Mood: sad
Now Playing: The Remedy by Jason Mraz
Topic: Questions of Existence
Most of these are pointless and wont make since. Like I said before, they are just randum questions I've asked over the years. One day I might go through them, orginaze, and file, but until then I just add to the list. Feel free to add some if you want.
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1. Who am I?
2. What am I?
3. What am I afraid of?
4. Why am I afraid?
5. Where does this fear come from?
6. What is my deepest fear?
7. What makes it fear?
8. Am I happy?
9. What would make me happy?
10. What is love?
11. What is love to me?
12. What do I love?
13. Do I surpress my feelings?
14. Am I emotional?
15. Do I have a purpose?
16. What is that purpose?
17. Have I fullfilled that purpose?
18. Am I religous?
19. Do I have morals?
20. Do I have princaples?
21. What are they?
22. How strong are they?
23. Do I follow Gods will?
24. Do I know God?
25. Am I lissening to God?
26. Have I ever listened to God?
27. Do I love God?
28. Do I use God as a base point for problems?
29. How many problems?
30. Am I living in a fantasy?
31. Am I real?
32. If I'm cut, will it bleed?
33. Well it hurt?
34. Do I love myself?
35. Do I like myself?
36. Do I hate myself?
37. Do I displease myself?
38. Do I disapoint myself?
39. Am I a disapointment to other's?
40. Do I care what other's think?
41. Do I let myself be influenced?
42. It it a good or bad influence?
43. Do I want to hate myself?
44. Do I want to love myself?
45. Am I trying to get God's attention?
46. Can you see what is in peoples hearts?
47. Can I see what is in their eyes?
48. Could I ever?
49. Can I see my own eyes?
50. Can I see how others see me?
51. Am I a pesamist (negative)?
52. Do I have a physical problem?
53. Do I have a mental problem?
54. Am I evil?
55. Do I want to die?
56. Do I know how I'm to die?
57. Can I see the future?
58. Why don't I want to call a physic?
59. Am I scared of learning the truth?
60. Am I scared of not having an answer?
61. Why do I like horror films?
62. Why am I not scared by horror films?
63. Why do I laugh at blood, gore, death, and pain?
64. Why do I laugh when others are suffering?
65. Why do I like grave yards so much?
66. Why am I drawn to wicca?
67. Why do I want to read the satainic bible vs god's bible?
68. Why wont I comit to a relationship?
69. Why must I always need to know what my friends think of me?
70. Why don't I look into anyone's eyes anymore?
71. Why am I obsessed with eyes?
72. Why do I write about death and demon so much?
73. Why is the banchie so important to me?
74. Why can I not die?
75. Do I want to go to heaven?
76. Do I want to go to hell?
77. Do I beleive in either place?
78. Why can't I stop beleiving?
79. Am I strong willed?
80. Am I being tested?
81. Why won't God come talk to me?
82. Why won't Satin show himself dirrectly to me?
83. Why do I ask such questions?
84. Are the Angels protecting me?
85. Why do I feel so calm?
86. Why is music making me feel mellow?
87. Is music relaxing my soul?
88. Why am I getting headacks?
89. What is the unpleasent emotion I get when I'm mellowing?
90. Is it Jellousy, angry, death?
91. Do I have any goals?
92. Do I have any talents?
93. Do I apply myself at anything?
94. Do I care about anything?
95. Do I care about myself?
96. Would I cary if someone was killed infront of me?
97. Would I laugh if they were?
98. Am I possessed?
99. Have I ever been possessed?
100. Do I trust God?
101. Why did I almost jump off the cliff in South Dekoda?
102. What stopped me?
103. Why did I climb so close to the edge for?
104. Do I feel a battle within?
105. Am I preparing for one?
106. Is my mellowness a part of that war?
107. Why can't I kill myself?
108. Why do I want to cut my wrists so badly?
109. Do I want to drink blood?
110. Do I long for power?
111. Am I jellous of something?
112. What makes boys attracted to me?
113. Why do I hesitate to tell them no?
114. Why do I tell them no?
115. Why do I hate the color brown?
116. Why do I dislike large bodies of water?
117. Why won't I eat fish?
118. Why do I like SailorMoon so much?
119. Why am I obbsessed with Yugioh?
120. Why do I care about Ryo so much?
121. What's with me and cartoons?
122. Why can't I look in Chris' eyes?
123. Have I looked in any man's eyes after they said they liked me?
124. What do I see in Shawn's eyes?
125. Why was I so self-cousious in highschool?
126. Why was I afraid to cry?
127. Why was I afraid to fight?
128. Why did I dream about dieing all summer?
129. Do I have any friends?
130. If I call, will Jesus protect me?
131. If I die, will I have a legusy?
132. If I jump, will I fly?
133. Why do I put up so many walls?
134. Who am I really?
135. Why do I see a child?
136. Why can I sence love in the furture?
137. Why can't people leave me alone when I say no?
138. Why am I so closed up?
139. Why can't I grow up?
140. Why won't I kiss?
141. What's so specail about a first kiss?
142. What reason have I to kill myself?
143. What must I do to kill myself?
144. Why are my prayers so hallow and empty?
145. Why must I lie to everyone, including myself?
146. Why is roleplaying so important to me?
147. When is God coming?
148. When will I complete my goals for God?
149. How do I start?
150. If I died, who would cry?
151. Who am I hidding from?
152. Am I weak?
153. What makes me weak?
154. Am I brave?
155. In what way am I brave?
156. Would I take a bulet to save a friends life?
157. Would I take a bulet to save a stranger?
158. Would that bulet be for me or to save my friend?
159. What is my modivation?
160. Am I trying to get God's attention?
161. Do I really want his attention?
162. Do I need to be the center of attention?
163. Who is God to me?
164. What is God to me?
165. Do I believe in God?
166. What happens to my soul if there is no God?
167. Do I care what happens?
168. Do I trust God?
169. Why am I having bad dreams?
170. Why can't I remember the dreams clearly?
171. Why am I dreaming about cartoons in a real life event?
172. Why do I keep dreaming about a car?
173. Why was April and BJ Looking for me?
174. Why was I upset about my rocks disapearing?
175. Am I going blind?
176. If I miss the rapture, will there be another chance?
177. Am I angry at God?
178. Am I angry at Jesus?
179. Why do I want to see a demon?
180. Is something going to die soon?
181. Are my bad dreams- 2fish, theodor (dog) getting poissioned- a bad omen?
182. Do I care about school?
183. Why do I get a thrill when cartoons and book caracters get hurt?
184. Will I ever make something of my life?
185. Why do I call myself zorra?
186. Do I give up to easily?
187. Do I long for an end to this jumping back and forth and confusion?
188. Why did I close my heart off?
189. Why did I dare to open it back up after so long?
190. Am I happy when I get hurt?
191. Do I want others to hurt me?
192. Can I survive without being hurt?
193. Are my friends trustworthy?
194. Do I care about my friends?
195. Can I be honest with my friends about my personal feelings?
196. Is it only my pain I bear or that of others?
197. Why do I want to live?
198. Why do I cry myself to sleep?
199. Why is there no comfort in anything I touch?
200. Why do I fail at everything I do?