7-1-03
cant help this feeling inside
not love,
not this time...
just this feeling inside
just these tears on my checks
just this salt on my tongue today

cant listen to any other beat this day
sounds are but lonely
not much but sad
steady prints of backward steps trace my day

not feeling much but nothing tonight
not seeing much but bad
not feeling much but this world
not seeing much but thats how it is forever tonight...
tonight is forever
just tonight


2/19/03
my warm companion
where have you gone
you once were sweet
you once were calm

my sweet love
what may has come
and you're not around
you're nowhere to be found

my dearest soulmate
i speak to move
but never to have
what once we shared

my lost partner
your wrist are red
your scars are sore
and your mind went astray

my gaping heart
can not seem to find
someone to fill
what you didnt leave behind


2/17/03
you said the thing that makes you sadest
is my scent when you leave
its there to taunt your ride
to your home far away
oh but your smell stays with me
in my own humble home
as i lie in bed at night
and pretend you're still around
the next morning i stay
still waiting for your wake
to stir the slumbering i
and help me face the day
the day with you
with you my love
makes my life so perfect
with all of its flaws


'From A Step Back' 2/17/03
the lights are fainting ever certainly
and i find some time to count all these memories
one of these days ill just look back and think that
all of this was just another..
one of those
little things
you find so delighting
but in time i come to see that i only find misery
in such emotional things..
such human things
when things get worn
they always find a way to wear out

as i stand by
i shake my head about it
oh no
what now

in the meantime i stay kept in this lonesome state
and now to count the days
no drama.. no ache... just here to pass some time..
some time 'til when these things get ever better
and in time they do and i see this
old town get brighter
now you're here and i seek for your longstay
the invite is in your heart and ive never felt this way
all this time i ... i cant believe i ever
thought all mounting and rising was so futile
only you could make me feel this way
its just you that could ever change my ways

now as i stand back..
i shake my head about it..
i shake my head about it
oh no..
what now


2/4/03
we all want to be older and drive a fancy car
with a big house
and a great job

i just want a hoopty
and a palm roof house
with a job to get me by
to get me by threw life

you like me to be outspoken
and sometimes i am
but most times im quiet
and barely even there
im inside my shell
where you're allowed inside
just be content with what i am
just be prepared to dwell

now that i let you in
i hoped that youd give me your heart
just be human
and dont care about my name-brand shirt