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Chapter 10 – invisible hug
I watched
Momiji run away from me while the numbness inside of me was scattering from my
legs to the rest of my body. Nothing was making sense and I couldn’t hear
anything but a ringing in my ears.
That was until Kyo took my shoulders
and shook me back and forth. “What’s going on?!”
I just gave him a blank
look as my eyes followed the bodies of Tohru and Yuki going over to Momiji with
Hatori coming over to them.
Shigure came up to us and shook his head at
Kyo. “I’m pretty sure there’s a good reason for this.”
I didn’t know if
he was doing this to save me or to get the rest of the story. Either way, I was
keeping my lips sealed. Because even if I could tell, my mouth wouldn’t say
anything at this point.
Kyo let go of me and gave me a frustrated look.
“You, Yuki, and Tohru have been acting weird. And now I _know_ there’s something
wrong if the brat is actually hitting you.”
Looking at Shigure and me, he
said, “Someone better tell me something or else I’m gonna be pissed for the rest
of this trip.”
Shigure took Kyo’s shoulder and began talking with him as
I walked to the beach house to wash my face. As soon as I washed the cut, I went
to my room and closed the door behind me.
I was left alone, but I felt
so bad about ruining the weekend.
I didn’t know how much time had
passed, but when I finally sighed for the umpteenth time, someone knocked on the
side of the door.
“It’s me.”
But I didn’t say anything as Hatori
came into the room and sat next to me on the floor.
I should have been
mad, but I just couldn’t. I hated admitting that Hatori was kind in telling
Momiji when it should have been me all along, but he still had no right to do
it.
“Why did you tell him?” I asked without looking into his eyes. I was
too frustrated to even make a move.
“I thought he would put some sense
into you,” was his simple answer to me.
Now, this made me angry.
I
turned around and glared at him. “Do you think what I’m doing is
stupid?!”
At that moment, my hands became fists as I stood up and
shouted, “What should you know?! You’re the one in love with Akito anyway,
Hatori! After you have your eye blinded him, you still didn’t blame him! Well, I
blame him a lot, Hatori!
“Because I love Yuki, I’m able to protect him
only in this way. Who are _you_ to say that I’ve lost my senses?!
Who?!”
Hatori then got up and gave me a stern face. “You’re right, Haru.
I let him do all those things and I’m allowing him to do this to you too without
protest.”
He took a deep breath as he nervously took a cigarette from his
pocket and began to light it. “But how would you know that I’m human enough to
make him jealous? I don’t blame him at all because I brought it upon myself,
Haru.”
What do you mean?
I looked at him as his calmness over this
shocked me. I lifted my head to watch him put his hand on my shoulder. “I don’t
want you to do what I did.”
Patting his hand, I let go and sighed. I
closed my eyes in confusion and hurt while hanging my head. “Where is Momiji
now?”
“In my room crying.”
I then excused myself and went to
Momiji. When I got to Hatori’s room, Momiji turned away from me.
“Let’s
go for a walk,” I told him as I walked up to him.
“Don’t wanna.” He
pouted while looking out the window with his hands cupping over his
knees.
I sat down next to him and even though he protested, I grabbed him
and hugged him.
“Let go, Haru,” he warned while trying not to cry
again.
I shook my head and hugged him tighter. “I only did it because I
loved you, Momiji. You know how much I love you.”
“Let
go…”
“You’re the only one who would truly understand what I was going
through and if you knew, I’d hurt you too. Well, it’s not like it doesn’t hurt
already because I didn’t tell you, but I couldn’t bear it.” Still holding onto
him, I continued, “You’re my closest cousin and the one that’s never left me
alone whenever I needed you. And I will end up leaving you. I think I wanted you
mad at me so you wouldn’t have to deal with it.”
“Haru…” He closed his
eyes for his moment as he squeezed his hands on my arms. “I’m upset because I
thought you didn’t trust me.”
He sighed. “It’s selfish to love someone,
but you have to hurt them sometimes to understand you. It’ll never change if you
don’t do anything to move it.
“I’ve watched you stare at Yuki for years,
but I didn’t do anything but try to distract you. It’s like when you hug me
whenever I see my mom. It’s harder as time goes by, not easier. It’s just easier
to hide.”
He then turned around and grabbed my face and smiled. “I always
need that hug even though I don’t ask you to hug me. I’m close to you because
there’s nothing I can do. You never ask me for anything, so why shouldn’t I try
to hold your burden? That’s about as close as to the hug you’ll need from me but
won’t ask for.”
I smiled thoughtfully as we touched from forehead to
forehead. “You truly amaze me sometimes, Momiji.”
It was then that he
jumped up and nodded his head. “I give you the same compliment.”
He
patted my head as he gave me a wistful expression. “But you are the sweetest
person I know.”
With a serious face and tone that I rarely seen, it
scared me as much as Akito’s usual look of displeasure. “Many people think I’m
the sweet one between us, but they’re wrong. I won’t accept this, Haru. I won’t
be nice about forgiving Akito if anything happens to you.”
Because I was
in shock from his seriousness, he left me without letting me
protest
Tsuzuku…
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Author’s note: * wince * Momiji’s so
cool!
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