StEpPiNg oUt
hi everyone.. wake up so early cos need to work in the morning.. goin to work soon.. Pst Tan preach a very good message yest on progressive commitment.. letting go of something when u walk deeper wif God.. tink after tis message i decided to let go of my comfort zone.. too comfortable in the sense that i always stick wif my own group and not talkin to other new frens in the Cg.. will break that comfort zone cos i believe i must be a people person.. Be there for the people..

Anyway, i dun tink i will tink abt wat e "bothering" stuff oredi.. decided to not tink abt it anymore.. gonna have a freed up mind and lifestyle to serve God wholeheartedly in His kingdom..
Yest was membership day, being reflecting abt myself there and then.. tink i too into my comfort zone oredi..
It's time to step out for me..

hi guys, it's really being some time since i update my blog.. always seem like giving a weekly review then a daily one.. juz too busy tis week lah, school and work.. Gonna work lesser so that i can help more in Cg and rest more oso..

Tis week was nothing special, usual rountine(studying and working).. Really no time to go out cos always too tired after my work.. BUt at least i went out juz nw, saturday i mean. Went out wif Lewis for dinner and chit chattin @ orchard, didn't meet up and spend time together for a long long time.. Had a great time chatting and shared wif him some of my things and problems i faced.. we then went on to play guitar somewhere near his house.. came home ard 1am and i still awake nw even that tml have to serve in morning 10am svc, gonna sleep soon after posting tis blog.. He's really my good bro, thanks Lewis..

Actually, being "bothered" by some stuffs recently but it's quite hard to say over here.. tink many things have changed since that thing happen
(can't say much).. was tinking abt it last few days that wat can i do so in the end, i tink the best thing for me to do nw is to let it rest for the moment.. maybe it's good that i focused more in my ministry and Cg, considered abt it when i finish my SOT studies lah.. juz pray and hope that it will be normal again.. haha dun tink anyone knw wat i talking abt, it's ok..

Recently, was helpin out more in my ministry.. will have to go back church office every tue to do some tv archives stuff.. My Cg is really muliplying soon, praise the Lord.. i will spend more time wif my members when it multiplied, build up each other life and to see the "zoe" life of God in them..

Read something nice, abt a boy asking his dad how much he earn an hour.. when his dad told e boy he earned $20 an hour, he asked his dad for $10.. in the first place, he didn't give his son tinking that he must have need it to buy toys but afterwhile, he give it to him.. The boy took out e money that he have wif the $10 his dad juz give him, his dad was angry cos he dun need to ask for more if he still has money.. But the kid give the money to his dad($20) in return for an hour so that his dad can come back early to have dinner wif him.. tink it's an important lesson to u guys and oso to me cos i tink i have neglected some of my frens, CG members and family members ever since i started workin.. sometimes, all people need is ur time for them.. spendin time wif them will really meet the needs in the hearts of people.. promise myself not to overlook any frens in my life anymore.. will try to meet up wif them more and spend quality time together.. Thank God for all tis frens in my life..
i always feel it takes two hands to clap.. similarily in frenship, it oso take two to make the frenship go far..

have say alot oredi tonite, gonna rest nw if not tml or shld i say tis mornin i will have no energy to serve in ministry.. see ya guys.. nitez..

hi.. juz woke up onli to find out that i'm late for work again.. can't seem to wake up in time for my morning work.. got so much to share wif guys abt last weekend and everthing. tink will share more when i'm back from work later cos need to come back to do my assignment so can't go out after my work..

It's really a long time since i post anything here cos really busy wif school and work tis whole week.. find it weird to see me post something at tis hour rite, i should be in school. took mc todae cos was experiencing some stomach upset last nite and tis mornin.. nw feeling better, later still have to work cos can't find anyone to replace me.

