UNDER CONSTRUCTION
I have many goals like a lot of people but when people think of goals weight-wise, they say or think things like, “Become a size 6!” or “Have a body like Beyonce!” But my goals aren’t that shallow because I have learned that shallow people aren’t happy. My goals go deeper than pounds as should yours.
Love myself
(The most important. Not loving myself has snow-balled into big problems)
Gain confidence
(I have virtually zero confidence in myself which means that not only do I feel fat and not pretty enough, but I have beaten myself up so much over the years that I have no confidence in myself as a whole or my ablities and I’m going to put that to a halt quickly)
Personal acceptance
(Even though I may say, "Fuck what people say." I do hold what people think of me in high regard and I shouldn’t. Once I gain personal acceptance, only what I think of myself will truly matter)
Become more structured
(Sleeping at a certain time every night, enrolling in college courses, becoming employed, volunteering, following a daily routine are all examples of structure that I have lost over the years that leave me boggled at times. I really need to work on, one at a time, getting my life back on the fast track to success)
Lose weight
(Many think losing weight will automatically make them happier...no. It will boost self-esteem. However, whatever baggage and unhappiness you had before will still be there. That’s why I didn’t make losing weight a top goal because I can always lose weight, but I want more than that because I know being thin and toned won’t solve everything)
Think more positively
(I am an extreme worry person and always think of the worst case scenario or the “least thing to happen but it’s horrible to even think about” scenario. I need to think more positively not only about my life and the people I love but about myself as well. I’m even going to stop saying, “I suck at math.” I just need to study more and besides, I’m good in English *smile*)
Run a marathon
(I would love to run a marathon! Not only will training and running a marathon be beneficial to me but raising money and running for a cause will be the biggest benefit of all)
Become more patient
(I have a quickly angered and annoyed nature which could be bad for my health in the future. I also don't like being a hot-head)
Become more spiritual
(I need to be centered. I need peace. Not so much a religion but a place where I can go to heal deep wounds, a place where I can gain strength, a place where I can find myself, meditate, what have you)
Seek counseling
(I believe personal help is nothing to be ashamed of and I really don‘t know why it‘s a big issue to keep it a secret. Some people find it helpful, others don’t but I think speaking to a professional and them giving you tools to use throughout your life (because this society can really make you go crazy) is a smart thing to.
Confront past and make amends
(There are just some things that need closure and need to be put to rest. If someone has hurt you in anyway, I believe telling them (not telling them off) is an excellent thing. That way, nothing is sitting and growing until one day you explode and don’t really know why)
Make a friend, or two, or three
(Yeah, just some cool laid back people to talk and chill with. Everyone needs a friend, I realize this)
Finally, be 100% happy
(I don’t know if there is a percentage of how happy one could get but I want to be up there, happy with myself, happy with my life, happy with just about everything and be able be upbeat about difficult situations that may come along the way)
