Monday, 27 October 2003 - 12:48 AM EST

the american dream is indeed a myth and bad for business. by that i mean people..it's just an expression...it's good for business. probably. i don't know. either way it's just setting people up for a big disappointment. hey kate and kirsten, remember that presentation we did about either 1984 or bnw? and we said stuff about how the system needs people to believe they can improve their status? i don't remember exactly what we said but i think it was pretty good and relevant to this...

i'm not quite so optimistic about how we'll all end up though. for me at least. laziness and apathy are very powerful. for example, in university we're supposed to do stuff we like. i, however, voluntarily did a book review of "political thought in medieval times". why, you ask? because it was short. it was also boring. think of this as a metaphor for life...i think you see where i'm heading

i know what you mean about the mood. sort of. i like darkness. unless i'm scared. then i avoid it like the plague. or hide under my blanket.

Monday, 27 October 2003 - 1:16 AM EST

it's darker under you blanket...

i didn't say that you had to be motivated to learn and get a good job, i almost said the opposite. i said that we will be the group that raises children in a home of love, in a place of nurture to lead happy lives because they know what happy is. and they will do this because we understand the it's not about materialism, but about the care. i think we, as a group will people whoes apathy will be correctly placed. ie not in the care of our children, or in the meaningful choices we make.

i willing to bet it didnt' matter which of book review you did, it would mostlikly have been boring, but you don't take a apathetic approch to taking care of your friends.

the funny thing is... 1984 is about a corrupt communist government, ain't it? lol, funny that we relate it to our current situation.

Monday, 27 October 2003 - 8:16 PM EST

I hereby claim this blog in the name of the African Queen!

Tuesday, 28 October 2003 - 1:15 AM EST

that's some down blogging, if I may say so? Is the self really any more removed on the page than in person? A greek said you had to be alone to discover yourself. An Italian said you had to be among others.

My evil shadow tells me, however, that the american dream IS believing you don't belong to the Everyone Group.

Chimpanzees are fascinating.

Old man, how is it that you see these things?
Young man, how is it that you do not?

Really, really fascinating.

If you ever become a producer we should col-labor-ate. Especially if you're a big fat producer and I'm a skinny little writer.

Thursday, 30 October 2003 - 11:47 PM EST

about the motivation job thing....i know about the whole lovin' apathy is different from the job apathy....i still think i'll end up with a sucky job though. well, not so much sucky, it's just that i don't think i'll ever be happy in any job no matter how fulfilling. like school, but in job form

and the other thing you must remeber about the being good parents and what not is that i'm not having children or a husband or anything....i'm having cats