ignorance is bliss and games are fun

I'm a grown ass woman. Thankfully, a college graduate and living in my own place, but I can'tget away from ignorance. I guess I should wonder if it is inevitable as long as I am on a college campus.

So I'm here waiting on my sister to get back from a business meeting. Granted, we should have been gone from here since 5 o clock. Instead, I'm sitting in her bedroom waiting for her and competing with her room mate for sound. I could get stupid and blast blahzay, but I think I'll wait. Arghhhhhhhhh, how stupid people aggravate me.....

He who laughs last, laughs best!

Don't think I've forgotten about ya'll...

To the one or two people that frequent this page (ok, so there are more than one or two and you all are important too but damn, ya'll don't post), I just want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart. I sincerely appreciate you taking the trip with me.

And I just began working on a new, more mature weblog, but we can't turn our back on beginnings right? I am proud of what I have posted here. I think that this weblog has seen some profound times in my life.

But, I am not about to abandon this. I do think that now, this log will find a set of readers that won't really understand exactly what all of this means. It will be an audience that does not know what I went through and how I got to be who I am at this present moment.

Despite the fact that the people that will be checking me out will be "intruders" in a certain sense, they will be welcomed guests in my house.

I will continue to post here. I will continue to rant here. I need this space desperately. But I would like you guys to also check out what I'm working with over in typepad land.

Yeah, I'm paying...so, yeah, I will be putting hella thought into what it is that I will be saying. I don't like to be censored though, so I will be very leery of where I go with what I post and here, I will continue to be the same happy, angry, sad, emotional person that I am...

And with that, my picture that I drew of myself, my new airwick candle, my other candle that simone gave me that smells exactly the same as the airwick (holla), my Me'shell pic, my two notebooks, red and black, my subwoofers, my red blinking strobe light, and everything else, I'm gonna go on living.....

...and perhaps the future will be about me and you...

so i chatted with my brother today and he is going to get me tickets to see the def poets at the apollo theater on Friday, December 5th. I am very happy about that because, for one, it would have put a slight dent in my finances, and two I may be able to get more than one ticket now and still sit in the front. Very exciting....



Looking forward to seeing you
to being with you...
you.
and me.
were once
one.

I'm looking foward to your smile
and to those hugs
that you know friends can't give
and
once
we lay in bed together
and hugged all night
like
that's what I miss.

And I'm looking forward to hearing your voice
deep
and uncertain.
wondering why we are meeting as friends
when we were living like lovers
and you made me feel...

so good
sometimes
and at one time
you wanted to take me away from him
and you could have
but shoulda coulda wouldas
wont
change what is.

But I can't wait to see you
with your broad shoulders
and football build
and your the only big guy I ever liked
and
well,
Maybe we can...


like old times

Talk like old times
and then from there
move on to all that is new

calling out names
Tonight I saw disrespect look me in the eyes. I live with two females. This for me, is something that I never thought I would ever do. First and foremost, I don't like females like that and second of all, I don't like people like that. But I was homeless and it was a good deal at the time.

So here I am now, living with these two females and I actually like one of them. Ironically, the one that I like is not the one that I have known for four years, but the one that I just met in the summer. She is a kind and considerate person and that is all I ask in a person. Consideration, honesty, respectfulness, and humility, are just a few of the characeristics of people that I would even consider myself living with.

I'm not here to spit fire, because if that was the case, I would shout out her whole government, right down to her fake eyes and hair.

Tonight, there was a function at the University and my housemate and I decided to attend. My other housemate ended up attending the function as well. Do you know what this trick did? She stood in front of me, made eye contact with my other housemate, and did not speak. Now, where I come from, you speak to people regardless of whether or not you are on good terms. That is called common decency. She proved to me that she does not understand that concept and therefore she is now in my Suburban trash category. She fits into other negative categories, but that one is the nicest to post here....

Anyhow, I'm gone....

got my mojo back baby...oh behave

I haven't been this excited in quite some time. I mean, things for me haven't been on the up. One thing that I notice about myself which may be the reason that I am single is that I cannot deal with the "come downs" of "relationships". I mean, even if I don't really label it as such, I just get myself into a swing that keeps me expecting things to be constant, and that is never guaranteed if the "relationship" is not exactly labeled as such (which was the case on my part). However, things end and we move on. I am in no hurry to be in a relationship because I think that emotionally, I am a bit wrecked. And it's mostly because of things that I did wrong and because I was absolutely powerless in the way things ended...But, I don't want to cry over spilled milk...This is not why I am online at 12:30am.

First off, I took a nap at 7:00pm and so when my phone rang at 10:00pm, I was in the process of waking up. Usually, my body would send me straight back to bed but that wasn't the case. I ended up being quiet alert and feeling as if my day needed to begin again. But, as I said, it is now 12:31. So, what is there to do but to post online?

I just saw Floetry's new video and lord knows I love those ladies. They are so talented and even though my original copy was stolen, I will go back and purchase it again, and tomorrow (correction, today)their new live album drops and HOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLA,I'm getting it.

Then, I really am feeling Alicia Keys' new joint. It just strikes some sort of cord that I feel I can relate to. It's funny, because I have never been in a situation in which I saw someone constantly that I liked or that I was interested in, that I could not approach. I mean, thats except the dude that I have a huge crush on and to be honest with you, I don't think that my crush on him is a secret to him. But then again, on second thought, I remember when I first spoke to him. We were on the bus and he sat directly in front of me and he turned around and began to speak to me, and after I finally got my composure, I said to him:

"Um, I'm C by the way." and he said
"I know your name."

and it feels like oooooooooooooooooooooh

You don't know my name

But the real reason that I am here posting is because I just saw something that lit up my day. I am going to see Beau Sia and the Def Poets in December.....HOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLA... The excitement has me just jumping for joy. I was supposed to make my Beau Sia shirt since when but I didn't. You better believe your girl is going to be front and center...And I just want to scream:"Beau baby, I LOVE YOU!" but um, that's not quite my style...Shoot, I don't even know if I can go to sleep with this kind of news.

And I feel like OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH
Cuz Beau does know my name....
lol...
he's my little friend that reads braille...lol
(inside joke between me and him)

OK folks, gotta go.
Work is going well. I've been utilizing my brains a lot more. A few of my students are being mainstreamed. They are so very nervous, but I think they will do well. Everything is everything. I got Jay-Zs new "BLACK ALBUM" and

the GODDESS is back.

Peace and love.....

And I'm still singing
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH

Posted by hiphop3/nai at 12:42 AM EST
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