its been a long time since iv been on!!!!! i will read everyone's messages tomorrow. I am too tired now. But, for now, I wish to tell you that I will be going out on 13 September for my birthday, and anyone who wants to come is welcome to. I don't know where it will be yet. Maybe Penrith Pathers. I probably won't go into the city, but I might.
i think arvin is right about the prose thing, it kinda puts pressure on us to think of a topic and i find that when i do that i cant actually think of anything!
and that posh restaurant thing, i went to one restaurant where the waiter person actually put the napkin across my lap for me! i felt very uncomfortable, my cousin later told me its the done thing. but still it was very weird, i mean i have this quirk about personal space and a total stranger putting something on my lap, (be it a napkin) is definately invading into that personal space....
speaking of quirks i have also observed that recently i hav been developing disturbing behaviour concerning cleanliness. and no i dont mean im becoming a clean freak - my bedroom is a dump, but i must eat my plate clean of any trace of food. last week i ate some crusty garlic bread and all these crumbs just kept on falling onto the plate and believe me, if i had not been in a pizza parlour full of people i would hav licked that plate clean of all those crumbs! i mean it bothered me for the rest of the day that i left crumbs on that plate (did i mention that i also picked up the crumbs off the table and put them on the plate?)! and i hav also been cleaning the kitchen from floor to ceiling everyday for the past four days, i even washed those metal plate things that go around the burners.....
hmm, im disturbing myself now. til next time friends! teri :: posted by us friends 1:15 AM [+]
Monday, August 26, 2002
hey all!!
i just realised somethnig, whats the real point of getting the prose? i will now scrap it...unless you guys want it...i have thought about it. we that we actually do that....a prose is basically us rambling on a about a tiopic of our choice and we do that all the time
like bec talked about people telling people about their great deeds (i hate that....but i think i do that sometimes.....some people just full on say it like they are god and not very modest.....that i dont like) or the posh restaurant (not really into it and some are posh coz of the place where they are located....but some the food is crappy anyways....) ...that is exactly what a prose is.....the difference is that there is a big tittle and a by line and that it was basically forced as in not a random thought. more like planned and yes.....but i see we are more on the go and on the spot and thats cool....
but if u still want to write a prose is totally up to u....
have you heard of free association...example is in the 6th sence....basically writiing and talking with no stop and no hold and at the end the truth or the deeper thought of you will come out....
about you bec getting your own blogger....that will be awesome......thats if you want it.....but i have a tip.....when you get one....you know how our title is us_friends make sure you DONT have an underscore......make it one word like rebeccathegreat thats just an example.....coz some servers dont recognise the underscore.....just a tip......
it will be cool if u have one.......but make sure you say hello to this blog once in a while....we love ur or i love ur posts and i will definetely read and comment at it....and if you ever need help on setting up ur own page/blog/comments/design.....just ask away...anytime!!!!!
i still cant believe sumrah is now a mother....wow....i havent seen her....i dont know....you know how she has a strict background...maybe i can call her or send her card...will her family getn pissed off.......the inly way i can get to her is email and i want to write her a card at least...........
anyways im ok.....ok blog more later..............
lotsa love, arvin :: posted by us friends 11:56 AM [+]
Hi there everyone!! I just wanted to pop in and say a big cyber hello because I haven't posted in about a week now. I think my blog hog paranoia is seeping in again but I won't ever go away completely ~! Hehe now is that a blessing or a curse???!
I had a good and cool week last week. The highlight of course was Sumrah's birth! She is a mum now...how friggin' cool is that? I mean,. I know births happen like, every few seconds around the world but I still find it so amazing that this human being can come out of a person's abdomen and into the world...it is all so basic in the beginning.