Give ya guys a summmary of my whole week:
Basically studying and workin and rushing my assignments..
Last sat went to pulau ubin for a zone outing, a sandwich competition held there. didn't take part in any competition cos was workin before that then rush down from work. When i reach there, it was oredi prize presentation. thought wanna cycle and trekking over there but everyone wanna go back so went back singapore. onli spent less than an hour over there. went to esplanade to see NDP and fireworks wif cg.. then had haagen-dazs, it was really nice.
My cell group is multiplying soon, really praise the Lord for that cos 2-3 months ago, my cg was not increasing but really thank God that our cg prayed and asked God for souls. It will be an exciting time cos my cgl told me that i will follow her to her multipled cg.
Being pondering abt tis question: whether to be more focused in my cg or ministry. Tink i found my answer on last friday when i chat wif some of my SOT frens and oso Pst Kong's preaching. He preached abt don't let reality be a limiter to us. always tink that i can onli excel in one area of my service to God. but nw i not goin to let reality limit me, will put in more time to my cg(giving bs, building up my member's life thru praying wif them, help out more in cg). After that svc, i had a chat wif my cgl. told her that i will help out more in cg. promise her that when cg multiply, will spend more time wif cg. tis doesn't mean i'm giving up on my ministry, will still serve fervently. that's mean i will carefully juggle ard wif my cg, tv ministry, choir (goin practice tis sat :) ), school work and my cafe job. will really stretch me and place me into another level wif God but i knw it's for my own good. cos if i can't do it nw, when i graduated there will be more of tis to come.

Wanna serve God in every area He has put me in. not onli i wanna be a cellgroup leader for Christ, i oso wanna be a tv director that enable me to show who God is, not onli to member in my future cg and oso to the people outside who has yet see the light of Jesus.
Oso wish that i will be able to serve God full-time too. i knw when i have the desire, God will be there to see me thru.. Trusting in God to bring me thru..
It's like the song we sang during the bible seminar..
"Lord you are always here with me
there is no changing God in thee
you are the same yesterday
and today and forevermore
Here in your promise i stand
you hold my future in your hands
my solid rock
Almighty God
I worship u "
it was just last week that God gimme a verse about the things HE promised to me.
The verse is Heb 13:8 :
"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever"
He is really the same yesterday, today and forever. Thank You Jesus that you are always there for me..

The Vision that God has given me:

To be able to serve full-time in church(TV), to influence life thru media that life will be changed and transformed thru our hands.

:.A FulFiLlInG wEeK.:
hey hi everyone,
it was a very fulfilling weekend for me.. that's wat i feel for me lah cos feel i did the best i can for my duty (tv ministry). It was after so long that our team in svc 4 flow as a team and we were producing really good shots. Thank God for that..
Went for svc 5 after my ministry duty, sat near the front and really felt that God's presence was there when we sang the song "My First Love is Jesus". it was a great svc and Pst Zhuang was preaching. He really preach well. During the altar call, pastor wanna pray for those who have lost their hunger for God. Many went down and i was standing at the side watching all tis happen.
I really thankful for my fren cos she saw many ppl waiting to be prayed for. She asked me to go down and helped, actually it was my first time laying hands on others. didn't went down initially to help cos always feel that i'm not able to pray for ppl, tink i really have low faith in tis area..
Anyway, juz went down to help out.. Prayed for 5 person in total, the first guy i prayed for didn't fall under the power of God.. i tink i never let God come and minister to him, was trying hard on my own..
After that, i juz told myself i must move by God's strength so when i prayed for the second guy, i hold his hand wif my left hand and place my right hand on his head. Juz prayed for him and ask God to come and filled him. For the first time, i feel my spirit rise up (dunno how to explain) but slowly i can't feel his head wif my right hand, he was touched by the Lord and most amazing thing is that there is no catcher behind to hold him but he juz went down without hurtin himself, i tink God has protected him when He fall.. i continued to pray for 3 more ppl and really feel God touching them..
Wanna thank God that my faith increased in tis area, i will wanna move more in the spirit wif God.. c" )

Mon(040803):
Working tis morning from 10am-3pm.. still the same usual stuff.. ate alot and do nothing.. haha..
then met up wif some church frens shoppin.. was fun cos first time out wif them, found alot of nice things that i wanna buy.. shoppin craving again..

