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Disclaimer: yui doesn’t own fruits baskets.Music Without Words
Chapter 12 – let me show you..
“Well, this is great,”
I sarcastically commented to myself as I sighed while looking at the sight
before me. It was the understatement of the year, but I knew I had to say
something before I would really break down.
Now, almost everyone knew and
it was Kyo mad at me at the moment.
I swiped the water’s surface angrily
and washed my face with the salt water of the sea. Then, I began to laugh while
getting up. “These are now my tears. How ironic.”
What was I going to do
now?
Who was I supposed to turn to now?
The answers pointed to
myself. Only I knew what was going to happen and yet, I closed my eyes to pray
if there could be another way.
Why did things turn out this way?
I
hung my head again as I sighed. My heart was going to burst from its burden and
yet I could say nothing because I wouldn’t know what to say.
“I’m
disappointed in you, Haru,” he had told me.
Of all the people, I hadn’t
expected Momiji and him to say this to me.
After a long while, I turned
around and headed back to the beach house, but I saw the light was on in the
living room. I thought it was only Kyo sitting on the couch as I was walking
from the patio, but I saw Hatori, Shigure, Tohru, Kyo, and Momiji all over the
room too.
They all had contemplative faces and as I entered through the
threshold, they turned to me.
I stood there for a moment looking into
their faces.
Some part of me wanted Yuki there…
But I knew that
wasn’t possible.
Not here. Not now.
As I took another step, Tohru
immediately stood up. Then, she whispered with tears in her eyes,
“Haru…”
At that moment, she frowned with tears going down her face as she
calmly sat back down. “I can’t even hug you.”
I sighed as I looked over
at Hatori. “You weren’t supposed to say anything.”
Hatori’s guilty eye
looked away, but pointed towards Momiji.
Momiji then rose his hand up and
whispered, “I was the one that told them the whole story while Yuki was
sleeping.”
He gulped as he closed his eyes with infliction written all
over them. “I…We want to help you, but we’re stuck.”
Kyo, who was looking
away from me with his arms crossed, joked, “Maybe we should ship them
off.”
I pouted as I sat by him. Leaning my head on his shoulder while he
was still upset, I said, “Still mad at me now?”
Messing up my hair, he
tilted his head a bit. “Just a little.”
I then smiled as I patted his
shoulder while lifting up my head, but it was Momiji who came over to the couch.
He sat next to me and leaned his head on my shoulder this time. “I think Kyo’s
got a good suggestion.”
Shigure shook his head while keeping his arms
folded before him. “Not good. Akito would still find some way to find you two,
especially if it involves Yuki.”
“The only way may be that you leave or
Yuki leaves.” Hatori suggested while staring at them as he leaned his weight on
the wall in back of him.
“Isn’t there another way?” Tohru spoke up as she
hugged the pillow in her arms. “This is exactly what Haru doesn’t
want.”
I looked at Hatori and then my eyes looked at the ground in
confusion. “It may be the only way though. As long as Yuki’s safe, then I’ll
leave.”
Momiji got off my shoulder and shook his head while shouting.
“No!”
“Momiji!” I harshly scolded along with Kyo.
“What’s wrong,
Momiji?”
Yuki then walked down from the stairs and found us all in the
living room.
No one said anything and we avoided looking at
him.
Tohru was the one who couldn’t hold back as she looked at Yuki.
Unable to be nothing but honest, tears started fall down again.
Yuki
panicked as I knew he would.
“Tohru?” He immediately kneeled before her.
“What’s wrong?”
I almost didn’t want to watch, but I
couldn’t.
Tohru didn’t say anything.
“No one will tell me
anything, huh?” Handing her a handkerchief, he got up and looked over at Momiji.
He bowed his head in gratitude with a sad smile. “I heard everything, Momiji.
Thanks for being honest with everyone.”
Then, he turned to me with an
annoyed look on his face. “I would like to talk to you.”
He turned his
head to look at everyone. Politely, he requested, “I’m sorry everyone, but I’d
like to talk to Hatsuharu alone.”
