My fantacy the other night...
(this is not nessessarily with one particular person in mind..it's a mixture of what really pleases me, think of it as a little story.. )
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I know exactly when its gonna happen.. end of september to middle of october.

I know exactly what i'm gonna wear.. long black boots, a mini brown skirt, and a baige turtle neck top..My hair waivy, long , olive color, all around my shoulders and arms...

I know where its going to happen.. we just had a nice dinner and I came over your place to have tea for a couple minutes and leave.

We have our tea and our little conversation. Its time to go. I feel the rush inside me. I know its going to happen. But i'll act as if like i'm really leaving; this way i'll add up to that aggression inside me and inside you. I see your smile. I look into your eyes. I can see how bad you want me and how deep I want you.

I can still smell the scent of this room, every time I come here, I feel peace. I can feel your smile, I've seen this smile, after it ends and we lie beside eachother, cuddling.

I smile back at you, trying to think and focus on this good bye. I give you a hug. My body against you. I feel your warmth. My cheek against your neck, reminds me of how tickly you were, when I kissed it. I hold you for a few second and you hold me. Its been a long time, I can feel that coziness , that closeness, that crazy chemistry we had before.

I have to let go. I depart my body, looking into your eyes, you still have your hands around my waist. I turn away to leave. but you are still holding me. I turn back and look at you. you want me. I can tell in your eyes. you want me badly and I want you.

trapped in confusion; I keep on looking at you. Is it worth it? is this pleasure of closeness worth all the pain i'm going to have later? or is it going to change this time? "change".. is what I hope for, everytime i'm with you.

I become myself again. you are still there, looking. you are closer to my face. I tell you how much I want you with my eyes, and before I know you close the door and push me against the wall... you know how much that turns me on. you lock your hands in mine and push them against the wall as well. no more looking.. I can feel your lips. still the same proportions. still warm. you know how to play with my lips. we kiss and you push your body against mine. My eyes locked up. I keep on kissing you. how passionate.. yes.. this chemistry with not go away. you move your hands up and down my body.

I feel a joyful warmth all over my body.. inside me. I want to resist it. the pain will be more than the joy, but this joy is the hardest thing to resist... you put your hands in my hair.. you gently push my hair down and kiss me harder. I get dizzy. this joy is taking over my body. I put my hands around your neck . I move my lips to you neck. I kiss you passionately. that sweet skin you have... I could kiss it all night.. you move your hands and take off my top ... its me .. bare.. my hair falls on my shoulders.. my breast.. my back..all around me. you brush my hair away from my breasts , and touch them. I look at you.. why are your hands so magical? why is this feeling so different with you. my hands are still around your neck.. I push you down. you put your lips around my nipples.. and you kiss... That warmth inside me, changes into a joyful burn.. all over mybody.. I want you badly.

you look at me again..our eyes meet and you know what i'm telling you. You grap me and lift me up and carry me to the bed.

That comfy feeling I get when i'm on your bed.. hehe.. how many times did you have to wash those sheets? poor baby.. its just you.. its this chemistry that gets me this much turned on, gets me this dripping wet...


I take off your clothes, as fast as I can, I cant wait anymore.. and you take off mine.. I feel your warm body brushing against me..

Its been a long time.. this time it's going to hurt.. but the pain is the greatest and most joyful pain.. i'll take it..

I grab it and look at it.. I smile.. I used to call it "my husband" , cause I loved it so much... I used to tell you that this is my husband and its alway mine and even if we broke up and you got married, THIS is still mine and no one elses. and that I would never cheat on my husband and I need my husband to make me happy all the time. you smiled and agreed, and we both knew, its not going to happen..

This could give me the most extrodinary gift.. that's why, I thank you eveytime we make love. And you look at me, like i'm weird for saying that.. and you ask me why do I thank you? only if you know, what kind of a pleasure you give me.. you would want me to thank you 24/7.

Its hot .. in my little hands.. it's hard... I can still feel that burn inside me. I want it with my body and I want you in my soul.. cant wait anymore. You kiss me again.. I close my eyes, and put you inside me. I tell you to go slow. It's really going to hurt this time. You move slowly in me.. inch by inch.. you pause for a couple seconds so I can breath and take it in. a couple pushes and I think you are inside and this joy's only going to get better.. but no .. there's still more. You get bigger and bigger, everytime, i swear! you push it harder .. I cant control my voice getting louder.. you push it even harder.. I scream..

I havent had this in so long.. I've missed it so much.. I grab you and push you close and we both move together.. you know how to move. I dont have to say anything.. you know how exactly I want it..you are so deep inside me, I'm giving my whole self to you. you are so deep, its undescribable..

quickly you turn me over.. and you feel my back.. you say "this feels good.. I missed your bum" .. i smile and you enter me again..

inside me.. i'm burning.. its another kind of burn.. its heaven.. I feel hot and dizzy.. cant take this anymore.. my voice louder and louder.. cant control it anymore... I take a deep breath .. my body shakes... my legs are numb..

I scream louder and you push harder and deeper..

we become one..