a love unknown..........
you ever been really in love w/ someone, someone that u have known forever...as far back as u can remember this person has been around you..........but circumstances and time and evolution and the fucking tilt of the earth and all those things u cannot control screw it up for you? sucks doesn't it. soulmate suicide.......

i am starving
i want lunch. i am going to starve to death here in my freezing cold office. i am waiting for the jack-offs i work w/ to all come back so maybe i can take a lunch one of these fricken days. at this rate i will be eating todays lunch on monday. i am getting excited about burning man.............i haven't got the whole time off part figured out yet...i will probably only be able to take 2 days off so i'll go from wed night til monday morning (that mon. is a holiday) now i just need to scrounge up like $400 for my ticket, a tent, money to have my kick ass sleeping bag sent to me from connecticut, food, water and other misc stuff, plus gas of course (it's a 10 hour drive)and i'll be all set................hmmmmmmmmmmmmm. what can i do to make 400 extra dollars....anyone? anyone?

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kamakazi shots and hot tubs......
scandel scandel.........i am the queen of scandel. last night i went out w/ some folks that i know from a burning man group (if u don't know what burning man is go to www.burningman.com.i am going there this year i swear it!! ) we visited this little shin-dig called Mother's Tavern, which is in downtown SLO (San Luis Obispo for the layman) it is this irishy/trendy little spot where the bartenders where white shirts and ties and everybody is pretty dressed up. i even wore this killer little black dress i reserve for fabulous nights out (much to my boyfriend's dismay, who was coming in from work at 10pm when i said hello, goodbye i am going out suuuuucka...don't wait up!!)anywho, i am not really suppossed to be drinking b/c of my atkins diet (which i have lost 6 pounds in 7 days!) but i threw caution to the wind and dove into a few....well like 10, kamakazi shots. and i knew it was trouble when we were dancing to 80's music and i knew all the words to all the songs............after about 2 hours there we headed over to McCarthy's, a hole in the wall irish pub where all the girls look like Betty Paige, seriously the clothes and ponytails w/ bangs and red lipstick etc.......except they have tattoos EVERYWHERE. and all the guys are emo-y w/ black framed glasses and trying-to-be-witty conversations. at about 1 am we all re-routed to someone's house for naked hot-tubbing. (alas, i have a few morals left and cannot get naked in front of semi-strangers so i kept the undies on...) there is nothing like sitting in California, under the stars with beautiful palm trees all around w/ chill people (naked chill people no less) talking about life and drinking lots of water to escape from the you-know-you-are-going-to-get-it-kamakazi-headache.......... when i sobered up and staggered home at 2 or was it 3.....i was smiling andd laughing b/c the boyfriend will now have to 1) wonder why i am soaking wet ...and 2) sit on a wet car seat in the morning!!!! i rule. and after a nice hot shower and some excedrin i drifted off to a sweet sleep......til the alarm punched me in the head at 7am.........

what the hell am i doing here?
hello u there out in cyber space, probably as bored as i.......my friend has one of these sites...i figured if he can do it a one armed monkey named skippy could do it too. (no offense skippy) i am sitting here at my desk in my office with no air conditioning, pissed off b/c i cannot eat cookies. to hell with this atkins diet. bring on the heart attack bleached three times starches. is it time to go home yet??