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Secrets 97, Page 3


Blair stopped talking. She saw Viki and Susannah heading towards the lounge and Téa and Kevin walking towards the doors that led off the unit. Blair didn't know that Susannah had asked them to leave for a while so she and Viki could explain things to her without a free-for-all between them and Blair. All Blair saw was the two of them heading off together.

"He's not crying anymore. Did you drug him?" Blair asked as soon as Susannah was in hearing distance.

"No, he calmed on his own. He's having a bath now. He likes water," Susannah answered calmly. Both Sam and Blair were happy to hear that.

"Blair, did Sam tell you about Adam?" Viki asked.

"You mean that he is supposedly autistic? Yes, he did." They did not miss the inference to a misdiagnosis.

"It is common for there to be autistic, infant and handicapped alters. I very strongly believe Adam is autistic. Based on my observation, he fits most of the criteria for autism according to the DSM IV. That is the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, Fourth Edition. I'm also basing my diagnosis on CARS, The Childhood Autism Rating Scale. Based on that I'd say Adam falls into the moderate to severe range," Susannah explained, patiently.

"Doctor Hanen, wouldn't it also be possible for the drugs Todd has been given to cause some or all of these symptoms?" Blair interrupted. Blair's tone was more accusatory than questioning.

"No, not symptoms like these. Adam came out after Todd had an especially painful session. Todd and the entire system were overwhelmed. That is usually when an autistic, handicapped or infant alter comes forward. In a sense Adam is giving the system a rest and a chance to stabilize. I've tried repeatedly and unsuccessfully to get another alter or Todd out. No one wants to come out right now. Adam is serving a purpose," Susannah further explained to Blair.

Blair took a deep breath. She was almost afraid to ask her next question. "What happened to Todd during his last session?"

Susannah caught Viki's eye. Viki nodded for her to tell Blair. "Todd remembered a night when his father threw him and his mother out in the snow. He acknowledged some of his feelings of anger toward his mother and he remembered his father forcing oral sex on him."

Tears filled Blair's eyes and spilled down her cheeks. Viki noticed Sam's jaw was clenched, as were his hands, into tight fists. He stared straight ahead.

"I know Todd needs to remember and accept what happened to him, but maybe you pushed him too far. He's just gotten over those horrible status epilepticus seizures. Maybe he wasn't ready?" Blair protested.

"Blair, Todd was ready. He would have gone away before he remembered if he hadn't of been. If we wait for the perfect time Todd will never progress. He's beginning to develop a better trust level with me and with the staff. He needs to learn that no matter what he feels when the memories come we can keep him and those around him safe," Susannah gently explained.

Blair thought about it for a few seconds. "But you didn't keep him safe. You pushed him to the point that an autistic alter had to come out. Now that he is out you are torturing the life of that sweet little baby. You do things to him to cause him to cry hysterically and then you do nothing to help him. You even make him beg for food!" Blair exclaimed loudly.

"Beg for food! Who told you that?" Viki asked, wondering where Blair could have gotten such an idea.

Blair looked down. She didn't answer.

"I told her that," Sam spoke up.

"Sam, you know that's not what is happening during Adam's treatment," Viki admonished him.

"Well it's damn close enough. If that little boy wants as little as a cup of juice you make him perform like a trained seal for it. He has to perform one of your 'tasks,'" Sam emphasized the last word sarcastically, "before he can even play with a ball. He spends most of his time out in a tantrum because of what you are expecting of him. If you ask me, if you would just let him be he'd be a lot better off. Then again why ask me! I'm nothing to Todd. I'm just the guy who sent him back home to be tortured every day of his life. He couldn't even stand to have me touch him. When he needed someone he reached out for Téa and even Frank, but he couldn't bear for me to come near him."

"Sam, Todd has a different relationship with the staff then he does with you. He doesn't love us. Yes, he is afraid of being abandoned by us, but that is because he has started to bond with some of us, in a therapeutic way. Maybe Todd couldn't let you touch him because he loves you so much. You heard how he felt. He felt dirty and used. He felt like it was his fault because he let Peter do that to him. He felt like he deserved it because of the part of him that desperately wanted his father's love and attention. You heard how he couldn't believe that Peter was actually talking to him. Todd's recognized that there was a part of him that would have done anything for his father's love. He hates that part of himself. He felt like his sold himself, right down to his soul, for some love, affection and attention. He might not have felt worthy of your touch. He also became very upset when he realized Téa was still in the room. Do you remember that?" Susannah reminded Sam.

