June 4th, 2000--dream (enter Aria..)

Sara and that voice girl from before, they were playing pool.. but the pool balls were triangular... they still rolled though.
The voice girl’s name is Aria or something like that... she’s nice. We threw darts at William’s head... made me laugh. He didn’t bleed, he didn’t seem like it even hurt, but he took it because it was his punishment for killing my cat. He threw her into on coming traffic in my dream and she died.
So we threw darts at him. Aria hit him in the eyes and they turned to dust, like on Buffy the V.Slayer (I hate that show) and I thought it was beautiful the way they just exploded waves of sand....
Aria seems so damn familiar to me..........

Aria-struck,
TayloR

June 5th, 2000--still driving

Van again...... cute people in car next to us. The top’s down (I hate vans)...two girls and a guy. They look so young & carefree.. like one of those fuckin’ commercials for acne medication or facial wash...
One of the girls sees me... (ha ha. She waved.. cute)

same day--after waving to the 3 kids in the car...
I figure the girl recognized me... she’s wicked cute though. Cuter than the boy. And the girl driving is... different... not beautiful, but not ugly.
Striking?
Yeah, that’s the word. She grabs attention.
We kinda just made faces at each other, me, her and the boy... until they had to turn a different corner... (they were 15 or 16?)
Oh well... it was interesting... I didn’t think people actually did stuff like that.

-Tay.

June 10, 2000--untitled entry

It’s been, like, a week? 5 days... whatever. Sara wrote to me today... she’s having fun in Germany.. I'm glad. She is so awesome.
I think I’m over him. I really do.
And the sun is radiant, I hope this isn’t a false feeling of happiness that will disappear at the first glance of anyone who even remotely reminds me of Will...
:0( We’ll see.

June 12, 2000--a big step

Today I told Zac.
I told him everything. It felt really good to finally say it to someone. We had the longest conversation of our lives today. We talked about William and everything else on either one of our minds... Zac was just happy I wasn’t on any kind of hard drugs (I know he’s smoked pot on a few occasions and he doesn’t consider it a drug) and he could care less who I like... he told me that he thinks everyone is bisexual. :0)
The things you find out when you talk to your brothers....

not alone,
Tay