Tml Canon James Wong will be teaching in bible school, hope to really pay attention in class so that can draw from the man of God. Told myself to focus more for the last 4 months of bible school, to be used by God mightily.. Tis will be a busy week cos tml will be stayin in church to help out in tv to prepare for a conference in paya lebar methodist church on thurs by Canon James Wong. they wan us to help out on thurs and tml have to remove camera to pack up for the meeting..
Really hope that we can go for at least 1 or more mission trips.. still not sure whether we can go but pray that if we could, it will be a lifetime experience for those in bible school..
Talk too much oredi AgAiN.. gonna rest.. cya guys..

hello i'm back to post my blog again.. tink it's a good place for me to sound my comment, things i seldom say.. start to like to write here oredi..

Didn't post yest cos came home too late oredi, was workin until 12 midnite then took cab home so too tired to write anything cos tis morning oso workin.. yest i forgot to clock in for bible school then as i'm worshipping God durin P&W, suddenly the thought that i haven't clock in came into my mind. went out immediately then have to bear the consequence and have 10 mins added to my late-coming record.. really pray that i dun need to do another area-cleaning again, it's very tiring..

Tis mornin was good cos managed to wake up in time for work, actually woke up 6am then rush to work immediately(workin @ 7am).haha told myself not to oversleep cos todae is my manager shift so better dun be late, slept @ my couch again. tis time i did it purposely cos when i always wanna wake up early i will sleep at the couch so that i feel uncomfortable sleeping, forcin me to wake up early. tink tonite will do that again cos tml have to be in church @ 8.45am for tv ministry.. haha tis is my theory of waking up early lah, haven't sleep on my bed for the past daes oredi.

hey everyone, how's ur day then? hope u guys are living a life that is filled wif purpose and vision. Without vision, the people perish..
Take Care everyone.. rest well

Hi everyone,
Not being posting a proper blog for the past two days oredi cos was really tired after coming back from work everyday.. being sleeping at my couch after bathing for the past two nite.. Was really tired but did had a enjoyable and great time tis few days. Pst Mike came to bible school to teach us abt deliverance, to cut it short i will summarise these three days event as short as possible(hope i can do it lah cos i tend to be a bit long-winded, haha)

1st Day(290703):
teach on the foundation of demonology, God's presence was indeed strong that day.. Felt the astmosphere changed during the deliverance session, he prayed for those who had hatred and unforgiveness to their mum abt their criticism.. didn't went for the deliverance cos never felt anything i have against my mum, did search my heart and felt alrite.. Many were set free..

2nd Day(300703):
forget to say.. first day he did oso prophesied over people's life.. that makes me wanna let him prophesy over me too so tried to sit in the front rows but came late so unable to get any but it's ok.. he pray for those who's dad and mum worship idol and those who were dedicated to idol before.. i went forward for deliverance cos my parents are still worshipper of idol but i'm believing that God's love will touch them and they will get saved.. Pst mike pray for me but i didn't manifest, tink i had oredi released it three years ago during deliverance and never allow the evil spirit to come back..anyway, it is good to be prayed for and i thank God for His power that i'm free in tis area..

