 As I look at my Dad and saw this OLD fragile man I feel tears starting in my eyes. Dad where is Mom? As he looks at me he asks if he can hug me? As I open my arms for a hug I start crying, as does he. He says Mom will be home soon, she went to the store. Dad am I still a wanted criminal? He said I’ll let you talk to your Mom, she can tell you all. OK Dad I understand. No one even took notice of me well I walked here. Dad how have you been? How’s everyone? Have I been missed? Caz ask Mom all these things OK I can’t speak of them, they sadden me too much. My baby girl left and I was left alone. Mother changed after you left Caz. Your see when she comes back. How you doing Caz, have you been doing well? We’ll still hugging when Mom walks in. She blinks and shakes her head when she sees me. Yes Mom it’s me, I am home. And we need to talk; there are many things I want to know. Mom just looked at me and it looked like she was scared. I saw a flicker of fear in her eyes. Mom am I still a wanted criminal? She said no I think the police think your dead. OK have they been around asking any questions for awhile? No Caz they haven’t been around for a good 5 months. OK that is good. Mom I have some questions I want answered and I want the truth. Did you have anything to do with those men kidnapping me Mom? No Caz I didn’t, that was the man I talked to about getting you away from here, on ship and to a far away place. But he never said anything about drugging you or nothing. And we paid him money all our savings to take you away. We almost lost the house. It was hard going there for awhile. Mom why did I see fear in your eyes when I said I wanted to ask you questions? As I look into her eyes again when I asked that question I saw the fear again. What is she afraid of? Or who is she afraid of, surely not me! MOM? What is wrong, why are you scared? She turns away from me and I can’t read her face any more. I’m not scared of anything Hon why would you say that? Well Mom I saw fear in your eyes twice now. No Caz not fear just tiredness, I am wore out. I don’t sleep much I have bad dreams when I do sleep. Mom did you know I was shackled and locked in a dirty smelly room the whole time I was on that ship? No Hon I didn’t, and that makes me even more hurt. That we gave a man a lot of money to get you out of trouble and he didn’t. What happened Caz, what did he do to you? Well Mom I was chained, and locked in a room, I had very little food and no baths, or clean clothes of any kind. The man of the ship I assume the captain tried to rape me. And I got mad and started to grow and the ship sunk and that was the last I seen of him. Nobody but me was saved that I saw. But I didn’t hang around to find out. Mom I had a bad time of it, I have no idea why I grow tall like I do when I get mad. Or how I can shrink a man or woman by a look from my eyes. Is this something that runs in family or what? Do you know of anyone else in the family that is like this? Mom I need to know what is going on. Just so you know I am not staying here I got a home to go back to once I get what I need. Mother asks what is it I did? Answers Mom! Answers to questions I ask! Mom I have a life now where I am and to go a step farther in my life there I need questions answered? First off I have a feeling from what I heard that you sold me the night I was drugged and kidnapped. Is this true, I need to know? Don’t lie to me, please! If you did I’ll except it and your never hear from me again, but I have to put a closer on this. That is all I will ever from you is the truth no matter how bad it might be. I’ve already told you Hon No I had nothing to do with your kidnapping we thought we was paying safe passage away from here for you so jail would not be in your future. OK Mom I believe you. I need your help though, nothing illegal or anything. I need to get a lot of seed for vegetables and things like that to grow a garden. And flour and supplies like that for my return trip. Mom I need to cash all the CD’s I got. Can we do that, so I can get supplies and get out of here and head back home? Mom asks if I am happy in my new home? Yes Mom I am happy. I love my Community and all my family there. It’s a great place Mom we are making it all of my family. It was a deserted Island. Now it is a Village full of great people and friendly faces. I think you would like it there Mom, you to Dad. We’ve built houses ourselves and made a jailhouse and school, and a church. It is so exciting making your own village. Having your people loves and need you. Mom when I am a GTS I have so much respect from everyone. You remember the many days I cried on your shoulder Mom from being laughed at from others? Well when I am a GTS nobody laughs at me, they run from me if they feel their in danger. As I look at Mom I see recognition and I know she has had that feeling also. I believe she is where I get my GTS. But I am not sure dad knows about it. I think I need to get Mom alone and have some serious talking with her. Because I know she knows all about this shrinking and growing stuff. Mom can I talk to you alone later, about women things? (Mom) Sure Hon whenever you want. OK Mom thanks, I appreciate it. Tell me how was life here after I left? Did the police harass you a lot? Did they watch the house and follow you whenever you went anywhere? Dad says: The police did their jobs is all, yes they bothered us a lot, followed us and were always there. But I believe it was all good. LOL With the police being around us constantly, nobody ever bothered us. What about you Mom, did the police bother you too much? (Mom) No dear not too bad, not as bad as I thought they would. It only lasted a few weeks anyway. Well Mom and Dad I am very sorry to put you both through the police drill. Mom said not to worry about it, sometimes things happen. Be it still bothered me that the police followed my parents around like that. But I did kill people who did nothing to me. Damn that seemed so many years ago. Another life time away. But I guess in reality it was. Mom did you ever see or hear from that guy again? The one that you paid passage to, to carry me to my freedom! No never did Mom replied. But I’d like to get my hands on him now; I’d tear him a new ass hole for what he did to you. Well Mom its over with thank God, so let’s let it ride. The next day we went and got plenty of supplies and all for my trip back. Mom and Dad helped me. They supplied me with all I might need; I still feel Mom and Dad feel guilty are responsible for what happened to me. As we got all the things packed and all I noticed that there was a car watching the house, and feeling I was being watched. Mom asked what was wrong? I asked Mom if she ever seen that car out side before? She said no but it looked like the cars that use to sit out side a lot when I had to leave. So I made my mind up, I had to leave tonight, no helping it. Damn I didn’t have the answers I so wanted. Smiling at Mom and Dad I said: Well looks like I’ll be leaving tonight, I can’t go to jail. And I will not leave my family I have now that long without me being there. 1. Mom sorry looks like we won’t have that private talk after all. I wish things were different. Just know I love you both and think of you all often. Mom can you pack me a few snacks for me for my trip. It is a weeklong trip and I need to eat. Mom smiled and said sure Hon. I’ll have you something made up. Why don’t you nap so you will be refreshed for your journey back. As I went to my old room to nap, looking around brought floods of memories back. As I lay in bed, my mind wondered to my days in school. The quite guys and my girlfriends. All the things we did and didn’t do, but wanted to. They way we all giggled when the guys was around. Dozing off to the thoughts of the pass, I slept without interruptions. Waking up fresh and hungry a few hours later I ate a nice meal Mom made for us. Knowing this was going to be the last time they ever saw me they made it special. My favorite meal. Meatloaf mashed potatoes, green beans and cornbread. As we ate and chatted about lost time I told them about my Community, and my little people. How much they love and cherish me. Mom seemed pleased I was happy and out of danger. Dad seemed sad I was leaving again. I told him I loved him and would miss him a lot, but I had to go. Like before I was in danger staying here. And he agreed, but he would have liked more time with me. As the night approached us and my time here was coming to a close I got sad. I know I love my parents no matter what. Even if they sold me. I couldn’t stop loving them, if it wasn’t for them I wouldn’t be here. So as I got ready for my trip home I hugged them both and told them I’d never forget them, even if I might not see them again. I had dad walk around to make sure no car was around waiting us. Then I made my Way to the door, when I did so Mom handed me an envelope and hugged me. I kissed her cheek and walked out the door.  |