let see its monday :)
ok its monday... nice day .. WOW.... got me back burnt first day this year with out a shirt ;)... hehe... anyways what shal i bitch about today lol... women haha.... hummmm.. what is it i am looking for... well.... an honest woman... and one that can handle honesty... that is easy isnt it.... what else... someone who says what they mean... and dosent say stuff to make them look good... ya know... 2 faced people...hummm someone who can laugh ... at anything... say fuck it all..... someone who can take a joke... who isnt serious all the time... someone who is willing to work on things and not run out when it gets a little rough.. gawd i look at my folks... going on 40 years married... and no one got killed yet.... what is up with all the dam divorces these days... people just cant settle down with one person any more.. they gota go out and screw everything that comes along... really though what is up... i like someone who will look at me and when i say your beautiful... they believe it.... and someone who knows the meaning of TRUE LOVE.... that i think is impossiable... cause if ya really truely loved someone with all your heart... everything else looks petty because what does a person want more than to be happy being with someone right... if your healty ... got food... got roof over head...what else is needed...what is there that both people NEED... it usually comes down to one person if there are huge problems...that is what i believe... but enough of that bull shit... dosent matter really cause i been hurt enough... ill walk alone do as i wish cause maybe some day... not holding my breath but just maybe i might find someone who wants to walk with me and enjoy the company instead of needing me to fall back.. yes i will be there for anyone i know.. i always have been and always will be... but i am me... i do what i can with the people i know... the best i can... there isnt any more i can do really ... EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT in their own way... i found this out last year and i continue finding it out... i will just keep trying to meet some new people...friends aquitances or what ever but dont hate me for being me... cause i will do anything for you... just wish some people know how i feel about things is all... walk in my shoes... grow up in a family that we hardly did shit together... hardly got along... and now i live all by my self in a big house... now isnt that depressing... but i try to deal the best i can... that is why i became a member of the Habitat for Humanity group in Prince County... its AWSOME... meet some great people.. have fun... and do something that is great to do.. HELP PEOPLE :)... isnt that what i am at fault for doing always wanting to help... .now people ask me what i think and what should be done :).... its great.. i get respect... and it shows me ways of makin my self better... thanks to all the people i met... and to the people i will meet.... :).
cheers
Ryan