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Chapter 2 - Deeply
"What's that?"
I put my hand on my
forehead because the sun's rays were so bright and shone into my face.
And so
I pursued that object overhead not really paying attention to where I was going.
"Doko ni ikimasu ka? Doko-"
"WAH!!!" Waving my arms in the air, I fell on the
train station platform...flat on my face.
Taking my hand firmly in his hand,
a random guy began to get his handkerchief for my dirty face. Dusting off my
jacket and pushing my red nose, I then thanked him. I found out he was a doctor
and he took me to his clinic. He was a vetenarian with so many cute animals to
look over.
As he applied ointment into my face, he smiled and I began to
blush while freezing up in my seat, but that didn't matter if I was already red
with a rudolf nose.
After he helped me, my sister came right
over...
and she began to make fun of me. Even more than the usual.
I kept
on blinking because I was so shy about the whole incident and she didn't have
any idea that I was dying there while she was describing the whole, "But
Sei-chan is the kind of guy you fall in love with at first
sight...'
Sinking away in my seat and turning even redder than any known
vegetable on the planet, there I was having the time of my life with my sister
poking fun at me with someone I just met...
...just met...
When I
said so, he seemed somehow upset. In a quick glance, he held a look that was so
stern and serious. It somehow seemed out of place.
In the next moment, he
began to protest at my remark. "No, this is NOT the first time we've
met."
"It isn't?" I blinked my eyes in surprise as well as my sister.
He
shook his head full of determination. "No. We met a long time ago."
And
we left it at that...well, on the outside.
Racking my mind even further,
I felt guilty for not remembering this kind doctor because he had been so good
to me so far. But my mind came out with a blank.
It didn't help that he poked
through my train of thought to say something about marriage, him and me in the
same sentence.
"But, but I'm a guy!" I protested.
He didn't care,
though. He came closer and closer to me while saying that maybe he was hentai
for these thoughts...
And just when I thought it was going to be
over...
Hokuto says, "Hanami! Let's see it together!"
I wanted so
much to slap my head against my palm in shock. This was such a Hokuto-chan thing
to do, but still...
As I sulked behind half in shock, and half in pain of
being their patsy for their jokes, I came across a sakura tree whose petals were
so pink.
It stood out among the other trees, we'll just say that.
That
sakura...
And there stood Seishirou...
...asking the same question
that boy with no name had asked me years before...
Still denying it in a
dream and whether this was true, I looked deeply at Seishirou. Over and over I
kept on convincing myself, "It's not him. It's not Seishirou-san..."
And
yet that horrid statement persisted in my head, "It's because there are dead
people buried under the sakura."
Pound...doki doki...
"It's because
there are dead people..."
Doki...
Because....
Doki...
There
are...
Doki
Dead
people...
Doki...
Nan-
"Subaru-kun~!"
Catching my breath, I ran
to my sister who was already yelling at me. So I joined them at the
picnic.
I kept on staring at that sakura trying to remember what had
happened.
The memory kept on pounding into my head and was eating me alive.
But there I still smiled in front of them...
...while screaming deep
inside...
...WHY DOES HE LOOK LIKE SEISHIROU-SAN?! It cannot
be!!!
"What's wrong, Subaru-kun?" Seishirou asked as he looked curiously
at me while passing me more food.
Being distracted and all, I failed to
notice him picking up a napkin and wiping my mouth with that distinct smile that
I began to melt into...
The kind that you didn't care what happened from then
on because you were so intricately woven in the twisted web already without even
knowing it...
I shook my head to put these painful thoughts aside.
"N-nandemo nai..."
He patted my shoulder. "I hope so..."
Catching a
glimpse of him from the side of my eyes, I want to enjoy this moment.
This
moment with my dear sister Hokuto and our new friend Seishirou...
Looking
at them, I began to think, "I think I'll cherish this...I have to cherish this
now."
My mind then said, "Why?"
And I had no answer. It was a total
blank to me.
Then, Hokuto-chan grabbed my shoulders and shook me to get
out of my daze...
By the end of the whole ordeal, I went to bed tired and
worried.
That persistent nagging feeling kept on clouding my mind and my
heart and finally I thought while looking at Seishirou-san, "What have I gotten
myself into?"
That's what's wrong...
His question echoed in the
recesses of my head and swam with no chance of it being saved at all. Falling
deeper into quicksand, I was enraptured by the invisible hands that pulled my
gloved ones.
As I went to bed, I took off my gloves to look at each five
point star on each of my hands.
I couldn't hold my smile any longer and I
began to cry. Holding myself in fear, I closed my eyes tightly as my heart began
to ache even worse than before.
"It can't be him." Sobbing, I whispered,
"I...I refuse to...believe it."
Even tighter than before, I embraced my
shoulders to whisper, "If it is him, I think it's too late..."
Crying even
harder, I whispered even lower and barely audibly, "I...I think I'm falling for
the enemy..."
That boy had seduced my heart when I was little with my
youthful questions while taking my life away...
...he was doing it all
over again...
...and even more seductive and painful than before...
...and
again, I was shouting, "I can't hear you! The wind's too loud." while being
caught in a beautiful storm of ravaging sakura petals and not protesting to the
danger it entailed...
I knew my life depended so heavily on those falling
sakura. Crashing lightly to the ground, depleting my life force and innocence so
slowly, so softly, so tenderly and warmly touched also...
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Author's
note: Subaru~! >_
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