3rd Day(310703):
More teaching on demonology but after the first break, he went straight into deliverance.. First, he ask those who had spirit of grief and sorrow to come forward for prayer and deliverance.. Searching my heart,i didn't went for the altar call cos dun feel an urge.. can't remember anything that really grieve me or makes me sorrow.. help out wif the deliverance and during the session, pst mike came from behind and hug me and prayed for me.. i fell under the power of God and was filled wif God's love.. it was wonderful..
Next, he pray abt the issue on soul-tie and sexual sin.. it was really powerful, saw many people got set free, pst mike prayed for me. i didn't manifest, i tink maybe i didn't had any soul-tie wif anyone so that's why..
i feel after all tis days of deliverance and teaching, wat i really learn is to walk right and pure wif God. it is actively resisting the devil after being delivered. God's ministry never fail to change the heart of people..
One more session wif Pst mike before he leave for NZ. really wanna thank God for him..

While working today, heard the song "Music of my heart".. Suddenlly thought of God's love upon me.. Really thankful that everyday, it's His love that is the music of my heart.. that's a verse in the song that says "u taught me to run,u taught me to fly,u help me to free the me inside".. i tink the most touching word that melts me was "u help me to free the me inside".. Only Jesus can free and Only Him alone can see the potential that is in us.. i thank God for seeing thru me physically and never at my weakness, thank Him for giving this music(His love) that i can sing always for the rest of my life.. Jesus, i will sing of ur love forever..

Thank You, Jesus..

Juz feel like dropping a msg before i get ready to go to school.. No time to post my msg yesterday cos came home ard 11 plus then was really very tired. After bathing, watch tv and was so tired that i was sleeping on the couch the whole nite..
Went out wif a fren for dinner cos she say she wanna treat me for my b'dae. went marche, it's a very long time since i met up wif her.. haha funny thing is last year she oso treat me marche for my b'dae too, tink it's juz a coincide cos initial plan was to eat at nooch. goona go oredi.. time running out.. pst mike connell preaching tis mornin, must try to get front row seat so that he can pray for me.. cya..

Hi everyone, juz came back from town. was workin todae till 3pm then went shopping alone cos can't seem to find anyone who is free to meet up.
But was very excited cos found alot of stuffs i would like to buy.. went back to where i did my oakley spec to clean up the spec then saw a new pair of spec called the oakley "off-line" ver4.0, very nice. it cost around $388 wif the lens multicoated and high-indexed.. very tempted to get it but hold back cos wanted to give to my debt-cancellation pledge first, tis can wait.. If i am faithful in little, God will bless me with much.
Walked around shopping for new clothing, actually not being buying any clothes for some time oredi..
came back around 6 plus cos wanted to be home early to clean up my room and oso catch "friends" @10pm.. room being in a mess recently, lazy to clear and no time cos always home late after work.. haha juz plain laziness lah.. c" )

As i was writing tis, there's some issue that i really hope God will listen to.. tink after abt 5 months in SOT, really learn alot in the theology stuff but really feel it's more abt personal life being changed and tranformed, walking deeper and deeper wif God. i can't deny my life have not been the same after i joined SOT but i always feel i can do more for GOd. Area in my life where i can let go and let God.. After yesterdae deliverance svc, i really feel it's not the form that is important but it's the power that God give.. i was really amused by how Pst Mike pray for the people, when he prophesied over ppl's life, he never force them but he allows God to minister to them. The love of God to be upon them and filled them..
was abit upset by wat i saw durin deliverance yest, can't share much cos not very nice but i told myself i must be flowing wif God not by my own strength..
Juz some of my thoughts..

i really wish the rest of the 5 months in SOT will be a challenging one cos i always dream to be God's vessel.. wan to walk along wif Jesus each and every single day, align wif His thought and His dream for me but i believe decision is up to me..
"To Be or not To Be a man after God's own heart"

Juz came back from cellgroup, was supposed to go for svc 3 to support but was exhausted and really tired for the whole day cos workin in the morning then cellgroup meeting..
Really need to rest cos tml will be doing another camera not the usual one that i always do.. ask to do cam 2 tml, more stress cos have to follow pst thru out the svc..
Had a good time praying yest in church, it's good to come together to support pst kong thru e spirit..

tink i'm goin to sleep oredi, need more rest.. see ya guys.. c" )