only lonely in the mornings
a bad day: so far. the point form verson because the first try was eaten by my operating system.

-wake up in someone elses skin. someone who's sick.
-it's saturday, so i have to go to school, WTF?!?
-the bathroom is freezing cold.
-my computer starts ACTING THE FOOL. details later.
-bloated AND fat.
-my pear is crappy. and it had two stickers, the second of which tried (in vain) to choke me.
-get ready to leave for school (on saturday, WTF?) realise i left some cd's at andra's.
-ride the street car. ali's right about how the air in the city is DYING DEATH. (details later)
-get here. sign on door. "audio librarian is on rounds, back in 10 minutes"
-about 30 minutes later...
-in studio, trying to lay down voice tracks, but i can't because my vocal cords (folds?) are swimming in some kinda CRAPY SICKNESS STUFFFFFFFFFFF!
-head hurts.

sigh.

~edit~
alright, shity day aside, what do you think of my editing skills? don't use up all of my bandwidth... again.
~edit again~ voice done...


-byron, best gong set ever, Sound Ideas, 1028 track 44, if memory serves me.

homepage.
my homepage has been simplified. i don't know. they have fun programs at ryerson. anywho. image maps and what not. this is being done so that in the future it might be a more professional set up.

tell me what you think.

my vocal cords with not vibrate, they are on fire and busy with that problem. me? i'm just sitting here waiting for them to work. work damn it.

sigh.

fixing a hole where the rain gets in,
stops my mind from wondering,
where it will go...

and it really doesn't matter if i'm wrong,
i'm right
where i belong
i'm right...

-Beatles

quote:
"the finite is annihilated in the presence of the infinite"

~Pascal

me and the world
my cousin is going to saskatchewan for school...

i wonder if i'll have to or get to go away a study.

rta has a thing where you can go to england or germany or australia...

i'm confused-

meta post?
cling wrap... useful stuff, unless your done with it, then it never goes away.

you might call it news
ali will be attending ryerson next year. it's hard to express the pride i feel for her (a) because it i think it might sound condisending and (b) because i'd have to use words. but considering the trial by fire she's been through... i just very proud.
good job ali. ryerson is a good place to be.

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considering all the talk of spiritually that's been flying around, i'd thought i'd throw my hat in.

the way i look at it, there have been instances in my life in which i've had experiances which struck me down, shattered my understanding of the universe, and built it up again all within a few seconds. for me, these are moments of experiance... be they food, landscape, a creation of humanity, a moment of love... or whatever.

my point is, the "spirit" did not reside in the event, but how the moment and i interacted, whether this was the work of god, whether it's the same god who send moses the commandments, or the god who sired hercules, or the god who creates thunder and lightning. or whether it was just me having my understanding of the universe changed by something i experienced.

the thought stream sometimes goes like this...
the sunset. why do we find it beautiful? why do we have emotions? how can we be so perfect and yet so flawed?

• a sunset to my left, a rainbow to my right. a new best friend, and a tear.
• the crash of waves, a beautiful woman, sitting quietly with me.
• wandering through the uncovered city of pompeii, nearly 2000 years old.
• stading ontop of a mountain, does it to my everytime, be it greece, canada, or britian.

there are more, but you get the idea. my point? believe in the things that make you believe. the events in your life which are spiritual, and find god or whatever in those things. believe in emotion, worship the sky and the earth, worship the creator. i will only tell you of my experiances.

when you've been writting to much...
"the new municipal government has taken steps to alleviate the feelings of alienation by setting up committees to facilitate a dialogue with the communities affected."

"if anything can, it is memory that will save humanity....For memory is a blessing: it creates bonds rather than destroys them. Bonds between present and past, between individuals and groups."
-Elie Wiesel