Wednesday, September 28, 2005

WHAT THE HAMFAT..
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Lyfe Jennings the whole cd.. ( cop dat.. not bootleg either)
Topic: random thoughts
I'm just got this CD and feelin it doesn't even describe what I'm'm tryin to say. He said the cd existed before he was ever born and it's true.. it's almost like a sermon and the preacher is preaching to you... crazy I'm know

Anyway, I'm'm writing because I'm'm full.. My brain can't hold anymore thoughts. I'm have a million things running around in my head and it's time to release.

First things first.. I'M STRESSED! I am so overwhelmed with so many things. I feel like I'm have turrets and I'm just gonna snap at any moment n yell something crazy at the next person who speaks to me. UGH!

Second.. WHEN DID I BECOME DR. RUTH?? I know I'm a lil wise beyond my years but oohh whee shoot. How did Imanage to become everybody's relationship counselor but never get paid?? I don't mind to help my people out but must you call me with every single detail of every single thing and ask for advice?? I can't even deal with my own issues for helping somebody else. Calgon take me away!! please.. hurrup!

Third.. why is it that when things are going well in your relationship the devil shows up and brings all his lil demons with him?? Exes jus poppin up like popcorn with baby this n boo that n aww baby come on .. BOY PLEASE... Your ship has sailed & sunk. Get the hamfat on somewhere. No turning back..

MAN WHEN IS SCHOOL GONNA BE OVER?? I HAVE THE WORST CASE OF SENIOR-ITIS ever. Nah but seriously, Ijust hate 2 of my classes. They're boring and one of the prof's thinks the whole class is in pre school.. I'm waiting fro her to break out the crayons and paste. any day now..

My brother said something to me last night that was very disturbing and it really made me angry. I have a serious problem with people thinking that beauty is based on size. First and foremost.. being a certain size does not make you any more or less beautiful than anybody else.. It's funny how certain people can't see past a woman's size and truly see her beauty, her strength, and everything else that she embodies.. Just because she's not a size 3 or halfway lookin she's not attractive.. NOT SO.. there are so many beautiful women in so many different sizes but some people get caught up in what society says instead of using their own mind. I'm thankful that I have a man who sees beauty for what it is.. more than just a physical

Speaking of him.. things are progressing.. It's a journey. Each day brings something new. a new , a new reason to love one another, and a new reason to one another and what we share. It's strange to think that someone you've been friends with for about a third of your life could turn out to be the love of your life. I can truly say that this experience is and has been a blessing. I'm learning a lot about myself, about relationships, compromise, what it really means to be supportive. I know this is part of God's plan of growth for me. I'm still on potter's wheel and even if this relationship doesn't work out in the long run.. I'm appreciating and enjoying every second of it. It's nice to have someone in your corner cheering you on, holding your hand, loving you, putting band aids on the wounds, wiping away the tears and pushing you when you're afraid to move. If you have it.. cherish it.. if you don't pray you find it.

I think I've said more than enough so I'll get back to enjoying my music.. Lyfe is truth.. check out the cd if you don't have it.. it speaks to the multitudes. Especially if you're in a relationship.. MUST BE NICE