I'm not scared.
- 3/4: no more senior research paper! Mom has surgery tomorrow.
- 3/5: Mom's surgery went fine yesterday, and that makes me feel better. However, we got there at 1:30, and she was scheduled for 3:00. They didn't get to her until 7:00, and we were the last people to leave the surgery center. They were literally locking up behind us. On the way home, about 10 minutes into the drive, we blew a tire. It took us about an hour to fix it. Once we got home, it was after 1 AM. What the @&#$?!?!
- 3/12 Lots of things are sucking, especially relationships with other people. It's amazing the things that even my *close* friends don't know about me; not to mention disappointing...
- I hate it when my friends are having problems holding themselves together, and I can't do a thing to help them.
I'm not going to say any more right now because it won't change a thing.
- I added new conversations to Word Association and more brilliant wisdom to Revelations.
- 3/13: Nothing much to say that you'd care about. My mental state hasn't changed since yesterday, sorry. Added my Straight Edge opinions, which I know some SXE people are bound to disagree with. Oh well.
- 3/18: Nothing much. Been bored a lot, listenin to lots of music, and working on a story that I might put up here.
Sometimes I wish I could be one of those people that are content to spend their entire life in the same place they were born in, surrounded by the same people. A lot of those people die in the same place and have no real complaints. I'm not one of them, though. Sorry.
- 3/19: Had auditions (i.e. victim tryouts) for the Mock Crash. It was sweet. I left there so emotionally drained...wow. The Mock Crash is an offspring of a group I'm in called the Youth Safety Council. Each year the YSC puts on the Mock Crash - a docu-drama used to show about 2000 high school kids the dangers of drinking and driving, and coincides with prom time. It's pretty graphic, and I'm very proud to be part of delivering such an important message. I'm hoping to get to be a victim. Wish me luck!!
- 3/20: We got Road Runner today. Sweeeet. We also had cable tv installed, which I've never had as long as I've been alive. It's probably only going to be for 3 months, but I think I can manage to destroy some 50,000 brain cells or more in that amount of time.
- 3/22: I've decided to slightly change the way I do this section. By this, I mean I'm probably going to do more venting than informing. Sorry.
I'm really mad, because things are changing in ways I can't accept. For so long, there were so many things that mattered to me...and I made them stop mattering, because I knew that no amount of wanting something on my end would ever make it happen. (If you can't tell, I'm purposely not telling you the nature of what I'm talking about. Maybe someday.) Now I'm starting to care again, and I don't know what to do about it. It's hard when you work so hard for something, and then you just let it go. When you suddenly get an opportunity to do what you wanted in the first place, you fail because you stopped caring long ago. Because you had to stop. It isn't fair.
- 3/23: I'm sick of not being able to help the people that matter the most in the world to me.
I'm sick of not being able to help myself.
added TTMNS&QYCA (Thoughts that make no sense and questions you can't answer).
- 3/24: I didn't watch the academy awards. Instead, I watched a SNL marathon on Comedy Central. It was far more exciting, anyway.
-3/25: Awesome-ness. A snow day. At the end of March...haha...weird. I added My Life History - which I'd actually made a page for when I was 15. Oops. What inspired this is that my mom had to write up a life (medical) history to give to my principal. Since she was doing that, I thought, why not put it up? It turns out my principal is nominating me for an award for courage. Cool. Surprising, but still cool.
- 3/26: Snow Day again. Woah.
- 3/28: Today was the last day of school before 10 days of spring break. Although I'm not going anywhere spectacular, other than maybe from my room to the couch, not having to go to the craphole institution known as school for a while is all too wonderful. I'm sooo ready to graduate...Amen.
Added FAQ. Maybe you should ask me something for real.
- 3/29: Strange things are happening. I don't know what to think. Should I be glad? Surprised? Happy? Indifferent? *sigh* People really confuse me sometimes...especially the ones I care about.
Why is it that things always seem to change at a time when it doesn't help you? Why do some good changes only mean you'll have to suffer more - just some time later down the line?
- 3/31: Happy Easter, if you celebrate it. And Happy Easter even if you don't. It doesn't make a difference to me.
I got sick on jelly beans today. The Tropical assortment Jelly Bellys really have a lot of vomit-inducing flavors. Pukatronic!
This month is over! wow.
Added Nicole's part I (of probably 4 or 5) on Word Association
