Topic: Day to day stuff
Friday 6-18-05
God woke me up at around 10:30 but I stayed in bed for an hour because I thought they said they were doing the air conditioning at 2, fell back asleep, woke up at 1, got up and took a shower, left by 1:40, got to the XA house with the gate closed and no one there. If you start your day in disobedience, it is very hard to get back to the right path just like in The Silver Chair. Aslan only gave 4 signs to Jill Pole to remember and repeat constantly in order to complete her task. She allowed herself to be distracted and missed several signs at first. We cannot know what would have happened if we did things a different way. We can only trust that God will bring our foolishness to goodness in the end just as Aslan used Jill’s foolishness to still bring her and her companions through the trials to complete their task teaching them valuable lessons throughout. Sometimes the only way you can learn something is through a mistake. I did learn from today’s mistake. I waited in my car and asked God where I should go next. A song popped into my head “Where do I go, Back on my knees again” I got out of my car and went to my knees on my cushion that I carry around to use for up in my spot on the tree and occasions such as this. I waited until I was surrounded by ants and left for work. I got there just in time to change, get a foot sub combo, write down the reason I was late on Sunday and the reason I couldn’t be there on Tuesday on the form they gave me on Thursday so that they could be excused… Don’t you love all my long sentences? Here’s a short one for you… He wept. This is what I had done the night before when I watched the end of Pay It Forward. What? I already told you this? Oh, well there’s a reason I’m telling you again. I was thinking during this time about that movie, and seeing that this girl was at work today and was going on a vacation soon, I asked God if I could give her flowers that night since she was closing and would leave after I would. I worked in the kitchen in the Deli again today and got burnt quite badly because I was moving too fast and rushing myself. How’s that for revelation? I had thanked God earlier for reminding me to right down my late/absent excuse before I clocked in. When I took my break, I ate part of the second half of my sub and chips and had a free refill of my soda. I was also able to finally start reading my Bible, which I have not done in quite a while since I moved to Deli and only have a half hour break rather than an hour. This is not a good excuse but it was one of many bad excuses that I said to myself. I thanked God for being able to have a break as I had not expected to get one today. I got off work almost 45 minutes after I was supposed to because there was an order that held me up from cleaning. I went ahead and got the flowers for the girl instead of waiting on it. I hope they bless her anyway. I asked God if I should go home or go into town to try and find Kyle and April’s house even though I didn’t know exactly how to get there and had been their only once. I heard the “go home” but did not listen very well, thinking that God could lead me to their house and I might be able to still have some fun and see at least Kim and perhaps the other girls again. I did not know if they would still be doing fireworks but figured they would stay there late talking. I went into town and drove past their road, drove around several other roads in the Jim Lee area where we had gone to that church when some prophetic people were visiting it. I returned home passing their road once again. I found out that I had passed their road from my mom when she told me the road’s name. I’m doing my laundry right now in two sets (light and dark). I have work tomorrow 1-4 which I know now after looking almost franticly through my backpack, bag, wallet and then finally found the paper I wrote my schedule on in the passenger seat of my car. I was not able to talk to Kim S. tonight either because she has to wake up for work at a decent time in the morning. Perhaps if I had obeyed, I would have been able to talk to her but we cannot change the past, only learn from our mistakes and press on towards the goal for which God has called us heavenward. Kim S. Did email me to say that she was finally able to get my emails though they were delayed for some odd reason, I emailed her back asking why she was “Away” and she emailed later before she went to bed the reason I mentioned earlier. I searched around on several of the Xanga blogs connected to Betsy’s trying to remember the name of one who had a glory bubble on his hat in the birthday party group picture; only to find the name Alex on some junk email… I thanked God for this and hope that it is right. I’ve typed it so many times, I think that even if I’m wrong, I’ll still call him that… perhaps it is spelled differently… mind wandering… I’m done with the update! Yay! I had to upload it in pieces by the day because it was too long to work in only one post. What to do now… Probably go to bed… I’ll try to obey tomorrow morning. “No, no try. Do or do not. There is no try” (Yoda) after Luke tries and Yoda does, Luke says, “I don’t believe it.” Yoda: “That is why you fail.” Ever notice that Yoda loses his way of speaking when he is saying something serious and talks with subject and verb and subject at the end when he is having fun? If it was not a serious thing for Luke to believe, or if it were an amusing thing, Yoda would have said, “That is why fail, you do. Yes.” I’m going to ramble on a bit more just to show more of my fun personality… Scratch that. I have to pray for Julie and probably do some other things like my laundry.