"I just knew it! I knew Téa had to have some part in him becoming this upset," Blair thought to herself. "Why was Téa allowed to be with him during a private session. I can understand Sam and Viki being there but Todd doesn't want Téa around him. You had to have known her being there would drive him over the edge!" Blair accused. She was having a hard time controlling her anger.

Viki turned to Blair. "Todd asked for Téa to come to see him. In fact he insisted that he had to see her. He made the connection between his father throwing his mother out into the snow and the night he threw Téa out. Todd needed to be with his wife." Viki did not say that to hurt Blair. She needed to make sure that Blair understood this clearly.

"He asked to see Téa?" Blair did not believe this.

"Yes, he had us call her out of court," Viki answered, more gently.

"Damn her!" Blair thought. "She's getting closer to Todd so she can make sure he never gets out of here. Once she has all his money she and Kevin will make sure he goes completely insane and is locked away forever, if he doesn't die first." These thoughts pelted Blair's brain. She knew that she had to try to get Todd out of there. "Time is running out for him," she thought to herself, fearfully.

"Blair, would you like to talk about what you have just learned?" Susannah offered.

"No, thank you," Blair answered curtly. "I would like to ask you why you are treating Adam the way you are."

"What I am doing with Adam is called Applied Behavior Analysis. It's a special program that many children with autism do very well in . . . ." Susannah went on to explain the very basics of ABA to Blair.

Before she had a chance to finish, Sam turned to Viki. "So you are definitely going to allow her do put him through this?"

"Honey, I don't think we have a choice. Adam is suffering because he can't tell anyone what he wants. Most of his tantrums are because he wants something or something is hurting him and he can't tell us, like his skin being so sensitive to anything but the sweatsuit material," Viki reasoned.

"You mean like the way I caused him to become so freaked out by covering him with that sheet so he wasn't running around naked in front of Nora and everyone. You mean the way I caused him to have a seizure."

"Sam, you absolutely did not cause Adam to have a seizure. I'm sure the seizure would have happened anyway," Susannah told him, firmly.

"Nora!" Blair exclaimed. "What the hell was Nora doing here and why was Todd naked? God! Todd doesn't like to show his body to anyone." Blair's mind was spinning. All her fears were coming together. So Susannah was on good terms with her sister after all, her sister who hates Todd with all her heart and who is married to a Buchanan.

"That was my doing," Sam confessed. "I got drunk at Club Indigo and Nora was there. She drove me back here and helped me upstairs."

"Adam has no concept of naked. He does not really have a concept of other people. We covered him as soon as we were able," Susannah explained.

"Blair, after seeing Todd last night Nora is beginning to realize how wrong she was. She realizes he is very ill. She understands why Susannah became and remains Todd's doctor." Viki thought informing Blair of this would help.

All Blair could feel was even more fear for Todd and more certain of a conspiracy between Susannah, her sister and the Buchanans. "It can't be ethical for the sister of one of Todd's enemies to remain his doctor." Blair kept these thoughts to herself.

"Blair, Blair!" Susannah called to her.

"I'm sorry, I was just thinking about everything you told me," Blair covered.

"Blair, would you like be a part of Adam's ABA program and work with him? Before you answer I need to let you know that Téa and Kevin are going to be working with him. I would not have all of you come in at the same time. Unfortunately, there is always the possibility of you all ending up in the same room together with Adam. I need to know if you will have a problem with that, if you choose to work with him?"

Blair was shocked. She never expected Susannah to ask her to be near Adam or Todd or any of them. She didn't think Susannah would want her around to see what was really going on. Like Sam, Blair did not want to put Adam through anything like what Susannah had described, but she also wanted to be where she could keep and eye on things. She knew they wouldn't dare hurt him in front of her.

"I would do anything in the world to help that precious little boy or Todd or any of them. You know that. You also don't have to worry about my being around Téa and Kevin. I can control myself if they can. I would like to learn a little more about this though."

"You're going to participate in this!" Sam asked Blair, unbelievingly. She was the last person he thought would go along with this.

Blair wished she could tell Sam the reasons behind her decision, but she still didn't trust him. He was upset now. Once he calmed down he would once again believe Susannah, Viki, Téa and even Kevin could do no wrong as far as Todd was concerned.

"Sam, I don't know. I just want to find out what the program is all about," Blair kept her voice calm, despite the fact that she was angry, scared and confused.

