At Homegroup
Topic: Prayers
Tuesday 6-7-05
Going into the living room, I’ve shed my sandals and I put down my backpack. Sitting down, I begin in prayer. God’s guidance that I would do nothing but his will that night… I continued on for a while eventually ridding myself of my watch. The order I prayed these things, I have forgotten but it is coming back to me as I type this out and insert different parts in places where they should be. For Julie and Betsy I started out with.
Julie: Strength kindled, the Fire pillar to blaze around her again, wakefulness and Faith Increase (This was also for the whole group before anything happened)
Betsy: Speak out in testimony with boldness.
Great Lion come in and breathe on Julie, Roar into Betsy. Heh. I was praying this and envisioned it at the same time but what surprised me was that afterward, He turned around and licked my head (Lion Kiss) [that’s when I lay backwards and was stuck on the floor for a while]
When I got up from that, I stood but could not go out of the corner for a while. Then I went into the kitchen to pray while listening to the conversation. Praying the same prayers over again plus knowing the fire was growing around her and praying the worst agitation on any nasties on her so that they would be confused loosen their grip and be cast out by the angel near the window (again I don’t “see” anything). Then when leaving the kitchen, I could not go past the dining room into the living room for a bit. I got down and continued to Pray. I prayed angels into the place. Then Julie walks bye acting very joyful.
Julie: No more doubt (this was around the time after she’d had some chocolate Coffee and said that her energy had come from it.)
Betsy and Julie: To follow the leading of the Holy Spirit without hesitation in sureness.
Betsy: Roar in her heart (I’m sitting on the couch now I think then have to get up for my Bible and note cards with names on them, because I knew I’d have to write down all I was getting.) Minister to her, dispel the loneliness and give her joyful dates with Jesus. (Comment Betsy made earlier that night comes to my mind)
Julie: Speak to her. Let her know she’s yours. (She’s sitting on the floor between the couch and chair) I look back over at Betsy…
Betsy: Strength and wholeness…
Brian talks about the video about to be watched being a real faith riser… I’m like: Well that fits, not saying anything out loud. The whole time we’re watching, You will believe and not doubt was for Julie and I also prayed that my faith would rise as well as everyone else’s, Video is over… Julie moves over in front of the TV, lies down and is rubbing her forehead.
Julie: release from nervousness.
Time for prayer over Julie: Sandra suggests that everyone pray over Julie for the next 10 days. I think “Nothing different for me” Though now I will be more focused on it. In the beginning of the night I had also prayed my flame/sword would burn again but was told that I had to wait and it would come when I needed it. During this prayer time I felt it and extended it to those I was led as usual.
Now as I’ve been taking a break from typing this up and have been talking to Kim Schmidt, at 1:45 PM Wed. 6-8-05, I got to pray confirmation for Julie for whatever she’s been getting. Just now Schmidty and I are talking about how we tend to Mother others. I mentioned how Julie said something to Betsy last night to get a “yes mother” response and Kim said “yeah...Julie's a mother.” She and I are sensing something big coming. A doubling of protection I pray on all I know. I’ve now contacted all I can to prepare for what is coming. Kim’s gone now and I can now continue with the rest of last night.

At various points through the night, those towards whom I sent my flame were the ones who came out and said something. Not every one spoke who got it and not everyone got it who spoke. The question came up “who’s next?” I knew it was Betsy and let her know but felt that I was to wait for someone else to get it as well. Sandra got Faith and Betsy and Mom said Betsy should go first to which I agreed. Betsy got in the hot seat (on the floor in the middle of the circle of people). The flame went around. Julie spoke, Mom spoke etc. I felt to lay my right hand (the one with the flame) on Betsy but not yet and wanted to give it to Julie but could not. The time came for Betsy when she bent forward. Anointing on her in Jesus name. Anyway… Julie rebuked something. I don’t remember what it was but I participated in pulling it off and sending it to an assembly line of angels casting it away. Eventually I moved to the other side of Mom, knowing that Betsy was going to lie out in my former area. I held my shield over her from my new position continuing to pray. After the covering of her with the blanket from Kyle, I continued to hold my shield over her but was eventually led to lay it down over her and let go of it as well as my sword, belt, sandals, breastplate, and helmet. Jonathan’s giving of armor to David came to my mind as I did this. A sign of friendship and accountability I think.
