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I have come to surprising revelations in the last week and have decided to share on my page, If you have been a tad frustrated with my progress or rather lack of it, well join the club.

I haven't been able to see my own reasons clearly enough for a long time. Until Now.....

I may never be filthy rich, famous, or even glamorous. But I do have the means to think and feel like a slim person, and I don't want to go through the rest of my life never knowing what it's actually like to be slim.

To enjoy my body, my family and my life. I can know what it feels like, I just have to believe I can be one of those people on the 'greener' side.

And then I'll know that I am truly 'filthy rich'.....maybe not glamorous or famous....but definitely still beautiful. ;-))

And after braving ww again this week, I actually managed to track yesterday and have started well again today. It's a long haul as you are probably aware I have a lot of weight to lose. But if I can focus on my destination, the journey should be a lot easier.

Life is full of mountains and ditches, and when we are down in the ditch....we can't imagine or remember what it's like to be on top of that mountain.....and of course when we are on top of the world it's hard to recall why we were ever 'down' in the first place. We have choices.....we can stay down, wallowing in self pity and envying the 'greener' side never knowing what it's like to be at the highest peak. Or we can start climbing and have a strong chance to be at the top of our private mountains.

Seems like an easy choice, but the mountain face is rocky, but day by day we can reflect on how far we have come and that shall make us stronger and the climbing easier.

Ok so I am not a good philosopher.....but I understand what I am talking about and that's important to me...lol. Till next time.......Linda

Yes it's been almost a month. I know Trish I am updating now. ;-) I am not bitter really lol.

After my last break through I did really well. I lost 3.7kg the first week. (however on closer calculation it was only 2.7 kg. The guys at ww need calculators. lol) However it kept me really motivated for the following week where I lost another 1.7kg.

Now for the bad news. I gained the 1.7 back and am on the way to gaining the 2.7 back too.

I have to realise that being slim is what I want and put everything else on the backburner except my weight loss. Why is it that everybody and everything else is far more important than my weight loss. Or more to the point -"Why do I let everything else take priority?" Whilst I was eating well and organised. My whole life seemed to fall into place. When I eat badly it's completely the opposite. Simialarly when eating well the week drags on forever and my Saturday weigh in can't arrive quick enough. I eat badly and I almost have a coronary "It's Saturday already???"

Can someone explain this??? Of course it's procrastination and knowing I'll have a gain when I rock up to my meeting isn't all that motivating. For me anyway.

So I have also decided that I can do this and I will devote at least 1 hr per week to updating my page. Stuff everything else. I am so tired of this yo-yo thing I have going. So if I haven't updated at least once a week. SOMEBODY PLEASE KICK ME!!!!!

I can make all the excuses in the world. But I know the only way I can succeed and give up 'dieting' is to change the way I think about food. I have lost in the past and I can lose again. Thanks for sticking with me. Stay tuned. lol.