Yui Miyamoto 
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Disclaimer: Subaru and Sei-chan are byproducts of the imaginations of Clamp as
well as all of Tokyo Babylon.
(But as my friend and I always say, "It's only
logical that you can't make something out of nothing. So there's gotta be a
look-alike somewhere on this Earth and we're out to find
him/them!")Random Thoughts
Chapter 3 -
Shiawase ni naritai. (I want to be happy.)
"Itai yo... Kurushi
yo..."
Like a broken record, the little girl's words played in my head and
kept on inflicting it.
And so, in the pouring rain, I ran faster and faster
as if I could runaway from this pain. As if in the rain, it would drain from my
heart, and yet because of it, I was invisibly bleeding for this mother and her
child.
Itai yo...
Drip.
Kurushi yo...
I sobbed even louder in
silence and I wiped away my tears though I knew the rain would keep on falling
onto my face.
And this time, I wouldn't even protest.
If I run
faster...
Plish, plosh, plish, plosh
...and
faster...
-whish!
I skidded to the floor. Crying hard in the rain, I
got up while gripping my hands on my board, I clenched my teeth and stood there
for a moment.
But still, I began to run again...
...and I found myself
going in no particular direction. But then, I found my bent head knocking before
his door.
Oh, Seishirou...
He answered and was so surprised to see
me. Dripping in the rain, I didn't want to even lift my head. But through it
all, he saw me crying as I stepped closer towards the light inside his
apartment.
Picking me up with his two arms, he placed me on his bed and
wrapped me with his warm blanket. For a moment, those two arms were embracing me
and I didn't protest even then...
"Sumimasen..." I apologized as I leaned
my wet head of hair on his chest and the rainwater falling onto his
shirt.
Shaking his head slowly, he answered, "It's okay."
Again, I began
to quiver and sob quietly. Even tighter, his warm arms held me as he whispered,
"Stop crying, Subaru-kun."
Getting up after a minute or two in that position,
he offered, "I'll give you something to drink so that you'll calm down,
okay?"
Nodding my head slowly because I didn't know what to do at the moment,
I sniffed and wiped my face with the back of my glove.
We then talked and
I ended up putting my head in his lap crying as he held me and ran his fingers
through my hair.
Then, as I drifted to sleep, I said, "Thank you...very
much..."
Crash!
It sounds like glass...
And then, it
thundered again as a flash of light lit up the outside.
Blinking my eyes,
Seishirou-san then came out of a room. He had taken out his glasses and it was
so rare to see him like this...
Maybe I'm dreaming...
He's walking
over to me as he's undoing his tie. Sitting next to me, he then took the back of
my neck and carried it towards his direction.
Blurry-eyed, and with my
head in mid-air, I blinked at him and said uncertainly, "Seishirou-san?"
He
then smiled at me.
That smile like that boy with no name...
It is
a dream...
Maybe I'm denying this...
He then lifted me even more
up as he leaned down. Coming closer to my face, I then sleepily closed my eyes
as I felt a warm kiss on my lips. While running the tips of his fingers against
my neck, he began to kiss my cheek and kept on doing so as he reached my voice
box.
The rain poured even more in soft murmuring...
"You should
watch out, Subaru-kun..." he said in between this kissing.
I am
dreaming...
Brushing his lips against my cheeks, I felt his breath on my
ear as he whispered, "...because the happiness you want may lead you to darkness
and sadness."
He then placed me carefully back on the bed as he kissed me
in the mouth again.
Deeper and deeper I am falling into
you...
Holding up my hand weakly to protest against him, he placed my
hand down gently back on the bed and kissed my forehead saying, "Mine. Maybe I
should say this to myself also, shouldn't I, Subaru-kun?"
He then laughed
as I felt him still looking down at me with his hands on either side of
me.
And I'm still not protesting...
voluntarily letting you do as you
please with me...
...but you wouldn't do that to me, now wouldn't you,
Seishirou-san?
Blinking and falling into more of my unconsciousness, the
only thing I could think of was the person over me as he looked down with a sad,
longing look I had never seen on him before.
It is really a
dream...
Because the rain's still pouring.
Plip, plop.
Why
are you now crying on me, Seishirou?
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Author's note: *huff, puff*
It's so hard writing everyday, but as long as you're reading, I'm happy to do
it...
dedicated to Adri. and you said i wouldn't know who you
were...
Don't you just love Seishirou?
Real conversation-
Yui
says:
heero - omae o korosu 'i'll kill you' in such a seductive
tone.
kappei yamaguchi who is the voice actor of ryuichi. if he says anything
on any series, i just go bonkers...
seishirou - boku tte sexy desu ka? means
you're saying i'm sexy?
Mer says: XD YEs YEs that's what we're saying
Sei!!
Yui answers: i agree whole heartedly...! which was why yui herself
made a poster of seishirou..
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