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| IN SICKNESS BY TIMA |
CHAPTER 111 |
PREVIOUSLY:
A mixture of love and lust is silently communicated between them. He places her leg over his and positions himself to enter her. His lips return to hers as their bodies join again for the first time in too long for both of them. They make love slowly, each wanting to prolong the bonding of their bodies, their hearts, their souls.]
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IN SICKNESS
chapter 111:
[The next morning...
Tea awakens. She smiles a sleepy smile as she enjoys the sensation of awakening to the feeling of Todd's naked body next to hers.
As she opens her eyes and raises her head to look at her husband's face, she's surprised to find Todd's eyes are closed. She quickly realizes that he's asleep.
As grateful as she is to know that he was able to sleep, she is more worried about what Todd's reaction will be when he awakens and realizes he fell asleep while she was sleeping. She knows how determined he has been that he only sleep while she's awake because of his fear that his nightmares could cause him to unintentionally hurt her again if she's sleeping next to him when his anger and fear seeps through from his dreams.
Tea doesn't have time to devise a plan for dealing with Todd's self-loathing as his eyes suddenly spring open.]
Todd: What the hell happened?
Tea: We fell asleep.
[Todd sits up and turns his body away from Tea, placing his feet on the carpeted floor.]
Todd: I'm sorry, Tea.
Tea: Don't be. I'm glad you were able to sleep.
Todd: I promised I'd protect you.
Tea: You did. You have.
Todd: I fell asleep.
Tea: We were both exhausted, emotionally and physically. I'm glad we both slept. You know that's what I want.
Todd: I wanted to keep you safe. I screw everything up.
[Todd reaches into the pile of clothing at his feet and retrieves his pants. He pulls them up his legs as he removes himself from the bed.]
Tea: Don't let this ruin our time here.
Todd: This place is a dump. We're waiting to find out if you're sick again. How could I make anything worse right now?
Tea: I enjoy sleeping with you, figuratively and literally. I have no regrets about last night.
Todd: I could have hurt you.
Tea: You didn't.
Todd: I hate it when you pretend the hell I put you through in the past didn't happen.
Tea: What about the hell I put you through? You're willing to go through that hell again for me. Why shouldn't I be just as willing to endure difficult times for you?
Todd: It's totally different. I hurt you. I left bruises.
Tea: You were having a nightmare. You didn't do it on purpose.
Todd: I let myself lose control with you next to me. I can't do that ever again. You're on your own from now on at night.
Tea: What if I am sick again? What if the treatment makes it impossible for me to sleep? Are you going to make me go through that alone this time?
Todd: I don't want to hurt you. Why can't you understand that?
Tea: I want you to understand me. I'm not afraid of you. You're my husband. I love you. I trust you. I value our time together...every precious moment of it. I have no intention of sleeping separately. I want to wake up pressed against your naked body, just like I did a few minutes ago. I want to watch you sleep until you wake up, too. I want to stay in bed, cuddled up to each other as long as we can, especially now, before the baby comes. If we sleep separately, it would mean less time for us to spend together. That's not acceptable to me.
Todd: This is non-negotiable.
Tea: Give me my clothes. I want to go home.
Todd: You can't bail on this thing just because you're not getting your way.
Tea: How can we have a romantic second honeymoon if we're sleeping in separate rooms?
Todd: We never had a first honeymoon, remember?
Tea: Don't remind me.
[Todd sits down on the edge of the bed.]
Todd: You shouldn't be getting this upset. Manny might not want to come out if he thinks all we do is fight.
Tea: We will fight. Manny will just have to get used to the fact that his parents are both stubborn and opinionated.
Todd: Speak for yourself.
Tea: I am. I'm stubborn when it comes to preserving my marriage.
Todd: It wasn't always that way.
Tea: I learned from my past mistakes. Have you?
Todd: That's what I'm trying to do. I made the mistake of falling asleep that time I hurt you, I can't let that happen again.
Tea: Work on your problems so they won't have any control over you anymore.
Todd: I'm trying.
Tea: Are you?
Todd: I've put myself through hell telling you all that junk about when I was a kid. Do you think I enjoy spilling my guts to you? Do you think I ever wanted you to know anything about what that monster did to me? I hate that you see that stuff now whenever you look at me.
Tea: That's not true.
Todd: You see every disgusting thing that happened to me. You feel sorry for me. I hate that.
Tea: You're wrong.
Todd: Maybe we should go. This was a stupid idea anyway.
[Tea reaches her hand out and places it on top of his.]
Tea: Don't push me away.
Todd: I just want to protect you. That's all I've ever wanted.
Tea: I admire your intention, but you're going about it the wrong way.
Todd: This time I'm getting it right. I'm putting what's best for you and our kid ahead of what I want. That's what I'm supposed to do.
Tea: What's best for us is you. We're both calmer and happier with you beside us.
Todd: I can stay with you while you sleep as long as I don't fall asleep, too. I'll drink lots of coffee, or something.
Tea: You need to sleep, too.
Todd: You know I don't need much of that. Maybe I can wait until after you fall asleep and then go crash in another room. As long as I wake up and get back in here before you wake up, you won't even know I was gone.
Tea: I'll know.
Todd: That's the best I can do.
Tea: Sleep with me, Todd. Trust yourself with me.
Todd: I did and I hurt you. I won't make that mistake again.
to be continued...
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