"There will be an unofficial training session in about an hour in my office. I would like to call in a therapist who specializes in doing ABA to do a formal session tomorrow or the next day or as soon as it can be arranged. The sessions would run about two to three hours each and you would need to attend about three of them. During the training sessions all of you would have to be present at the same time. If he is still out, Adam will be there for the second and, if necessary, third one. If you say that won't be a problem, I believe you. I will make sure Téa and Kevin have no problem with this either." Susannah did not want Blair to feel that she was being picked on.

Susannah turned to Sam. "Sam, will you attend the training session?"

"I think I'd do better to spend that time with Adam or whoever is out," Sam responded.

"Sam, you don't have to participate in training Adam. Don't you at least want to know what it is all about?" Viki didn't want to push him. She couldn't believe that he wouldn't even be willing to find out the details of the program.

"Why do you need me there? You've already decided what is best for 'our kid!'"

This was the first time Sam said that without love in his voice, only anger, sarcasm and bitterness. Tears formed in Viki's eyes. "I do only want what is best for him. I believe this is it. I want to give him a way to communicate with us. Sam, you know how important that is. For Adam and later on for Todd."

"Viki, it doesn't matter what I feel or think or know. You are Todd's guardian and Téa is his wife. When it comes down to it I'm in the same boat as you are Blair. It doesn't matter what the hell we think. We have no say when it comes to what is done to Todd." Sam turned to Blair. "At least you fight for him. I had my chance to have a say. I had a thousand chances. I could have had my say with the police, with the courts, with child welfare, with my wife. I could have insisted that we take Todd in. I never spoke up for him then and I have no right to now."

"Honey please, it's not like that." Viki didn't know what to say to him anymore. She didn't know how to help heal this huge wound that was just getting deeper.

"Susannah, can I see Adam now?" Sam asked very formally.

"He is probably still in the tub. I told them to allow him a long bath to calm him. It must be doing the trick. If not they would have let me know." Susannah hated to say this, but she needed to do what she thought best for Adam. "I would like you to wait until later, Sam. He's getting a feeding and his meds. I'm hoping the bath will make him sleepy enough to nap afterwards. He needs to rest."

"He's also in there without his family!" Sam pressed.

"Sam, Adam isn't like the other children. He is not emotionally dependent on you or Viki. Not at this point," Susannah tried to get Sam to understand he wasn't being rejected.

"Are you saying that it makes no difference to him if it's you or me or some guy off the street in there with him, that children with autism don't have the ability to love!" Sam declared bitterly.

Susannah could tell that Sam's temper was flaring. "No, I'm not saying that at all. Adam may have a great capacity for love; it is just not expressed in a typical way. He may get to where he very much enjoys being held and hugged but he may never respond in a way that typical children do. He may never hug you back or understand that the person hugging him wants love returned. The concept of other's having feelings may always be foreign to him. He may see the people who love him as objects, possibly his favorite objects, but not necessarily as people with feelings and needs. Eventually, he may come to have Theory Of Mind, but he doesn't seem to have it now. That is not to say he will not soon become attached to those who love him."

Hearing this only made Sam more determined to reach Adam his own way. "So, you are saying that right now he doesn't need any of us to be with him.

Susannah knew Sam's anger was blocking his mind from understanding this. "No, I am saying that his dependency needs are not as great as the other's. The staff is able to handle his needs right now. I want it as calm as possible for him. Todd's body has been through a lot today."

"And who are the ones that put Todd's body through that! You, Kevin and Frank!" Sam shot back.

Viki could see Sam was being unreasonable. He was acting like a stranger. She also got an uneasy feeling because he was acting this way in front of Blair. "Honey, please, why don't we go for a walk. It looks like it's a beautiful day out. Maybe then you'll be ready to at least hear about the ABA program in detail," Viki suggested.

"I think a walk is an excellent idea but I'd like to take it by myself, if you don't mind." Sam said coldly.

"Sam, you don't have to talk to me. I would just like to be with you," Viki pushed.

"If you're worried that I'm going to get drunk again you don't have to concern yourself."

"No . . . I-I just thought it would be nice to . . . "

"To baby-sit me, to try to make points for this program Susannah wants to put Adam through, to remind me of how I failed your brother!" Sam interrupted.

"No! Sam I've never thought that. Never! You know that." Viki couldn't believe he thought that.