But yeah....! went to a cool restaurant for kids in the city on Tuesday night with Cat and we ordered so much food but our eyes were bigger than our stomachs but we were determined which meant we were also feeling sick afterwards....I went to the toilet there and saw my reflection in the mirror...I swear I had a Buddha tummy because I ate that much! They didn't have doggy bags...no one seems to have that anymore....crazy that! I ask for a doggy bag and I get this look from people...like it's not supposed to be said. And on a slight sidenote there, I hate posh restaurants.....they may serve great food but you have to transform into a friggin' snob when you eat there because they are not only strict on the dress code but the code of conduct! .... one waiter frowned on me because I think I was using the wrong spoon for my entree....there were like five friggin' spoons to choose from so I did the eenie, meenie, minie, mo method. And I got a further dirty look for breaking open the bread with my hands and not using a knife. If I ever get the dough, I am gonna open up my own version of the posh restaurant and I will break it up into three sections. One will be smoking, the other non smoking and the third and my personal fave, the slob section...that is where you will find me. This section will have people eat however the hell they want AND be able to undo their pants at the end of it...hell for an extra tip, I will let them take them off! That is how all restaurants should be...how dare they make us eat in torture?! Give us excellent food that we pig out on and then have to sit there straight as a board in perfect posture while our stomachs ache to be freed from the belts that bind them? I ask thee.....what is the friggin' deal with that?
Ok..I swear I will move on now. My course is going ok but I am stressed out...I want to have a break but I also want to finish it and then have a break....I feel so spent...my mind and my body.....I just wanna laze but guilt free!...lately my lazing has not been guilt free. I have been stressing with father's day too....I feel like the only person in the world who doesn't know what to get their dad. That goes for my mum too...I used to make stuff for them and thought "yeah they will so chuck this in a week's time" but years later I would look in a drawer for something and a tiger I drew in like year 5 for them with an I Love You on the back would still be there...it was just so amazing a feeling to see that. This may sound odd and even picky but I love good deeds that I don't know about right away....like I get the feeling sometimes when someone says to me "hey I did this for you!" and makes a point of telling me so, that they do it for credit and not for the act itself. I don't mean to get religious and its only for a sec but even Jesus would heal and save and not make a big deal out of it...it was the people who made a big deal out of it and spread the word on his abilities. But yeah....when someone does something and then proclaims it, it just doesnt feel as good a good as someone who does a good deed and just lets it be and doesn;t announce it because there is no need for it....god I hope I am making sense here. Ok...one feels self serving and the other does not.
I am umming and ahhing about getting a tattoo....the umming is because it just seems too trendy for my liking...I don't like trends....like I have always wanted a scooter and everyone I said that to was like "err scooters arent cool" and then they became cool and those very people bought one....same with peasant tops...I always wanted a peasant top because I liked the medieval look and now they are popular and everyone is friggin' wearing one....women's fashion has the power to turn us all into clones. So yeah..tattoo..don't know. Not getting a chinese symbol...too trendy....one girl got a chinese symbol for what she thought was integrity but it ended up meaning fruit and vegetables...haha for us but painful laser surgery for her. One of my fave actors Joaquin Phoenix just got a circle....why? Because to him it means nothing...it was his rebellion against all the tattoos out there with chinese symbols ... the crazy things people get for its symbolistic meaning....tattoos are so personal...you are giving yourself a new appendage...it is attached to you forever. Maybe I am being too serious about it but I just can't be flippant about it.
Argh!!! I am just rambling on aren't I? I am really sorry all you poor people who read this. I will finally get my own personal blog going and then ramble all the crap there so all the good stuff will be left for you guys! How does that sound? hehe......
Anyways, I will leave it here for now...still trying to conquer my writer's block so the prose will have to wait....cant wait to read your next one Arvin!!
Stay cool , stay beautiful! Love Bec ~! :: posted by us friends 4:25 AM [+]
Monday, August 19, 2002
hey its me cat. Tonight i am the bearer of good news to all. Our Summie has had a baby girl, in the wee hours of this morning. Summie and daughter are doing really well. Right now i am here at becs place, we are both cheering with the good news. If you would like me to pass on any congrats or any messages just let me know.
miss you guys heaps, talk to you guys soon. love CaT :: posted by us friends 8:51 PM [+]
Friday, August 16, 2002
What gets you excited/happy? - always happy! by: Arvin
Im so excited about this prose thing and here is my first.
