The Sink Was Full Of Fishes

The following day Jill got mail from Florence.Even though due to its immediateness Internet were the communication tool they were using the most,not rarely Melania used to send to Dowlands' house big parcels that were nothng more than letters (books, some uncautious observer would have said), free from the fragmentary frenzy that makes often emails a heap of funny sayings or trite sentencies.
For Melania the handwriting was keepin a quid of intimate sharing.
Hi Jill, howya doin?
I just passed another exam not long ago, and some days ago it did happen to me something very strange, but nonetheless extraordinary.I don't know where to start from and prolly isn't exactly with you that I should confess this but I can't hold myself, and I think you're not gonna be too much involved in this anyway so...
Well: I saw Stefano again. THAT Stefano.
He was in Florence out of the blue, and out of the blue we met and...I felt such an emotion and I am keepin feeling it since it happened.Since I saw him I carefully avoided the Darkside and Jacob too.I don't know what to tell him and to be honest now I know I ain't feelin for Jacob anything at all.I realized it thanx to a meeting with a former lover, cos by comparing the two relationships I see now my current one lacks one major basis, and I mean the affection. I don't think Jacob will be particularly hit by my decision, maybe for some seconds he's gonna feel some burnt over his ego, but nothing more.
I think I am gonna talk with him tonight.
I know you're happy with this decision of mine. I have always understood you weren't liking Jacob at all.
Pity though cos our breakin will be also the end to my singin career in his brother's club. And you're never gonna see me onstage.I think you would have loved Darkside.It's very.. "London" as place.
I am a abit ashamed in admitting this, but I think all I was searchin in Jacob was an ease to help me in surpassing our detaching.
Please, please.. forgive me: I shouldn't confess this to an engaged man I know, but what I really wish is to never perceive lack of sincerity between us.
I leave Jacob cos I need more thana a friend, and I need more than a mentor, and more than some pretty face at my side. I just need more thana ll he can give me and to see Stefano again made too much of needs to strike back. I don't really think between me and him it can be like it was before we lost it all in February 95 and to say it fully I wouldn't even like it if it could, cos I am way different from the girl he used to love, but any way as free one I am gonna take my decisions better.
Well okay.. I stop with my messes and I speak of other things.
I know our kids are on holiday, and I know there are mega gigs prepared for August too!! I read it on NME's site about this place named Knebworth where they'd lke to perform and I promise you if you're gonna find the tickets for them, no matter if I will have to sell the house for it I am coming too!!!
I swear: if you find them and if Kass agrees of course I'll fly!! I so miss my kids. I miss them and all the gossips you have there on them, even!
Couldn't you send me copies of your VHS about them? Please!
You're all so happy in love and coupled, you English people: Noel and Meg, Liam and the bitch.. ops sorry, I should have said Patsy.. you and Kass. I am a bit envious, but so joyful for you mostly. I am totally and only happy about you and that's for sure: to see how your story's goin well I confide too n the well disposed Destiny, to find as well the right one for me. I've got a good dose of patience and I am stubborn as hell. Everything solves with time doesn't it?
Still I am up: dunno why but I have great expectations over the second part of the year.
Now I gotta go, I have to study. And you've got to study too, lazy one!!
Live forever, bye Meli
P.S.Are you writing songs still? I'd need an author!!!