Sam wasn't hearing anyone. He heard the words but he didn't really hear. "Viki, how many times have you told me you wish you could have raised Todd, that you could have been there for him from the beginning. Well I was! Almost from the beginning. I had the opportunity to save him that you never did. I saw that small body, always hurt. I saw the pain in his eyes. I would watch him cling to me whenever it came time for him to go back home. Oh he didn't hold on to me and say 'Sam please let me live with you.' He still said it in so many other ways. He cried out to me from the day I met him and every time I turned my back on those cries. Can you honestly tell me that you don't blame me? Can you say that you've never thought that Todd could have been someplace safe, from the time he was eleven years old, if I hadn't been so wrapped up in my own life and had allowed myself to really see what was going on?" Sam turned Viki towards him by her shoulders. He stared into her eyes for the truth. "TELL ME YOU'VE NEVER THOUGHT THAT!" Sam shouted in her face.

"I have wished that you would have realized what was happening to Todd, but I've never blamed you for not seeing. Sam, if you had known what was happening to him I know you would have stopped it. Times were different then. People didn't know the things about child abuse that we know now. I know how well an abused child can cover up what is happening to them. No one who knew me would ever have suspected what Father was doing to me, yet the signs were there. If it were today, they might have known. They might have been able to stop Father." Tears started to fall down Viki's cheeks.

Sam continued to look into Viki's eyes. Hurting her was the last thing he wanted to do. "Viki, I love you. I need you to know that. I can't do this now. I need to be by myself for a while. As Susannah pointed out, Adam doesn't need me right now. I have hurt Todd enough. I don't intend to continue to do it in the guise of this so-called program. I can't stop you from allowing this, just don't ask me to participate. Don't ask me to see that child crying and ignore him. Don't ask me to make him do tricks before I give him something. I told you, you will have to bar me from seeing him if you want to stop me from trying to give that little boy whatever he wants when he wants it. That child would not exist if I hadn't failed Todd. Now that he's here I have no intention of making his life even more miserable than it is."

Sam let go of Viki's shoulders. "My cell phone is turned on if you need me." Sam said. Without another word he headed for the doors to be let off the unit. Viki watched him walk away. She shook her head and a few more tears fell.

"Doctor Hanen, Viki, I want to come to the first training session. You say it starts in about an hour?" Blair asked.

"Yes, in my office in an hour," Susannah repeated.

"Fine. I'll be there. I just need to take care of some things at the paper," Blair informed them and also rushed out the doors.

Blair had no idea things between Sam and the rest of them had deteriorated to such and extent. She did not think Sam was likely to change his mind any time soon. He was vehemently opposed to Susannah's treatment plan. Who knows, maybe to a lot more than that?

Blair rushed out of the hospital and jumped into her car. She saw Sam's car was still in the hospital garage so she knew he must have gone for a walk like he said he would. Blair headed toward Sam's office. She thought he might be headed there. There was no sign of him on the street. She made a U-turn and headed in the opposite direction, towards the park. She was almost near the entrance when she saw Sam. Her heart went out to him. He looked suddenly older. He walked slowly, with his hands in his pocket and his head down. Blair pulled up alongside him.

"Sam!" He didn't hear her. "SAM! Blair shouted. He stopped and turned to her car.

"Did Viki send you to follow me?"

"Me?" Blair smiled. A surprised laugh escaped. "Viki would never trust me to do that, Téa maybe or Kevin, but not me."

Sam realized she was right. "Yeah, I guess she doesn't trust either of us to do what is right for Todd. Who knows, maybe she's right," Sam stated.

Blair couldn't believe she was talking to Sam Rappaport. He was like a stranger. "No Sam! She is not right. I know how much you love Todd. I know that you only want to do what is best for him and for the alters. Todd is your only priority. You are not concerned with Kevin or Téa."

Sam got the drift of what Blair meant. "Viki loves Todd with all her heart. He comes first with her." Sam did not only say this to defend Viki but because he knew it was true.

"I'm not saying she doesn't love him. I know she does. It's just that she has a lot of people influencing her. She has loyalty to everyone, not just Todd. That's what we have in common, Sam. Our loyalty is to Todd only. Susannah was not our doctor. Kevin is not our son and keeping Téa happy does not concern us." Blair said this cautiously. She knew Sam still did not believe that.

"Téa loves Todd. She has no feelings other than friendship for Kevin. I'm not sure about too much anymore, but I know that," Sam firmly declared.

