Welcome to the Forbidden Castle
So what would you like to know?
Who I am? Ok, I can give you that… You can call me Raven. If you want to talk to me. You can call me whatever else you like, but I won’t be there. I’m not interested in playing games, except that I’m very good at them myself. That’s how you survive. Playing games better than everyone else. There’s a lot of classic weirdos here in the Castle, just so you know. Here’s some people you might be able to contact. Kind of depends on the day, you know. Or night. Or, well, sometimes some of us live between the two. We all have nasty images in our heads, that kind of roam about the castle we inhabit. Ghastly ghouls. Nasty pictures. Blood, and gore, and body parts. Puke, shit, pee, and more puke. I mean that’s what you do when you see this stuff, or have to be in it, or work in it, or eat it… Bones sticking out and LOTS of blood. Here’s a list like I said, ok.
Treyvor -- Boone-- Drek -- Gammet-- Bones -- Izabel-- Bastard -- Rat-boy-- Prevyn -- Killer-- Zombie -- Screamer-- Zero -- Tufukt-- Xman -- Kivvy
Now, those’re the main ones… ones that maybe might come out and talk… But besides all that, that’s where the anger is… The problem being that they learned all the skills of hurting people… not that you’re in danger… no, that breaks the Code. Still there’s a lot of rage, because, you know, you have to want someone else to hurt that bad, to make someone else hurt that bad, so you don’t. Yeah, we survived… all of us did. But some of us are in pretty bad shape, and can’t nobody come in and be looking because it’s dangerous in the Castle. And there’s so many hidden stairways and closets and dungeons and stuff. We don’t really want to kill or hurt or make people scream or torture or fuck or rape or stuff, but it’s in the energy to do it, just so our own pain will go away. Scary stuff, huh? Thinking twice about this? But we won’t do nothing. Don’t worry. Just that the ghosts of the stuff that happen are all over the castle and there’s never a time when you can relax or sleep or, sometimes even meditate, because if you’re not vigilant enough, they get you, and really fuck you over. That’s enough for now. Bye, Raven
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{Thank you Raven for taking the time to write. How does it feel to be on the cloud in the castle instead of on the ground. Can some light begin to enter?I'm glad you found the ship folks. I look forward to seeing you next week......The Counselor}
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Ok, here it is . you wanted it. I know it’s probably important but not easy for me to say. There’s a lot o f darkness in here. Lots. Darkeness . but it’s no big deal and why you want to walkin here I don’t know. But if you do then ok. Darkness is good in the sense of not being bad and being invisible to bad and being able to not be wht they think you are and being able to be something else because in the dark they can’t tell who it is and someone elsse can handle the pain and they don’t know its not the same one. And when we have to be someone then we be someone new who can just get through one thing becase the things ar so bad and therere’s nothing to do for it exept just be there and get through this to the other side. We know hteres another side so we just stay here til its to the other side. We didn’t know bout the shipcrew but now we do and it’s kinda interesting because it’s like finding a lost famly and now we are together but it’sll take a whiel to get to know each other and trust but that will come because we are all family, you know what I mean I’m sure. But it’s not the best place here and there are rooms in the castle with all kinds of bad things and sometimes it’s like a maze because that’s how you outmaneuver them is the mazee and they never looked too clsoe to see who the child was and they didin’t care as long as they had someone to hurt instead of themselves or whoevr hurt them, so we just got bunches of us so we could make it to the other side and now we know there is another side because of the ship and now we can try to decide what to do because we have been so long in the castle that we don’t know nothing eles and we like the darkness and the smell of the darkness and the taste of it and it’s hard to see the sunlight and sky and colors and things besides stone. That may take a while. I am not easy to know. I don’t’ like to interact. I am angry and hurt and angry some more and I just am like the castle with lots inside but also cold and dark and musty and cobwebs and rats and bats and small pools of stagnant water and drip, drip, drip off the stone walls and whisperings in the dark and strange footsteps and darker shadows in the darkness that rip and shred and cut and then do pleasing things that turn from touch to talons and fill the insides with demons and rip out the insides and put in darker insides and ferociaous ieyes and demon mouths and spear you through with anger and hate and dark and rage and fire and engulf you and then you hang from the walls in rusty chains and they eat away at your flesh and inside and out and like prometheus it just starts all over again because someone dies and someone comes to take their place and you never really die. But when I talk to you, I am all angry and stuff and won’t like to talk about this because I just want to be angry and all of tht stuff is all in me and all us here in the castle and mostly just me can type and maybe talk but some might otherwise talk … I don’t know .. anyways, here, I wrote you a letter, see… bye, Raven
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{It sounds like you are doing good work taking care of the little ones. You are very important here. I am sending light energy to you to help......The Counselor}
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we have some of those purplelight torches and now we have a couple of whitelight pools or something like that that holds them from sunday and whoever chooses can go in them and go home if they want and i brought a couple of babies to put in it so they wouldn't be in pain no more and go home; some kids go in the whitelight pool and play and get all cleaned up and healed and come back out to do their mission, whatever that is.. i haven't yet. ihave to make sure all the littles in hiding get found and shown the pool or get put in it. you know. thanks for answering. yeah, later. see ya. ps i'm sure b/c the castle's on the cloud that stuff can change b/c the fear is lesser but still lots of dark corners in the castle, like in me.
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{We can agree to talk and you can say what angry things you need to say and I won't take them personally. Then maybe some of the ick can get out. See you tomorrow evening....The Counselor}
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{The snow was coming down. The roads were verrrrry slippery and the traffic going east was backed up three miles. Since I was already on the east side of town, I opted to not come in. I know your adult said it was fine.. and I wanted to thank the kids for understanding the request. i take our meetings seriously and appreciate your understanding....The Counselor}
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. Many strange issues running fast just beneath the surface; not really strange for us as far as we've gone, but perhaps deeper into the anger realm than I've run before. And other things that are not as pressing but unsettling. It really seems the "anger" card is being played, and not by any of our "acquaintances" who are careful to say that they, at least, can control it...even if the manifestation of their particular perspective of anger isn't exactly pc. We'll see how this gets expressed the next time we meet. So, tomorrow at 5 or however you need to have it be... p.s. not too scare you or unsettle you or cause consternation...just awareness...ok? (re-reading this letter i was picking up heavy fiery energy and i wanted to let you know you were safe -- for my benefit if not for yours...)
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