Since this was going to be the group topic for everyone (but not anymore since we can have our own topics to be posted anytime) I decided to write my first prose about it.
I will start off with a quote that I really like and believe in. It was emailed to me one day when I was feeling really depressed and felt like I could not continue with my degree. The message came with a story and this changed my whole perspective for many things. I always try to be happy, but this was the first for a while where it was written and thought to myself, hey whats the matter with me, there is more to life than this. I should be happy.
The moral lesson: "In life, there are enough times when we are disappointed, depressed and annoyed. We don't really have to go looking for them. We have a wonderful world that is full of beauty, light and promise. Why waste time in this world looking for the bad, disappointing or annoying when we can look around us, and see the wondrous things before us? I believe that we are happiest when we see and praise the good and try our best to forget the bad. Nobody's perfect but we can find perfection in them to change the way we see them." ~Anonymous.
Isnt it nice? Yes its really good! Ok. i know what you are saying, what makes me happy/excited. I have realised that material things can make you happy for a certain amount of time, a few hours, a day, a week. It could be a new bag, game, toy, food, book, car etc. Also things such as getting my licence, finishing my hsc, getting our new house. These can make you happy a bit longer, but at the end you are wanting more, not everything.... but just a bit more.
Thats the problem, people, even though they have enough or have plenty, they just want a bit more, just that little bit, that extra that they are craving for. Can we ever be happy with what we have? are we insatiable? I am not saying not to want more or that you should settle for what you have, its good to have goals and strive for something more, but then am i contradicting myself? yes.
So i should just answer the question, what makes me happy? Of course like any normal person i like material things, actually i love material things but i know that it would only be temporary like a toy, a nice pen, a book, a holiday. But getting a car, degree, house, licence, married is more like big success and an acoomplishment and i do feel happy when i attain them. Very happy!
Its abnormal if your always happy, yes we are human and we have more than one emotions. We have our days when we are sad and in deep thought/stress and thats normal, but just remember that when you smile the world smiles back at you!
I like looking forward to things like events (party with family and friends), seeing friends, having my family with me, when my music or show comes on, having the freedom to say what i think, doing what i want, not being hungry of food and love. Believing what i want to believe. There is also the sunsets and dawns, the beach, the sunny days, the summer rain, the chilli breeze on a humid day, the rain when i sleep in, favourate dish, warm blankets, the healthy sandwhich i prepares all by myself.
Here its goes, once you realize that there so many things to be happy about, especially the simple things in life, you will feel like your on top of the world everyday. Like that song "Its a beautiful day, dont let it get away" and "What you dont have, you dont need it now". Its really up to you, do you want to be happy? I know things could improve but first realise and be truly be happy or at least content that you get to be with the people that you love, you have the opportunities you have and to have this life and this beautiful world, once you do you'll get excited.... but then again... maybe im the only person that actually believes that and i must be living in a lala disney story. lol...Disney? maybe i do! wanna come?
okay well i hadnt actually seen this page yet when i posted below so i am posting again to reply to all.
Sumrah! i was just thinking about u the other day, i dont know why but i thought u were about to giv birth! :)
Arvin! i cant think of anything right now. why dont u start us off on a prose.
Bec! im glad ur still doing ur homework, i myself hav actually not been doing it but i will get back onto the wagon! Take all the time u need. btw, can i borrow ur scanner? in other words can i show up at ur doorstep with some pics to scan? And about the other thing, now that ive calmed downl im starting to understand now what was happening. im facing some hard truths and sifting them out from what i thought was reality and i dont know if there is anything worth salvaging. About the being open and not being emotionally clogged thing. i just started doing it this year really coz i did get emotionally clogged in the not too distant past and it all came rushing out of me and i just turned into a pathetic ball of mess. that is something which i do not wish to turn into again, and so here i am declaring myself to the world.