Blair realized she would have to take a different approach to get Sam on her side. "Okay, maybe Téa has no feelings other than friendship for Kevin. Can you say the same about him? Can you say that he's not smitten with the current Mrs. Manning?"

Sam knew he could not. "Blair, I really don't want to get into this now. Why don't you go back and join the others in their torturing lessons."

"Oh Sam, do you think I really want to do that to Adam? I just want to be there. I want them and Adam to know that someone is there for him who will not treat him that way."

For a second Sam felt a kinship to Blair. "Well, I don't know what you can do. Viki is agreeing to this. If you participate you will have to go along with the program.

"Sam I don't know right now. I just know that I want to be around. Not just for Adam, but for Todd, for all of them. Sam, I know you think Téa loves Todd and wants what's best for him. Underneath it all you think that about Doctor Hanen too. You think I'm being paranoid."

Blair took a deep breath. She knew that Dorian and her attorney would tell her not to show her hand at this point, but she was going on instinct. Her instincts told her that maybe now Sam would believe her. "Sam, I just want to show you something. Please! It's in the trunk of my car."

"What have you got in there, Asa Buchanans body?" Sam laughed sadly at his own joke.

"I wish!" Blair kidded back. "No, I have some pictures that may make you understand why I think what I do."

Blair took out the clasp envelope and removed the pictures. She placed them in Sam's hand. She could see his face go pale and then red when he looked at them.

"Where did you get these?" Sam's voice was shaking as he asked this.

Blair looked down. "I hired someone to tail Kevin and Téa." She then looked Sam in the eye. "Look at them, Sam! They are not just friends! They have romantic little dinners in the park. Téa entertains Kevin half dressed. They can't even keep their hands off of each other right under Todd's window! God Sam! Don't be blind. I know you like and respect Téa, but it isn't just Kevin. Kevin is not alone in these pictures. Téa is a very willing participant."

Sam did not want to believe this. He cared very much for Téa and he respected her. He also had no doubts about her devotion and love for Todd. Could his instincts have failed him, yet, again! Could he be as wrong about Téa as he was about believing Todd when he said he got hurt playing or burned by a pot on the stove? Sam didn't know what to believe anymore. He could not trust himself to know the truth. He was terrified and confused.

"Sam, please. I am not making this up. Don't you see how it all fits together? Kevin hates Todd. Viki was furious with him for feeling that way so Kevin suddenly does this about face and becomes Todd's best friend. He uses a four-year-old boy to prove himself. Téa married Todd for the money. It's still what she wants."

"Wait a minute! Téa has handled Todd's finances all this time and has never taken a dime. She has made money for Todd. Lots of it," Sam defended Téa.

"I don't doubt that. Lots more for her to get her hands on when Todd is put away forever or if he dies."

Sam head was spinning. "No! Téa would never do that. Viki would never allow Téa to do that," Sam insisted.

"Viki trusts her son, Sam! She would never think Kevin would do this!" Blair rattled the pictures in Sam's face. "She trusts Téa as much as she does Kevin and she also has complete faith in Doctor Hanen because of her own therapy with her."

Sam was feeling even more confused. His own guilt and depression were clouding his judgment and his ability to think straight. "Blair what are you saying?"

"I'm saying that I think Todd is right and the Buchanans are paying Doctor Hanen to make him worse. Look, I know what his father did to him. I know that he is really very ill, but look how long he's been in that hospital and he just keeps getting worse. Now he has epilepsy and an autistic alter came out. They intend to drive that child insane with this sadistic program. Kevin is in on it and so is Téa. They get rid of Todd they get his money and each other and Kevin becomes a hero to Asa."

"No. No!" Sam didn't want to hear any more.

"Sam please! You know I took a chance showing you these pictures. I trust that you are the only one who will put Todd first and do what is right for him. Help me! Help me to help Todd," Blair pleaded.

"Help you to do what? What do you want to do for Todd?"

"I want to take him out of that hospital. I want to take him away from Doctor Hanen and her staff and away from someplace that Kevin and Téa can have access to him. I want him away from all those drugs and restraints. I know they are keeping him sick. I know it! Sam, I'm not crazy. Please! Todd needs you. You said you didn't rescue him when he was a child. Well, you can make up for that. You can rescue him now. Please Sam, before they destroy his mind completely or kill him."