A chill went down my spine as he said
my full name.
Hatori stepped up and nodded his head. “Take your time.
I’ll be taking everyone to Shigure’s.”
No one protested as Shigure said,
“We’ll see you in the morning.”
“Thank you,” Yuki said before the door
closed behind them.
His eyes darted at me as I stood in my place feeling
as if a sudden earthquake would happen and the earth would eat me alive.
I had never seen Yuki look so upset to the point that I couldn’t read if
he was more frustrated, disappointed, mad, or feeling all this at the same time.
I just took a deep breath waiting for my sentence.
“You’re so sure,
aren’t you?” He walked over to me.
That wasn’t a question I
expected…
“Sure about what, Yuki?” I backed up until I was up against a
wall.
He stood in front of me and shook his head. “So sure you’d
die.”
I just looked at him with a blank look while gulping.
Of
course I had, Yuki.
It was then that my heart finally came face to face
with the very questions I didn’t want to ask myself:
How could I win
against Tohru?
How could I possibly live through Akito’s tyranny and his
possessiveness over you?
Slamming his hands to the wall by the sides of
my neck, he looked at me deeply with tears in his eyes. “I know you’ve been told
not to tell me, but that’s exactly what Akito wants you do.”
No,
Yuki…
This is exactly what I didn’t want to do…
I didn’t want to
hurt you this way…
Slowly and shakily, his hands touched the sides of my
face. A tear went down his cheek. “You coward! You should have told
_me_!”
At that moment, he kissed me so forcefully that I thought I was
going to pass out.
Looking at my eyes again, he shouted, “How could you
be so sure this wouldn’t hurt me if you didn’t tell me? How could you believe
I’d let you die so easily?”
I shook my head with eyes closed shut as I
honestly said, “I can’t! Not against Tohru or Akito. When you’re next to them,
I’m so far away from you!”
“Look at me, Haru. Tell me that you hate me so
that you won’t have to suffer anymore.”
I could still feel his warm
hands on my face.
And here I was melting from his touch even though he
wanted me to tell him the very thing I could never say to him.
Carefully,
I opened my eyes to see him looking directly at me.
I still didn’t say
anything.
Taking a hold of my collar, he pulled and pushed me to the wall
while threatening, “Tell me, Haru!”
“No!” I shouted back at
him.
At that moment, he pulled my collar again and we ran to the hall,
with him running as I walked quickly backwards. Bumping onto another wall, I
gulped in pain as my back hit it.
“Were you lying to me, Haru?” Yuki
desparately asked me. Then, he shook his head as he threw me towards the stairs.
“Were you lying that night to me?”
He stood over me and then he began to
loosen his shirt and unbuttoned it.
“Yuki, what are you doing?” I sat on
the stairs looking at him in confusion.
“You think I didn’t love you?!”
He said angrily as if he didn’t hear me.
I opened my mouth a little as I
stared at him wide-eyed, not knowing what the hell was happening.
I
didn’t know what to say to his words…
“Yuki, I-” I started to say as he
came over to me and kissed me passionately on the lips.
Pulling away from
me, he shook his head again with his frustrated eyes looking down at me. He
began to rip my shirt open. “You think I don’t love you, Haru?!”
I stared
into his hurt eyes.
Now, I could finally see what I was blind
to…
While still holding onto the collar of my shirt, he picked me up and
pressed me against the wall while going up the stairs. While kissing me over and
over, our shirts left a little trail on the stairs as we made our way to his
room.
Throwing me onto the bed, he then leaned over me and whispered into
my ear breathlessly, but aggressively,
“Then, let me show you how much I
love you.”
Tsuzuku…
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Author’s note: Importantly, I forgot
to mention that within this fic, I tried to get rid of –san and –chan not
because I find it bothersome, but because I thought they’d be close enough to be
comfortable enough to say each other’s first names.
Oh god…it’s really
hot now…
I hope this didn’t come out too sappy, but I thought Yuki would
have reacted this strongly. ^_^ I can’t and won’t let Haru die so easily. Hee.
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