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Disclaimer: yui doesn't own FruBa.Music Without Words
Chapter 13 - blind to me.
Yuki then began to smirk at
me as he crawled on the bed with his knees next to each of my ribs. He sat on my
stomach as he put his hands on my chest. "I don't know what I'm
doing..."
Leaning forward, he bit on my ear and then down on my neck.
"But how can I prove to you that you're wrong, Haru?"
"Yuki..." I was
still shocked, trying to ingest all this as I felt him just kissing me. Trying
to touch me...
Trying to be so close to me as if we were of the same
skin.
He made my chest so red with his sucking and his teeth. I sometimes
writhed in pain while grabbing the sheets as he whispered into my ear, "I'm
sorry."
Shaking my head, I would take his head into my hands and kiss him
back to let him know how hard it was to watch him with Tohru or Akito. That I
wasn't there who was making this impression on him.
Then, I shook my head
as I still tried to believe in this. Some part of me wanted this. It was
something I had always waited for...
...but some part of me
doubted.
Still doubted the sincerity of these
feelings.
How...
Why to Yuki of all people?!
I pulled away
from Yuki and sat up on the bed. I shook my head as my hands rested on one of
the edges of the bed. "This isn't...you shouldn't feel...I can't..."
I
got up as he sat on the bed looking at me with dumbfounded eyes. He was so
confused and I didn't want...I didn't like that look.
I couldn't bear to
look at him and so I found myself running away. Running away like the time that
I was watching them tending the vegetable garden. I was going to surprise them
that I had come and by myself too without getting lost.
But I saw Yuki
and the way he patted Tohru on the back. The way he watched over her with a
smile.
I felt like some stupid girl who doesn't know any better.
I
ran outside and into the ocean. I kneeled before it and washed my face.
Salt...
I wanted to cry.
Why couldn't I cry? What the hell
was wrong with me?
"Haru!" Yuki ran after me and just dropped the towel
he brought to the sand. He then hugged me while I stood there silently.
I lifted up my head and looked at the dark sky before me. So very
dark.
"Don't pity me, Yuki!" I shouted as I pushed his arms away from me.
Turning around, I shook my head as I stepped back and more into the water. "This
is _exactly_ why I didn't tell you anything! I know you more than
anyone!"
He stood there looking at me as water dripped off my body and
back into the water, stinging a little from his kisses. How ironic.
I
sighed deeply with my eyes looking straight into his. "And the person that is
still in your heart is Tohru."
My heart cringed even more and twisted
beside itself...
I couldn't breathe from this...
"I will always
have that impression inside of me. I've seen everything."
At that moment,
because it was so painful to say all these things that I expected never to say
or admit, tears started to come out from the sides of my
eyes.
Drip...drip...
"No...you're wrong." Yuki then shouted at me
as he pushed me and I fell into the shallow water. "You're wrong,
Haru!"
Standing before me, he leaned forward and shook his head while I
laid there below him. Like a tiger, he came closer to me crawling seductively.
Then, he licked my tears away as he kissed my lips again. Taking the back of my
head, he pulled me forward and kissed me even deeper.
As a rush of water
kept on coming back and forth, it ran through the contours of our
bodies.
"Why are you afraid of me loving you back?" he whispered into my
ear as he slipped his hand to take off my pants and my boxer shorts. Letting
them slide onto the shore along with his.
I looked into his eyes as he
kept me there below him while the water kept on coming and going between our
entanglement.
And for a moment, we looked at one another with
fear.
Why...
Why was so afraid?
"Of all the people I cared
for, I didn't want to hurt you the most," I told him honestly. "I've been so
used to you never looking at me that how could I possibly even think you
would?"
"Haru?" Placing his hand on my cheek, he smiled at me gently.
"You can hurt me all you want. But if you leave me now, you'll truly break
me."
"What are you saying...?" I asked, not understanding
him.
With serious eyes, he replied, "I've been watching you as long as
you've been watching me. Don't be blind towards me anymore, Haru..."
I
opened my eyes in surprise, but then, he kissed my lips again before I could say
another word. At that moment, he didn't explain anything else as he entered my
body. I cringed in pain that I grabbed onto the sand below me.
"Yuki...Yuki..." I said as in between all his kissing.
I gasped
for breath, but he kept on continuing to kiss me until every inch of my body had
been explored and touched...
Yuki and I laid on the sand with the large
towel over us, looking up to the darkness around us.
As he breathed
calmly, I looked into his face and wiped the remaining sweat away with my palm,
but I just smiled at him sadly.
Akito...
Will never accept this no
matter what I do...
I looked away from him and turned to one
side.
Without a word, he kissed the back of my head. While sliding his
hand over my chest, he found my hands. Whispering from behind me, he said,
"Don't worry. We'll find a way..."
"We..." I mumbled to myself and held
his hand closer to me.
No...
I wasn't alone anymore.
I
believed in that now.
Tsuzuku...
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author's note: I'm
sorry, but I'm really, really bad with lime. ^^;;; And I'm totally inexperienced
in lemons. * gulp * I'm totally bad with 'scenes' so please bear with me because
I'm still learning. Plus, the fact that I was presenting that Yuki and Hatsuharu
are inexperienced with this type of stuff would make this realistic. ^^;;; I
just thought that the situation seemed the right time to put this, though.
Poor Haru. Thinking Yuki didn't like him 'cause he was so used to
thinking that; so, he couldn't see that Yuki was falling in love with him, but
he couldn't believe it. I'm just sorry it was sappy. ^^;;; I was aiming for
dramatic since this was one of the main arguments throughout Haru's perspective:
how could yuki love him? When in reality, Yuki already had.
I'm happy at
the progress...but we'll see if I kill Haru or not. _I_ know, 'cause I'm the
author, but can you handle the suspense?
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