Relatively uneventful day. I was supposed to wake up at 8 this morning and i did but went straight back to sleep. Eventually i woke up at 8.40 and was just in time for the 9.06 bus. Was so tired in class my eyes couldnt focus on the overheads. Finished class at 12.30 and had lunch with Luz and Jon before coming home.
Anyway most interesting thing i learned in Marketing today was: one must kiss the gatekeepers ass to get anywhere.
hello ppl i am bored will go find arvin in a few min just waiting for sum1 2 come back guess what nothing ha ha bye :: posted by us friends 2:11 PM [+]
Wednesday, August 14, 2002
hey its sumrah!!!!!!!!!
hows everyone...still pregnant!!!!! ok!!! at uni with arvin....
later, sumrah~!!!!!!!! :: posted by us friends 1:25 PM [+]
hey everyone.....
questions......we post our prose here...just like a blog...but we can still have our normal daily rants and raves here.....just like what im gonna do now..u can post anytime...you can post urs first if u want...whenever its ready just post ur prose....u dont have to wait for me or anyone esle......but for now we all do the same topic every week...waiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt
i have a better plan.........lets scrap it........we post our OWN prose our OWN chosen topic/issue/idea OWN time/anytime!!!!!! how about that!!!!!!!! yeye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i think that is so much better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:::::::::::::::::new rules:::::::::::::: post your own topic/issue/idea (anything you want...whatever) post in your own time (weekly/daily/forthnightly...whenever) post....dont have to wait for everyone and if u want to write about the same topic as someone u can!!!!!! yeyeyeeyeyeye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i think this is better.... like??????
we can still rant and rave our normal stuff here but once in a while...we have our own column and topic...and u choose what to write/when to write!!! hope this works out!!!!
me eant now: im here waiting her for a uni friend.....suppose to be partners for this lab and shes not here yet.....an hour late and i wonder if she cares....urghh....she needs o get her marks for the prerequisite, hope she passes...she'll be the only person that i know that i can do it with and imjust pissed that i am ll alone and this is so hard and im doing it again..i mean i passed it already and stuff but i have to do it again coz i have more TP than i should....i cant hanle this right now...seems so hard....i have 2/3 weeks to do this....but im still stressed...wish me luck!!!! still waiting
Hey there again arvin!!! so with this prose thing...where do I post it?..on here? /....or is there another place for it>? I will follow your lead so I am really glad you are starting first! When u post yours...do I then post my prose on your chosen topic? Sorry for sounding so incredibly dumb. I really like ur idea though...very cool! I will wait to see how u do yours because it has been a while since I did anything really creative so I will very much follow your lead.
Love ya and now I leave ya! ..... Bec ~! :: posted by us friends 11:08 PM [+]
hello everyone.....here are the details about prose....
each person pick a subject each week....so far....its just 4 of us....but not heard from ness....but anyone is welcome...... so here is the order on choosing the subject -----arvin then bec then ness and therese......i made it alphabetical.......that ok???
the topic will be posted on the weekend (sat and sun) and we need to post our responce to the topic by the next week (sat and sun). 1 week to write about it... so basically its weekly....is that ok?...so its basically a weekend thing....(post new topics on the weekend and write it before the next weekend finishes)..did that make sense??? hope so......
ummmm no pressure...if u dont wanna write about it. dont have to, not a homework thing, so dont stress out about it...if ur busy its totally ok ..... doesnt matter how long it is.....what ur view is....we are not going to say ur wrong im right....its free speech......its basically ur column and say.....ur prose....and lastly have fun and be creative!!!
when you post your topic.....give it a heading, ur own sub heading and ur name: like....example....the topic is "free speech"
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- free speech: i have something to say so listen up by: arvin
but if you wanna rant, rave or blog normal....just do what we use to do....just write........ we can still blog about normal stuff...daily life here.....ok.....what else.... im so excited about this!
the topic can be anything at all and i choose for this week is "what gets you excited/happy?"
ps: next week the topic picker is bec then ness then teri then goes back around again to me... pss: u can post anytime this week.....ti'll the weekend but next monday we'll have a new topic...posted at that weekend....ok......i dont want to sound restricted....lol psss: not trying to be bossy.....if u wanna say anything...im totally all for it..its me arvin...so just say anything....this is our prose....the rules can be changed!!!!!
