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| IN SICKNESS BY TIMA |
CHAPTER 110 |
PREVIOUSLY:
Todd: You'll be okay, right?
[Tea opens her eyes and looks in her husband's eyes.]
Tea: I think so.
Todd: Because you saw it in your head?
Tea: Because I feel it in my heart. Manny will be fine. We'll be fine. We'll have what neither of us have had an easy time finding. We'll have love.
Todd: And lots of time.
Tea: And lots of time.
[Todd sits up. His hands quickly encase her face as his mouth passionately seeks hers.]
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IN SICKNESS
chapter 110:
[Todd kisses his wife for several minutes before deciding it's time to move forward with their lovemaking.]
Todd: How do you want to do this?
Tea: Whatever way you're comfortable with.
Todd: Your comfort is what matters.
Tea: Our comfort...
Todd: Our comfort only happens if you're comfortable.
Tea: I'm not sick anymore. You don't have to be so cautious.
Todd: You're pregnant. You love me. You don't think I'm gross. Your being okay with whatever we do is the most important thing to me.
Tea: I'll be okay with however you want to do this. I trust you completely.
Todd: You're sure?
Tea: I'm positive.
Todd: Lie down.
[Tea removes herself from Todd's body and lies down next to him.
Todd leans toward her and kisses her again. For several minutes he allows himself the simple luxury of kissing his wife. He tries to clear his mind, of his fear that Tea's health will take her away from him, and his fear that his past will chase him away from her.
Todd removes his lips from hers and places his head down on the pillow next to hers.]
Todd: Delgado...
Tea: Everything will be okay. I know it will. It doesn't matter if we make love tonight. I love you. Nothing could ever change that.
Todd: How can you not think I'm gross, after everything you know about me?
Tea: I don't think you're gross because you're not.
Todd: What am I?
Tea: You're the husband I adore. You're the parent I admire. You're the man I'm very proud of.
Todd: Sometimes it just seems like a bunch of words.
Tea: Trust me. Believe in me. Believe in what we shared while I was sick.
Todd: I don't want to talk about that.
Tea: That time will always be precious to me. I questioned your words initially, too, remember? I was scared that you only wanted me back in your life because you felt sorry for me after you learned I was sick. Your words, along with your actions, quickly convinced me that your feelings for me were genuine.
Todd: You can't be sick again.
Tea: If I am...
[Todd places his fingers lightly against her lips, not wanting her to continue.]
Todd: It felt like I was dying, too. I tried so hard to make it okay for you. I tried to give you everything you wanted, to finally get it right, but I kept screwing it up. But, no matter how much I screwed it up, you were right there telling me it was okay, telling me that you didn't give a damn about anything but us being together just one more day. I've heard that junk that people say about how you should live every day like it's your last. I've done that and now I know they're a bunch of idiots. Living every day thinking I might not get another day with you really sucked. I don't want to live like that anymore. Promise me you won't be sick anymore.
Tea: You know I can't promise you that.
Todd: I don't care if it ends up being a lie. Just tell me that you won't leave me like everyone else always has.
Tea: No matter what happens, you'll have Manny, I know that.
Todd: I want our kid and I want you.
Tea: I want to be with you, too. Never doubt that.
Todd: Why won't you say it?
Tea: I don't want to lie to you.
Todd: I already told you, I'm okay with that.
Tea: I'm not. The honesty we share is one of the things I treasure the most about our relationship.
Todd: But, you did say that you think you'll be okay, right?
Tea: I think we will have more time, but I can't promise that I'm not sick again, or that I won't get sick in the future.
Todd: This is never going away, is it?
Tea: Whether I get sick again, or not, my cancer will still be with us in the future. We'll always have these terrifying moments whenever one of us finds a suspicious lump somewhere on my body, or when I go in for check-ups and the test results are questionable. Your past will always be a part of our future, too. I can accept that. Can you?
Todd: As long as you like being with me, I'll put up with anything for you. That doesn't mean that it doesn't suck when you put me through this.
Tea: I love being with you and I always will. That I have no difficulty promising you.
Todd: I love you.
Tea: I love you, too.
Todd: No more talking?
Tea: No more talking.
[Todd returns his lips to hers. His hand caresses her bare back for several minutes before he finally pulls away from her. He quickly pulls his shirt over his head.]
Todd: Don't worry. I won't rush this.
Tea: I'm not complaining.
Todd (smiling): Your hormones are making you horny again.
Tea: You make me horny.
[Todd removes the remainder of Tea's clothing, as well as his own. He returns to her side and pleasures her with his fingers for several minutes as they resume kissing. As he removes his fingers, he pulls his mouth away from hers and looks into her eyes. She smoothes his hair with her hand as she returns his gaze.
A mixture of love and lust is silently communicated between them. He places her leg over his and positions himself to enter her. His lips return to hers as their bodies join again for the first time in too long for both of them. They make love slowly, each wanting to prolong the bonding of their bodies, their hearts, their souls.]
to be continued...
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