3/06/04
WOW...it has been forever since I have written or did anything on this little website..
I guess I got carried away with other things, rather than the internet. Getting a life is always a good thing...but having a cool updated website is always a plus.
I think that I have grown up a lot over this last year...quite a bit, maybe? I listen to rufus wainwright and radiohead just about everyday...I saw radiohead in concert last year!!! It was so awesome.
AJ and I are still together, I will be moving to Dallas in a couple of weeks actually...I'll be living in Plano...
There is one drawback...Poke' Fe and Derek wont be with me!!!!! It's such a sad thing I will NEVER get over...they should move with me. :*) But anyways, Aj and I are really serious...marriage is a topic...*eh?* Oh yeah.
Something really horrible has happened...My precious baby Missy Mae, died last month. It was one of the most heart wrenching things I have undergone...she had cancer. She will forever be in my heart and I love her so dearly still, I wish it wouldnt have happened to her.. I'm certain that Missy enjoyed her short life. But there really isnt any sort of comfort for death of a pet is there?
Anyways, I would put some new pics on the site if I had some.....we just got back from Oregon, so I do have some. Maybe I will put them up sometime...Im out.
byebye 2/19/03
www.rufuswainwright.com
my justin timberlake...


2/17/03
im going to start putting some junk i write on my site...so yeah i think ill put it where my old 'art' used to be.


2/3/03
I think it's important for people to be honest
although i know its not happening...
wouldn't it be nice to have all your friends just be real with one another?
all i can do is my part in that right?
I think i am...and im always going to be real with everyone


1-20-03
I was thinking about it...
and Faith was so sweet to let me borrow her beloved thumb ring...
and i had every good intention when borrowing it..
but it was sort of large..and it slipped off my thumb one day while i was doing laundry.
no one knows where it went
...
and now..im the person who borrows sentimental things..and looses them.
so sorry faith


12/13/02
things are complicated...aren't they?


9/2/02
I love Smashing Pumpkins... you should too.


8/22/02
Concerning Jessica's and my terrifying adventure...
let me tell you about it
We were riding fourwheelers....we intended on it being a short ride because we were going to go four-wheeling with my parents after it. But we decided to turn down this logging trail thingy...and It had alll kinds of trails coming from it. So we went down some and down some more... and so on.. We eventually turned around to come home. It wasn't like I felt lost or anything... I felt like I knew the way back. But as it kept getting darker and darker...I realized we weren't exactly getting where we were supposed to. :-| We eventually found this fence...and that gave me some hope that we weren't in the middle of no where. We sort of followed it and finally found a trail to follow... You see, all of this time we were lost we were just in the woods... with no trail.. just making our own trail.
Anyways... Jessica was getting really panicy while all this was going on and I was trying to kind of laugh and remain calm. But we said a prayer together and stuff. :)
I had all of these thoughts running through my head randomly.. I didn't dwell on them because I was navigating us around.. I was in the front finding the way and Jess was following on her four-wheeler. So I had to navigate.. not too much time for scaring myself to death.
Anyways...we did eventually find a trail to follow and then a road... And, we're home and schuff. *Thank Jehovah*
But.. just imagine. Being in the woods, at night... with no trail.. no clue where you are and how deep in the woods you are...for and hour and ½...
man oh man
anywho... I got some wounds from our adventure. I scrap on my left eye and lots of scratches.
OH YEAH... one time my four-wheeler got stuck on a log..it was sort like, see-sawed on the log. And I got in the back and lifted then entire back end up.. and Jess pulled on the front... Yeah...we were really strong. I don't know how I lifted the end up... I must have had an adrenaline rush or something. HUM..HUUUUMMM
Okay...enough of that.

I'm so ready for fall... I can't wait:-|
Have a wonderful day
-ama


8/17/02
Do you think I'm filled with poop?


8/17/02
Today... I'm content
but sad :-|
I never really get down/depressed about things. I deal with things..and I secretly feel to the extremity...and all the while.. it's inside. And I'm still not completely sad. It's like a silent sadness... I live life... enjoy things..and every single chance of peace I get.. I think about it. But I don't let it interfere with how I live. I think it's good. But it sucks to never really -feel- things. Does it make me cold? :*(
Anyways... I don't feel this way all of the time.. just when I have something to feel this way about.
Bye bye


8/15/02
YO
Who thinks Radiohead is a good band? Raise your hands....?????
I love them :-|
Anywho, I'm hungry and I can't believe it's already 1 PM...how odd. When I am not at home.. I find it hard to update my page. I just don't feel it. So why taint my website with half-hearted content? I should stop writing this right now... I should.. Yes I will... talk to you when I get home.
hark


8/12/02
HI
I'm at Derek's house in Slidell... which is right by New Orleans. Tomorrow we're going into New Orleans. We're going to eat at a little place that plays live JAZZ
I insist on this you see, i must eat at a little place with live jazz. I'm not feeling the random-wordness tonight.. I am usually delusional when I write. So, sorry YALL, to disappoint you. Be looking at the pictures,...we're going to be taking a lot.
That's it... that's my rhyme, take it to the streets
biotch
BYE BYE


2:45 AM, 8-7-02
OKay... this is where I lay it all out... You don't have to have a code, password, or any sort of special friendship with me to read this... I'm just out there, for even the most critical person to see.
What will come from the DEEP mind of Amanda this evening? Well... you're fixxin to find out. So don't make fun... Embrace the weirdness and open your mind to the sillyness of your fellow internet geek, amanda.
Okay.... Today I gave in to an old habbit. I listened to the subtle callings of my toenails.
You see, I used to have this problem where I picked at my toenails all the time... And made them bleed. But as of late...*the last year I believe* I have overcome this haunting habbit, and I had my toenails lengthy.. and nice.
BUT But today... I got a little nervous I suppose... And started peeeeeeling them and making them short and stubby.... When I was finished with them *which only took a matter of minutes* they where devastated... a complete ruin. Shortened to the nub....
Darn you to heck compulsive habbits!
...............
yeah... I'm delusional... very much so



8/6/02
Hello....
so how's it going? I wonder if anyone reads this anymore.
READ THIS.. IT'S NEW.
Okay...so I was wondering what type of stuff I'm supposed to put on my updates... So I have just been putting what I am doing for the day.
So... uh.. I guess that's what I'm supposed to do. OKAY... I want people to e-mail me with stuff to do with the page. I want TONS of content.. SO help me out.
:-) Anywho... I have not much to say so buh bye for now..
Don't forget about the web-board... POST .. The password is: cush - so yeah...
BYE