Hey It's Bec!!...again!!!! It is 3.35am on a Sunday morning. One thing that erks me about living in an apartment is that you hear noises constantly....around, under, above.....it freaks me out still because I have an over-paranoia about being safe. I could live literally anywhere as long as I feel and know I am safe. Speaking of, I have this mad desire to live in a bus or a train....was travelling in a coach the other day and thought it would make a mad but humble abode for yours truly. I mean, the toilet is at the back, you have plenty of chairs to make a good size living room and all you need is some electricity...man, I wanna live in a bus!!! Or a train..even better...add a carriage or two in renovations to make one really long home. Totally neat!
Update on my life.....I was going to say the usual but I am gonna be hugely honest here. I have been a bit depressed for some months now. I cannot pinpoint it exactly ... I suspect a few things. I am not happy with where I am, where I was in alignment with where I now am, blah blah. A friend said I need to get my groove back. And I really really hate saying this but it still affects me...."it" being what happened four years ago with my mum and my dad and the whole hoopla. I hate saying it cause it has been too long in my opinion and I should be back on the wagon but I have been off the train ever since and I am just in this rut where so much of me doesn't even feel like I am moving. And I hate saying it...I really really do. I just haven't really gotten over it I guess to a point that I can function to full capacity. And I wanna say exactly everything that happened at that time to really express why I feel this way but I think I am just trying to lamely make an excuse for not getting over it...moving on and all that. There is no mourning period...let's get that one off the slate right now. It's a "life adjustment". You don't really move on...you work around it. I have a list of things in my wallet....I felt like such a ten year old writing it...but they are things I will set out to finish before this year's end. I think I will be all cool in the end.
Ebay - wise, it has being going well. I have had a few people though whose payments I don't get in the mail so consequently I don't send their items and then I get this e-mail from them saying they sent the payment and then I have a situation of "do I believe them?"....then there are the slow payers who take literally months to pay up and expect you to hold the item and not resell it.....I know now that I would suck at the hospitality business. I have no patience. Actually, I knew this before. Worked at a cinema once and people were really rude. I felt like I was a vending machine and if I didn't deliver the goods in the time and style they wanted, I was going to be kicked in the guts like one. I wanted to wear a self-made badge that said "I am human.....treat me as one and I will not kick the living shit out of you" So yeah. Hospitality not for me. Like I have so much respect for the people who work at the potato place down the road at the shopping centre because they are ultra friendly even to people who are absolute cows....I think they have a special gene....way too nice...either that or they go home every night and beat the hell out of the wall.
Hey Teri!!!! I read your post. Powerful stuff. I am so so sorry it worked out like that. When that person had first told me what had happened, I admit I jumped the gun and was like "no way!!! " out for blood style attitude cause I hate the idea of anyone abandoning anyone. Thing is, with your explaination, it should and would have been justifiable enough to go "all's cool...lets' go get pizza "...it should not have been carried out the way it was. Thing is, I really believe it turned so ugly because I think it was about more than first thought. I am not defending this person, however my measly two cents on it is that this person missed your company a lot. Then on this night, you innocently leave and this person's feelings kind of accumulate and take it way too personally, thinking what you did was a personal attack. Like, you go on thinking you're not doing anything wrong while on the other person's side, that night was seen as the final straw ...get what I mean? I really didnt want to comment but it is borne from being really sorry it turned out the way it did. I was hoping and have been hoping for a while it would not but at the end of the day, you do have to respect yourself first and foremost and friend or not, all lips get dry and chape after too much ass kissing. As Arvin said, the ball is in their court now. It is up to them now to take a look at themselves and resolve it with themselves first because there is nothing more you can do. If they keep blaming you and attacking you, it seems more like a buffer for them to not have to address the problem themselves. It is sometimes much easier for them to just fire away than think about why they can't stop pulling the damn trigger.
