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Disclaimer: Tokyo Babylon is by the awesome Clamp.Random Thoughts
Chapter 6 - Timed out.
At four o'clock in the
morning, I gave one last hug to Seishirou and got up to put my clothing back on.
Then, I slowly kissed his forehead and patted his hair to take one last look
at him.
"Yes, just for tonight," I whispered again.
Unlocking the door, I
slipped away as quietly as I had come.
While walking home, I looked at my
hands. And all the world was coming back to me.
The things I had wanted to
forget were resurfacing. And the ache inside of me was pinching my hands as well
as my heart.
"Someday...I know someday this will shatter me." I said to
myself. "Being two different people, one for the world like Hokuto and all the
people I deal with; and one face for Seishirou, the one that didn't know any
better."
One will win someday. The masks were breaking each other. One
day, I know that this inner conflict will end.
Whether or not I will ever be
the same, that's the ultimate question.
As I went to my room and covered
myself with my sheets, I drifted off to sleep saying to myself, "Please let it
not be soon..."
Hmm?
This place...
That child is
me....
I watched my younger self trying to go around with my priest
uniform to take off wards. Screaming in pain, it suddenly forwarded to that old
familiar scene...
"Kirei na sakura desu ka? Sakura ga osuki desu ka?"
Like the child I've always been, I answered, "Yes."
But I kept on
staring at the boy and his haunting smile...
As he touched the sakura
branches and their petals, a chill ran down my spine.
I don't like the way
you're doing that...
And yet again, that horrid question was asked once
more, "Do you know why the sakura are pink?"
Shaking my head innocently, he
answered that it was because of the dead people's blood who were buried under
the sakura.
I saw my younger self begin to cry.
I felt too much
pain for these people, even until now I started to sniffle...
But who?
Who is this person?
As the boy with no name was going to make a bet with
'my younger self' the sakura violently rushed in the wind and this time, a hand
had held onto my shoulder.
Turning around, the person was gone.
But
that haunting smile reappeared...
...only older...
"Sei-" then I
stopped saying his name as I saw a vision of him with sakura in the background
carrying my dead sister...
...the one he had just killed...
My
eyes became even wider and I screamed, "SEISHI...?"
Blinking my eyes and
watching my hands in front of me, there I was in bed looking at my hands
reaching up. Getting up abruptly, I was so confused.
"Yume," I finally
sputtered out.
My memory...
The person who's name I had
said...
Hugging myself, I looked down as my head hung low with my body in
pure numbness.
"It's too late."
I can't cry anymore...
Time has
run out.
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Author's note: I know I had taken too long with these
scenes, but these were for my own purposes for the full impact later...
And
did you notice what I put in chapter 5? His hands bleeding because of his 5
point star...
And did you see this chapter 'conveniently' placed? It's 6 for
imperfection and death...
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