From there, I got up walked around, sat between Julie and Brian, was moved to lie on my face. After Julie and Betsy left/while they were leaving I continued to pray guidance to them and sent angels to line both sides of their way home. This is in addition to the ones set to go along with the car to block incoming attacks and hook-slash off those who loosen their grip. I was stuck on the floor for the longest time not getting much, just listening to the conversation that continued. Mom kept saying that she needed to go and I told her she had her own car and that I could not get up yet. Mom ended up staying there much later than I did. I was finally able to lift my head and upper body up a bit and then I started to get a Julie Jerk (the one to the side) this reminded me of her and I began to pray for her and then I got something for Julie and Betsy to finish off the note cards I had started. I was then able to get up and write those down and go home. These are those words.
Betsy: On the way home and at home, bust out Roaring.
Julie: On the way home and at home bust out laughing.
I do not know what came of that. All I know is that I was unable to get up until I got those words… I forgot some detail that I will now go back and edit in. There. Now I’m done with that… Any questions?

The very next weakend.
Topic: Day to day stuff
Thurs. 6-2-05
Kim and Julie came over, had a look around the house, talked with mom and then dad followed by some card games and a rather ruined start at watching the movie Hook.
They left at a good time for them. I then went on the computer and talked with Kim Schmidt online. Her brother’s birthday party was delayed so that her older brother could be there for it. She’s been reading some Isaiah among others being reassured of some promises she’s been given from God. We’re both praying for the ability to spend ACTUAL time with God. I felt like I should fast Friday and told God I’d do it if it was sunny outside. I went to bed thinking that I had work at 10 instead of 1:30 because I looked on the wrong day on my calendar.
Fri. 6-3-05
I woke up in the morning at 8:45 but stayed in bed until 9:30 when I looked at my clock again. I got up thinking I was late for work and then looked at my calendar with a sigh of relief. Guess what! It was sunny outside and birds were singing. So I left for work without eating, parked my car in the back of the lot by a patch of grass, listening to worship music, praying, and trying to listen to God. This went on for a while in the hot sun and nice breeze. I went to sit in my car eventually because the sound of the car was overbearing the radio from my position on the grass. I asked God for a verse. I got Isaiah 32:8 “But the Noble man makes noble plans, and by noble deeds he stands.” I didn’t think this was some big revelation so I looked at the verses my study bible connects with it. Didn’t get much from that. Then I went inside to get a drink of water, came back out, lay back for a while listening to the radio. Suddenly the loudest crack of thunder I’ve heard in a long time (real close) just as a song on the radio is about God’s thunder. I sit up “Lord show us your glory.” I look at the radio tower across the street thinking it would be cool to see lightning strike it. Not too much longer after that, I see lightning stretch from the dark cloud coming towards Publix, wrap around the tower and that loud thunder again at the same time. (I knew it was close from that.) I whistled in awe. “Thanks God” then I listened to some more music actually hearing the lyrics now. Soon it was time to go in to work just as it was about to rain. It rained just a bit to cool off things and water the plants. Then the rest of the day was sunny and I didn’t have to dry off many carts. At home Kim was on again and I told her about my time fasting all day, did some other things online until 12 when I broke my fast having 2 sandwiches, some apple sauce and apple juice.
Sat. 6-4-05
I had seen some Chicken A-la King in the cupboard the day before and woke up praying for the ones I’m assigned to as well as a few I’m not who had been involved with recent activities. Finally around 10 something, I got up went into the kitchen, had some of my favorite breakfast, found Kim online again but didn’t talk long ‘cause mom wanted to check her emails. I grab the walk about phone, go in my room and call Jake, Betsy, and Julie to go to the park, waking every one of them up when it was almost 12! I emailed directions to the girls for the park I had in mind. Mark and I got ready, went to pick up Jake and had fun at the park not shooting hoops very well and lazily throwing the Frisbee around. We got tired and it was getting cloudy so we went back to Jakes house and called the girls so they would not go to the park (caught them just in time before they left) We cleaned up and borrowed some shirts from Jake, went over to the girl’s house, watched The Emperor’s New Groove picked out by Mark which turned out to be just the right movie before going to eat some subs at a place close to there. Then I took Jake home, returned his shirt, drove home to get my own change of shirt and drop off Mark before racing past Mom and Dad on the way to Night of Worship.