Sam shook his head. He didn't want to believe any of Blair's accusations, however he wasn't sure anymore. Some of what she said made sense. Maybe this was his chance to make up for not rescuing Todd from Peter. That was the one thing Blair said that now stuck in Sam's mind. He could have a second chance to make up for not saving Todd back then. The reality that there was nothing to rescue Todd from now was slipping further and further away from Sam as he clung to the idea of making it up to Todd. Like Todd, Sam was desperate for forgiveness and absolution.

"Blair, I'm not saying I agree with you or that I even believe you . . . what did you have in mind? Just walking Todd out of there and throwing him back into his old life?" Sam asked.

"No! Of course not. I would get the finest doctors and nurses and a whole staff for him. I would have every piece of medical equipment that they have on his unit," Blair informed him.

"So you just want him transferred to another hospital, as Todd would say, just transfer him to another loony bin?" Sam didn't get Blair's point.

"No, that is not what I want. I want Todd to be where we call the shots. Where we decide what, if any, drugs or treatment he's getting," Blair hoped she was getting through to Sam.

"I don't know of any hospital that allows the patient's family to call all the shots. If Viki were constantly refusing treatment Susannah would discharge Todd. She would feel powerless to treat him," Sam still didn't get what Blair had in mind.

"I don't want him in a hospital, Sam. I want to bring him home. Home to me and to Starr and to you."

For a second the rational part of Sam took over. "What! Blair, not that again. You know how dangerous it could be for him to be at home. What happens if he has heart problems or if he goes into status epilepticus again? What if he becomes psychotic or tries to kill himself again or has a flashback?"

"I told you. I would have doctors and nurses there twenty-four hours a day and any equipment they may need." Blair was desperate to impress this upon Sam. Sam licked his parched lips. His heart was pounding because this was making some sense to him.

"Sam you could live there too. You could stay with him any time you wanted to. No one could tell you when you could and couldn't see him. We would be his family. How do we know that what happened to his heart and even the seizures aren't due to the drugs they're giving him? Can you say with absolute certainty that the drugs didn't cause all of this?"

Blair's words pounded in Sam's brain. He thought of the last conversation he, Viki and Téa had with Susannah about Todd's medication. He hated the idea of those drugs being given to Todd. "You know there might be some herbal remedies that would work better than those drugs." Sam said this more to himself than to Blair.

"Yes! Sam there might be. Right out there on the shelves of some health food store there might be something that could help Todd without doing all this damage to him, but they would never think of going that route. All they want is to pump him full of poison. I know what those drugs can do to someone. They almost destroyed mama. Oh Sam, please! Just think about it. We can help Todd together. We can keep him from harm and in the home he loves with the daughter he loves. We can give it all back to him. You can save him. Now is your chance. Sam! You are being given another chance. Don't let Todd down again. Don't allow him to be hurt."

Blair's words were convincing. Not only because they played on Sam's vulnerability, his guilt, but also because they were from her heart. As wrong as she was, she believed every word she said.

"I don't know. I need some time to think about what everything you said. We need to give Téa and Kevin a chance to explain about what they were doing when those pictures were taken." Sam still cared very much for Tea and Kevin was Viki's son. He wanted to be fair.

"God Sam! Have you lost your mind! What do you think they'll tell you? Do you think they will admit what they are up to? No! All you'll do is make them a little more careful. Or maybe make them step up their plan and do even more damage to Todd, especially now that they are going to be working together in this program. Don't you see that is why we need to be a part of that and keep and eye on them."

Sam's legs felt weak. He needed to sit down. "Can we rest in your car for a few minutes.

"Sure," of course." Blair was worried. She could see Sam didn't look well. "Okay Sam, I'm not going to say any more about this now. Just please don't do anything foolish like tip our hand to Viki, Téa, Kevin or Doctor Hanen. I trust you. You know I want to do what is best for Todd."

Sam looked at his watch. It was almost time for the training session. "We'd better be getting back to the hospital. It's almost time," Sam reminded her.

"We? You're going to the training session?"

"I'm not sure about everything you said and I can't think about it right now. The one thing you said that I am sure of if that Adam needs someone there who will hold him when he cries and not ignore him because of some ill intentioned program. He needs someone who will give him what he wants without making him perform for it. Right now it looks like you and I are the only ones willing to do that for him. So let's go back there and protect that little boy."

Blair looked deeply into Sam's eyes. She saw the confusion but she also saw something else. She was reasonably sure she had found her ally.

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