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 Heading out of town, and looking back at the house I was born in tears filled my eyes. The parents I love more than anything I had to leave does. Not ever to come back, or so it seemed. Being very cautious and watchful of anything or anyone. I head out in the darkness, to make my journey home. Once I’m out of town far enough, not to be seen by anyone I close my eyes and begin my growing. Once I’m a GTS and I look around not seeing anybody I start my long steps that lead me to my town, my home. As the sky begins to turn lights out I stop and settle down for a light snack before starting out again. Reaching into the bag Mom packed for me I bring out egg sandwich and chips. As I reach into the bag again I pull out a soda and an envelope and look at it, it’s from Mom and says my daughter on front. As I open the sandwich and soda I look at the envelope and wonder what it is. Slowly I open it and it is a long letter from my Mom. Looking around to make sure no one sees me I begin to read, as I finish my meal. As I read the words my Mother wrote to me tears come to my eyes. Mom is like this also, she is a GTS, and can shrink and grow like me. She never let anyone know she could do this, she never had a reason to be that angry at anyone to have to grow or shrink them, or herself. She said she found out she could by accident one day, while she was at the beach. She was alone and thinking about something that ticked her off and she felt herself growing. Once she got tall and all it scared her and she shrank again. She said she never got tall again after that. It really scared her, so she kept her temper in check. Because she would be called the monster if others knew of her secret. Looking off into the distance, I realized Mom was right. If others who didn’t know or understand us would want is to be experiments and see what makes us tick. To see what is in our bodies to make us grow. I wouldn’t want that either, so I didn’t blame Mom for what she did. I understood her now more than ever. I wonder if Dad knew? I really didn’t think he did. Knowing Mom I know she wouldn’t tell him. And I really couldn’t blame her. Thinking of Dad and how he was as I grew up, No it was best to not let him know. I can remember things Dad did over silly things; I’d hate to see what he would do over something like that. Sheezh, poor Mom. Oh well, as I finished the letter Mom wrote I Wipe my mouth and fold the letter, then I put it back in the nap sack and started out again. As I make my way back to where I belong, my mind wonders to my lover again, why can’t I picture his face? Why can’t I find out who it is? I want to know so badly. Once I get back to my true home I’ll get my answer to my question from Wulfie! So I need to know where my lover and me stand, but I need to know who he is first of all. I wonder if he is someone in my family, in my Community I call family? Could it be? Could a man folk from Caz’s Island be my lover? Is that why I can’t picture his face? Oh Lord! What next? But I want to know no matter whom it is, I need to know. I love my lover with all my heart and soul. I want to spend the rest of my life with him! He’ll be the only man I love this deeply. Hearing a noise brings me back to reality and I open my eyes wide looking around, turning my ear toward the way the sound came from, but hearing nothing! Stopping in my tracks I listen again, but nothing. So I start out again on my journey. Whistling as I go, thinking how happy I will be when I get home. I can’t believe I wasn’t as glad as I thought I’d be going back and seeing my parents. Don’t get me wrong I love them and all. But I know I have a new home, and family. I’m happy with that. Camping for a short nap and snack I eat a banana and drink some tea. Afterward I lay down for a small nap. Dozing off I awake from a hand on my shoulder shaking me awake. Whispering in my ear, to join him in the waterfall. Opening my eyes, I see nothing! Sitting up, I adjust my eyes to the darkness and still see nothing. Thinking it was all a dream I doze back off. Waking up and feeling refreshed I start out again. Knowing I’ll be home soon and looking forward to it all except the answer I know that awaits me when I get home. Damn now I wish I hadn’t asked Wulfie that question before I left. Wish I had waited, but I didn’t so I will stick with my question. And if he decides to say yes then so be it. If my lover wanted to be with me he would have came forward long ago. A little saddened that he never did I push onward to my home. Wanting to get there as soon as possible. As I spot the ocean I wade into it knowing I can travel faster to my home this way. As I swim faster and faster I see all my play friends, dolphins, fishes of all kinds, sharks, whales, starfish you name it they are all here. As I continue swimming toward home I feel better inside and out. Coming to a stop a walk ashore, and sit down and have a small snack. As I eat my sandwich and drink a cup of tea, I think back to the letter that my Mother wrote. Realizing this is my fourth day out and I’ll be returning home soon, a smile comes to the corner of my mouth. Taking a deep breath I realize I’m looking forward to returning home. The sooner the better, I miss all my little people. Wading back out into the ocean, I dive underwater and start swimming. As I swim faster I realize I want to get home. I miss everyone, and can’t wait to be like I use to be, in control of my life again.  |