I was glad to see that all three of the girls came to the meeting and did not want to sit down before worship time for fear I’d be stuck there. I ended up sitting down anyway and could not get up all through worship until the last moment after I had finished drawing the two pictures I was given. In the middle of worship, Scott got a word I knew was for Julie, then a bit later he came over to me with a word for me that I would know the time for what God has planned for me though I may not know how it will be done. This was an answer to the prayer I had been praying in my fast. I had gotten the picture I knew I was to draw earlier on but also knew that I was to wait a while before drawing. I kept trying to see if I could get up for worship but could not, then I felt released to draw what I had seen and knew when I was finished, I would be able to stand and move freely. It was so and I danced a bit in the back with my new flaming sword that I’ve had for a while but not envisioned as I did now and my shield of faith bigger than I had envisioned it before. I placed this anointing silently on those I was led to at the times I was led to do so. Including the following: All the Finks except perhaps Sandra. I do not know why. Betsy 2-3 times… Kim a few times… We decided to go out to eat together and on the way to Wataburger 1 little nasty was kicked out of the car ahead of me and rolled down the road “looking” like it wanted to cry. I had felt like it was for Julie too but not until the end when leaving Wataburger. Then it was on to the girls’ house (another nasty taken off but held until we passed the school and church area to be thrown in the gutter next to the parking lot) for the picture of the Lion at Life Church to be scanned (set a ministering angel at the ladder of the bunk bed, warrior angel on the other end to take off the junk and another by the window to toss them out) and a back rub to be given to Kim. I heard Betsy sigh or breath at one point, which made me think that something was going on with her. I do not know if that was just me or something else. As I left and was heading towards my car, one more thing had to be done, so I turned around and set two more warrior angels (all of these were very big) to take what was thrown out and banish them to the same gutter. On the way home I felt I should turn off the music and pay attention, stopped one nasty crawling towards me from the back of my car and sent him flailing into the night. I got home, went to mom’s room to tell her I was home (2:00 AM at least) She was reading. She asked me if I was sweet on one of the girls. I told her no. She asked me if I was telling the truth. I said yes very warn out and walked to my room to get some sleep.
Just as I was getting into bed and comfortable, mom walks in and asks me if I’ll go with her to pray early and go to Life church. “Sure. Just wake me up in the morning.”
Sunday 6-5-05
5 hours later, I’m waking up and getting dressed. I had found out from listening to the girls’ conversation that Life had a 9:00 and 10:30 service so after taking mom to the Vineyard to pray and helping bring in the breakfast food, we went to Life church. 15 minutes after 9:00 we walk in and join in the worship toward the back with a stage in front of us consisting of 4 singers, a piano player, drummer and I’m not sure if there was a guitar. There was, however two nice TV screens on stage on either side showing a replaying clip of Yoda’s recent battle with Count Duku. It came to my mind that that was a loosing battle. An assistant pastor came up and said a little something about how and why they worship and that everyone had the freedom to worship however they were comfortable with. This struck me and I prayed that this congregation would break out of comfortableness into the leading of the Spirit, which is not always comfortable. Then another clip of star wars which the speaker explained very well into his teaching for that morning having to do with accountability. Mom and I both needed this. After the service was done, we left for Vineyard with plenty of time to grab some food and sit down to talk. I was stuck in my seat in worship again and got a very cool picture that is hard to describe with words and even harder to draw so I just started with whatever words God gave me and wrote them all down in succession as I saw what happened around me.

Reading it by its self is very jumbled but I’ll try to explain it a bit.

A fire Burns. They Circle ‘round. Rhythm. Fists of Fury. {Spiritual Battle}
The fight goes on. They don’t tire. Drum beat. A Blaze.
Dance. Blows to the Enemy. Steps on his face.
Burning wind from her mouth Echoed voice, magnified{Betsy}
Spreading fire. Worshipers arise. Peace within. Holy Rage. {Church}
Untouched. Huge Shield. Truth cuts through all armor. {I and other Prayer Warriors}
Faith abounds. A wind. The voice drowns out all others. {God’s answer to my prayer}
Embrace of the Father. Security. Wholeness. Victory.
Reverence. Righteousness. Quiet. Confident. A ROAR.
Enemy to flight! Boundaries pushed out. Ministry. {Work of angels}
Union. Each has a part. City lights beyond the Storm.
{A picture Scott had on his presentation of stormy water and rain with just a hint of white between the raging water and the horizon.}
Rain and flood. Thunder and Wind, Peace and Calm.
Only with You can this be done. Only You Do It.
