Around 7:00 everyone gets to his house and we sit down to eat.. we ate.. played cards.. and i asked Jen for a ride home.. originally Beth (josh and his mom's boss) was going to give me a ride home.. but if that were the case josh wouldnt be going so she wouldnt have to come back to his house.. and josh doesnt have a car at the moment, his car died, and because he wasnt feeling well, he didnt feel like driving. Anyways.. So 10:15 rolls around and we finish playing cards..and josh tells me that he isnt going to go with Jen, Justin & I because he wants to sleep. I feel uber-bad about complaining because i know he doesnt feel good.. and for that i am sorry. But he knew I asked so he could go with me..but it isnt that big of a deal.. he just kept being sarcastic.. and i know i blew some things out of proportion.. like the way he kissed me, i knew he was tired, and wanted to sleep, but he barely even kissed me. Then his mom came in right as we were leaving so i knew we wouldnt have a "make-out session" :P

Am i a bad girlfriend? I feel like one. I am so selfish. I need to stop and think of his feelings too! I need to let him know how I feel. We def. need some alone time to talk. Actually talk and get some things straight. I just wish he knew how much i love him.. i just wish he knew.


stats:

wore:
dark blue jeans
normal jewelry
black tank top
dark blue, black & white plaid button up shirt
blue froggie socks
adidas shoes

song of the day:

"Crawling"-Linkin Park
crawling in my skin these wounds, they will not heal fear is how i fall confusing what is real...Without a sense of confidence i’m convinced that there’s just too much pressure to take...there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface..consuming, confusing..

quote of the day:

"Reality has a tendency to be so uncomfortably real." - Neil Peart