All that aside, I loved your post. Very from the heart...but not in a Mills and Boon way hehe. It's good to be that open with yourself...you absolutely rock girl! You being that open means you'll never get emotionally clogged.
Hey Arvin....so what's with this prose thing? Can I join in and how does one join in?? ! I am still on my homework from therese....lol....yes I am still replying to your letter! I am so sorry for being so late with it....it is so not me...I just didnt have time over this past month...sorry for being so bad with it. I am on the bit about writing some prose about something...anything...like a spoon or a windmill....my aim is to not sound crap and to not sound like a John Keats wannabe. Lets see how I fare!!!
Love you all ~ !!!! Bec ~ ! :: posted by us friends 4:10 AM [+]
Hey there people! It's Bec!...I know, like holy crap...I actually got back on this thing. I am incredibly sorry...and I really mean that.. I really enjoyed being here so I really don't know why I dropped off the radar. Maybe it was the masochistic side of me playing chaos with my brain again......? Or maybe I am making excuses....yeah I am a bit lame..I choose option B.
How have you been old friends? I am going out of my mind with study. I am behind but my body and mind is like "stuff it take a break"....I have not gone to the city on my own in several several long months and I really really need it. Maybe this prose thing will help break away some of the rot building up in my head...?! Bear in mind, I have been in a creative rut for the past four years so well...just think of brilliance ...look the other way and you should see me. :)) I like your ideas on basis' for prose. Very interesting stuff. Let's get it going!.....if you will still have me. I am soooo sorry for not blogging like I did. But I am back and promise to stay...again, if you'll have me!!!
Blogging back in a sec...... Bec~! :: posted by us friends 3:35 AM [+]
Saturday, August 10, 2002
hey ......the link is now https://www.angelfire.com/blues/usfriends/ if u link to the other one blogpsot one .....the only thing u'll see are the old posts........so use this one https://www.angelfire.com/blues/usfriends/
ok.....about the prose.....i dont know how much you wanna update them and write about for each topic.....like a column thing...weekly??....fortnightly???......the topic we pick together or it goes around each week one person pick one topic for each week..or by other people......
we can still blab about whats happening with us...some rants or rave .....but ....i think we could integrate this prose thing....i mean hopefully its fun and worthwhile......
here are some topics from prose to get an idea...any topics....
"Vote on next week's prose topic - all topics have been suggested by visitors or prosers." If there was one thing you could do before you die what would it be? How would you / do you handle bullying? What's your take on labels . stereotypes like goth, prep, jock, geek etc. What is YOUR label? What are your thoughts on camgirls? Is it really better to be optimistic rather than realist? How do you feel about the stereotyped 'perfect family'? How do you feel about internet drama? What do you dislike about prose itself? Should mental status be a basis for friendship?
ok......now just sit and see if this works out............
later!!!!! arvin :: posted by us friends 9:11 PM [+]
Monday, August 05, 2002
i really like the colours! just a mention! lol :: posted by us friends 4:02 PM [+]
.....no pasword changes or anything but the password for angelfire i will give u. just email me....
so exciting we have our new and improved page .....long live!!!!!! US FRIENDS !!!!!!!!!!!!!
any questions just ask me!!!!!!
love, arvin
ps....i have an idea......but...its all up to u......i wanna start a prose.....its like a weekly/anytime topic where we can have column/debate/thouhts about certain topic....totally up to u...just a thought.......ok dont worry about it.....silly idea....
hey how come i cant see this page at university but i can see at home...whats with that......so weird....pissed....can everyone see the front page alright? coz since i cant see the front page i cant comment....so weird...should i do anythnig about it and make a new blog or somethnig. just a thought.
well im at uni first day of uni again, i hate waiting in the line and organizing timetables its so annoying....waiting for some friends so just wanna say hello to u guys!!! :: posted by us friends 11:07 AM [+]
hey people! wherever u are! hello! i just changed the colours! more sunny and bright and happy! hope u like it! later! arvin! :: posted by us friends 1:13 AM [+]
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