History is gone. The Future is set. Make your choice. {Song being sung at this point about making history}
Constant Prayer. Shine forth. I will worship you Lord {“I will worship” song}
Can’t move… Must Go… Your Time. Mine Gone. {My position}
Cup to my lips. Body chewed up. Freedom Comes. {Some people, taking communion}
Touched to tears. Broken to Laughter. Fallen down. Risen up. {Effects of the Spirit}
Fill us to Overflow. Oil Poured out. {Prayer for further anointing and thanks for what was already given}
Standing in a pillar of Fire. {Julie since Sat. Night worship’s end}
Bowed down. Lifted Up {Happens By Proverbs and Wisdom in many other books}
Seek it out. The Spirit is ready. {Directions for the church} Beaming Smile {Betsy}
Continue on. Share Life. Hold together. Commune {Further instruction as worship comes to a close} Bless and not Curse. Sing Out. {Betsy} Hear truth. {Julie listening to Aubry}
Speak only God’s Word. {Aubry speaking} Let the Fire burn, the Wind Blow {Lyrics}
Flow in Him. Let our. Love. Jam. Be free. {Worship team including Betsy}
Take Him in. Draw near. Taken in to the Holy place. {For the church}
Heaven on Earth. Children come. {class is over and teachers are relieved}
Know your Blessing Power in you, you can’t deny. {Betsy and others}
A turn. A Smile. {Betsy felt like giving Julie a little twirl right next to where I was sitting this whole time} LOVE.
That’s where I ended and I was able to get out of my seat, let Julie and Betsy read this {Though they didn’t have anything within these markings {}} plus all my bad spelling. They didn’t seem to understand it like I did which I didn’t expect. So then I ate some more sweets, took out the garbage, went home, logged off the computer to start typing this, Emptied the dishwasher and washed the dishes. Jon came home and took the computer back while I was doing this so I went in my room and watched a silly monkey movie that mark picked out to rent, Mom came home and Aubry came to watch I’m David so I watched that with them after that and then we watched Shall We dance. Finally I make myself some sandwiches with chips and apple sauce, get on the Computer, and type away until now when my dad is asking me to help him finish putting together Jon’s new Futon since his waterbed got a leak and he’s at work.

The battle that started me writing.
Topic: Warfare
Sat. May 28-Sunday May 29
Morning: after doing some yard work, eating, etc… Mom, Dad, and Jon had gone to an eating party at Jon’s friend’s house with lots of other people. While playing a game of Rummy and another card game with Mark and Tim, Sandra calls. (We let the answering machine get it) She needs to talk to Mom. It’s “kind of an emergency.” Tim calls Mom while Mark and I are playing our card game to let her know and then joins in with the next game. Later… Mom calls… “Joel. Pray for Julie. She’s not in the Hospital or anything but it’s important” (on the answering machine once again). I pray feeling worried and wondering what is going on. I’m done playing Cards… Go on the computer to see if anyone is online… negative… I call Finks to see if any information can be given to pray for… Sandra answers. “Hey Joel! I just talked to your mom…” [I know this]
I ask my question. She doesn’t know what to say but wants to ask me about the graduation before she gives the phone to Brian. Brian doesn’t know what Julie is OK with him sharing. I understand and continue praying and asking God for guidance. Peace, Knowing He’s there, to Know His Love…
I go to help Rob and Halley load up the U-hall with Mark and Tim. Time’s up for me so I leave them there to help while I go home and get ready for Jon’s Graduation.
Graduation parking took some time… Graduation took some time… played Game Boy SP for a bit while praying still not much direction (wonder why)?{Sarcasm}
Go to Ruby Tuesday’s with Mom, Dad and Jon to fill up. It’s Cold in there. The warm air outside felt good. By now the sun is getting close to setting. I tell dad I’m not sure if I am still going to go to Riah’s wedding reception. Heading back on Cap. Circle, I decide to go even just to help clean up if it’s over already. I drive by Lake Ella and see a friend outside the Doors of the building (that helped recognize the place). I found some parking on the opposite side of the lake and walked back. I proceeded to pray at the door of the place Opening it for anyone going in and out. Fun times… Help take out a few things at the end (quite dark now except for the Lake’s lights)… Find some friends at a pick nick table. Betsy: “I’m feeling really anxious” (That’s not a good thing) I think. But I am worried as well. We all know why but Brandon and Adam are in the dark. We discuss what we want to do; we pray, we sing, Kim shares about what she is to do in the morning. It’s decided to go to Sonic’s for some hydration and then meet at the girl’s house to go together to Life church to pray. I get rid of some on the way to my car after a good run. I lay down on the bench while they eat and drink. I still feel anxiety, can’t pray for the time… can’t get up. Time to leave… Glad someone helped me up. Take Adam to his place (now I finally know where he lives too… Right next to my hack buddies!) Head back to the girl’s place. They have some nice yellow roses blooming nicely on the table. I set down my stuff, get some water. Quote from Return of the King comes to mind! Pippin: I don’t want to be in a battle, But standing on the edge of one is more than I can bare.
