Thursday, June 9, 2005

Mood:  hungry
Now Playing: All that I need (meth & mary)
Topic: what had happened was...
I'm got clotheslined by love. Who would have ever imagined that I'd be sitting here writing an entry about someone who's been my friend for eightt long years. But none the less.. here I'm am. All this time He'd been telling me and I'd been on lil Helen Keller mode. just couldn't see nothing. But I'm soo glad that I've seen the light.

Sometimes you just have to look at things and wonder what the hamfat was I'm thinking?? Why didn't I see that then? or where was I when this was going on? Doesn't really matter because everything has a time and a place. This is our season. It's just nice to have something genuine and someone who loves you without question.

I told him to show me that he loves me if he's serious and he did his best to try. Then one day it was like somebody turned the light on and I'm was standing in a room full of I love you's. Like I'd had been storing up old movie reels and they were all playing at once. All this time he'd BEEN showing me his love but I didn't see it. I guess I wasn't trying to see it. But now I do.. and I'm thankful for it.

It's amazing that he was patient all this time. He told me I was worth waiting for and he would keep on waiting until I'm'm ready. The thing that really got me was.. the very first time he ever spoke to my father he told him to start saving his money because he's going to marry me. How cool is that!! I really didn't think he was goin to do it.. can't wait to see what happens next