today was a good day! josh and i had that much needed talk. I wrote him a 4 page letter last night.. and gave it to him today.. we cried.. we talked.. it was much needed. I am glad i got a few things out.. we do need to talk more, i believe, because some things didnt come out that i wish would have.

i am uber tired.. i couldve slept all day. i dunno why. i keep rubbing my eyes.. bah! oh! guess was maggie did today!?!? I drove brad's truck.. oh man.. just in the church parking lot.. but i floored it.. i didnt mean to, honestly. I made tire marks in Dave's front yard. If he ever reads this, I am so sorry! he was there, so he saw me do it.. but still.. i had soo much fun! Ashley, Tracy, Rebecca and Sarah we in the truck with me, but sarah was in the bed of the truck.. anyways.. i had fun!

there was a car accident.. involving a big truck and a car.. i hope it wasnt brad & ashley.. a lil' after ten i called both of their houses.. and they both werent home, nor had their parents heard from them..i just hope it wasnt them.. please God. *prays*


stats:

wore:
dark jean shorts
normal jewelry
blue "Smashing Pumpkins" T*Shirt
white socks
adidas shoes

song of the day:

"Twilight"-Saving Sam
in the twilight now my eyes cannot see the dawn though it's staring back at me. in the twilight now my ears cannot hear the words that teach me how to learn. in the twilight where my dreams become reality i see i need someone to be a living part of me. in the twilight of my mind where no one else can go..in the twilight now my hands don't know what to do can i make them work? in the twilight now my feet have nowhere to go, I'm truly at a loss. in the twilight of my day i cannot go to sleep, maybe I'm to tired. in the twilight of my youth i only sing the songs about the things i've lost. in the twilight of my life what will i look back and see? will i be glad i grew up as me? in the twilight of my mind where no one else can go i can't escape the danger of the things i know...in the twilight where my dreams become reality i found someone to come and lift me out of the twilight, stronger than my deepest needs and now a part of me, He pulled me out of the twilight...

quote of the day:

"we are born alone. we live alone. we die alone. and anything in between that can give us the illusion that we're not, we cling to." - charlie sheen