Gandalf: It’s the quiet before the storm
Or something to that effect
I take some Advil with the water, finish it off, and by then Adam and Brandon have arrived. We head out in one car with Brandon driving. We pray on the way.
Arriving… Huge Stronghold here… We park… No one gets out… Betsy gets all hands in and prays for the Armor and the Blood over each of us. Adam says we need to repent. We do…
Anxiety, Lust, Not being focused on Him… more I don’t remember…
Peace… I’m done… I wait… More of us are done… We’re ready… “How do we proceed?” “Worship” “Worship” “Worship” “Worship” “Worship” we each say. Brandon turns off the car. We get out. I put my bag down and start walking around the car testing the perimeter. It’s small. 3 Yards around the car on 3 sides… I started from the front of the car near the entrance of the church and walked counter clockwise around it but stopped on the side towards the road. Betsy and Kim get out guitar and drum respectively I walk back towards the entrance, pick up my backpack and put it by the car. Betsy and Kim set up behind the car on the sidewalk and begin to play. From there it’s closed eyes, clapping, dancing around and around expanding the boundaries. I’m walking now… toward the back of the church on the woodsy side opposite the road. I stop… Can’t go there yet… I continue around… next pass Brandon and Adam come with me. We can now go a bit further to about the center of the building on that side. We can’t go further. We need the girls with their instruments. We head back, let them finish a song (short wait) and get them up to play while heading that way. We push back towards the woods on the left. Adam’s Yelling Yeshuaaaa! There’s a circle of hay bails. Looks like the fire circle hasn’t been used in a while. I hope that changes. We head towards going behind the church… Some resistance… The girls have sat down behind us continuing to pray. Brandon, Adam and I press through; up the hill behind the church I’m closer to the building assigning guard angels while Adam and Brandon are closer to the line of battle.
I rebuke some at the windows and continue to set angels in their place. There’s a group of trees in the back there not part of the forest within the “church” property. “You are not allowed even there!” I say. We continue around the side that the road is on Clearing to the road. We come back around to the front Betsy and Kim storm the door. I continue the assigning of guard angels and then move to praying for ministering angels and worship angels to fill that place and surround it staying at the ready for when they are needed.
I head around to the woodsy side again. I pray for the offices of the building. One window on that side shows a small light coming through… slightly blue… probably an emergency light… I head back towards the front. Adam says there’s a dragon on the roof of the building stretching all the way across… I picture it in my head. It’s tail hanging off the roof on the side of the woods and it’s head on the side of the road. I don’t see wings but think about if it had any they would come out over past the car to the tree line of the parking lot. Adam is ACTUALLY seeing parts of it. Brandon is hearing it and talking to it telling it, it has no place there any more. Adam and Kim go to the tree side, Brandon and Betsy to the side towards the road, playing and praying. I’m behind the car lying against my backpack feeling it is almost done. Betsy’s drum echoes in the woods. It sounds like a huge roar in the distance. I picture a huge Lion twice as big as the building and dragon. It seems to get up sluggishly, heading off the building to the side still within the property. Brandon takes it to the road and past it into the far woods. Kim is reading a passage; Brandon comes back and reads some. Adam’s been laughing. We finish with a few more songs, passages, a note on the door, tired, excited… check the time… almost 4 Am!… Back at the girl’s place we discuss each of our P.O.V. to an extent. Betsy wonders what the reaction to the “writing on the wall” (her note on the door) will be. Brandon “suggests” going back for no more than 2 hours to see when the pastor comes in early in the morning (half kidding). Kim had gone to the same window to pray as I did. Brandon had heard the dragon say reasons it WAS (used to be) allowed to stay there and reported dancing in the street after sending it to the other side. Words describing the night were strange, random, interesting… None of these were in my mind. Awesome! And Fun! Were mine. I’ve been expecting such things since Brazil, only having tiny tastes (in my mind) of the spirit. I still do not see anything in the Spirit. I can imagine it from what I sense, but I pray to see it clearly. I fight to stay awake on the 30-minute drive home. At home I forget my tired eyes and get a leftover burrito and some water and eventually go to bed. Next morning I wake up easily, nice and refreshed. At the Vineyard I draw a picture of “Life Church” as it is now, guarded by the Lion with a very sad looking dragon across the street barred by trees.