10th February 2002
It's now Sunday and day two of week two....I have been pretty busy the last couple of days and haven't been sleeping all that well, but I weighed in yesterday morning and lost 1.9 kilos. I would have thought I would have lost more, but maybe my body is hanging onto that for next week. Yesterday and today have been tracking disasters. I need proper sleep, and to be organised for when the hunger pangs and the other emotional eating strikes so I can be prepared. I am now on 24 points so I have three more to play with. I would like to get some exercise in but pretty unsure when. I know I have to make time, but in the meantime I am happy if I get the washing on the line. Anyway I haven't much to say as I have a lot of other things to do. Till tomorrow...Biggirl. xo
Current Weight 118.0 kg Goal Weight 78 kg
Kilos till 10% off - 10.7 kg Kilos till Goal 40 kg
Wednesday 13th February 2002
Woops....well I am finding that I haven't been able to update this page as much as I would like to and I fear my weight is suffering from it too. Ok I know with the WW plan you can eat what you like but I don't think that included pepperoni pizza for dinner and breakfast. Doh'. Tracking or writing down what you eat is an essential part of losing weight and I haven't done that for 5 days. Now I have two days to rectify the problem and weigh in with a smile on my face. I expect a gain. I have been on this road before and I want to lose weight. The whole time in the last few days I have been punishing myself for not having control. To stop myself doing this I have to get back into eating well, reading my material, tracking and doing even the most miniscule exercise as it all counts and it makes me feel a lot better. The stress of taking on a business venture is no excuse I'm afraid, I have to over come this because I know that if I have control in my food consumption, the rest just falls into place. Plus I am not wasting money at ww when I am not putting in the effort. That was the whole purpose of going there in the first place. Be ACCOUNTABLE, COUNT EVERYTHING AND LOSE WEIGHT!!
As for the page updates....I want to aim for at least once a week, usually weigh in day. If I say this I know I will do that and anymore entries will just be a bonus. Not sure if you'll see it that way...but I will I am sure. ;-)....till Saturday, Biggirl.
Sunday Night 17th February 2002
Finally I get back on the PC. We have been frantically creating menus for our restaurant venture, and has taken the bulk of our time this week. But I braved the scales yesterday figuring I have probably gained all that I lost last week. And I almost did. I gained 1.1 kg. Which would be bad if I hadn't picked myself up and started prioritizing my eating again. I just completed this weeks shopping list and will do that first thing in the morning. I bought a tracker book and although I didn't really deserve a treat I figure it's an essential tool and a 'fat' deduction. lol. You'll have to excuse my poor humour. My brain is fried from all the calculations I have been doing. Anyway I have to re-adjust my fat pages :( but the biggirl is back on track and will win this battle with the FAT.
Current Weight 119.1 kg Goal Weight 78 kg
Kilos till 10% off - 11.8 kg Kilos till goal - 41.1 kg
It's not that bad......I can do this. I know I can.
Sunday 17th March 2002
There is no reason to change my last weight entries as in the time that I haven't been posting I have gone down and up and down and up. On the bright side I haven't gained, but still the issues of 'losing weight' seem to haunt me. I want losing weight to be second nature to me and the only way I can have that is by thinking like a thin person and trying to figure out why I overeat. Starting a new business has taken a lot of time out of my life and whilst this isn't an excuse.....well it sort of is. lol. I want to get back on the wagon and (as a friend put it) buckle up so I can't fall off again.
Yesterday I cleaned out my fridge and I also drew up a large chart to monitor my weight progress. Where to put it though is a little more challenging. I want to be able to see it, but I would prefer not to openly advertise it until I have something to be proud of.
I have been embarrassed to keep turning up to ww knowing I have this yo-yo thing happening, I know I have to track, exercise and drink my water. Sounds simple doesn't it.
I am sorry it's taken this long to update. I am more sorry for my own sake as this website is an invaluable tool in helping me achieve my losses.
My short term goal is to get to 110kg by my birthday which is in about 8 weeks time. I am the only one who can do this and it's about time I embraced the power and got on with it.
I don't think I will update my fat pages until I have something substantial to brag about but I do want to keep the journal part of my focus.
Thank-you to all that have shown their concern and support, it means a lot to me.
THE BIGGIRL IS BACK :))
Monday 18th March 2002
Yesterday marked a milestone, we moved to Canberra exactly one year ago. How time flies. Which brings me to the weight issue once more. I figure I have 40 odd kilos to lose. All I have to do is eat properly and track for another year and by Christmas of my 30th year I may finally look decent on a beach. Dreaming??? No I'm not. It can be done. I have read dozens of stories like this. What's their secret? Persistence and don't procrastinate??........that's all I need. There is nothing useful about looking back and having regrets about not doing things sooner. We just have to avoid future regrets by getting on with it now. Yesterday turned into another disaster eating wise, but today is a fresh start.
Thursday 11th April 2002
Yeah Yeah I know...... I am back again.... I am finding it hard to come to grips wanting to lose weight so I have been wallowing around like a big fat big in mud for a few weeks now. Eating like a horse and not caring two hoots about what I put in my mouth. This is bad I know. But I am sick of obsessing about what I eat and what I don't......so I guess I went a tad psycho there for a while.
I have resurrected my scales and my ww material and back into it. I have to do something for me and if I don't do something regarding my weight I will be unhappy forever and probably die too early.
I'd like to thank Naomi (from Tassie) for her emails, she emailed me just at the right time. Thanks Naomi!!!!!! Plus I had another little inspiration the other night when I was watching an old taped movie. On the end of the tape I had recorded an episode of "the weighting game". I must of watched that for a reason too. I want to be an inspiration to myself and I know I just have to start and continue. AND NEVER GIVE UP. I will mention that I weigh (today and clothed) 120kg.
I am surprised it isn't more, but I want to lose before I have a heart attack or my knees give in. The aesthetic reasons for losing weight are just a bonus. I need this for me.
