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Disclaimer: The song used is by Culture Club and the manga used is by Maki
Murakami. Neither are mine, but used them and hope you enjoy how I did
so.Infatuation
Chapter 6 - Do you really want
to hurt me?
For many days, I stayed with Tatsuha as everyone was dying to
find me. They wondered where I had been, or who I had been with since Tatsuha
had lied about not seeing me after the cafe incident.
As those people left
his doorstep, I held him tighter as I cried.
I was almost afraid that
they would take me away.
But...Everything was silent.
For a
moment, there was peace. None of this insecurity that had plagued me relentlessy
for months.
It wasn't perfect...no, it wasn't. Tatsuha had some habits as I
that we couldn't stand like the way I got too zealous over singing and sang in
the shower at any time of the day. Or the way he would watch Ryuichi videos and
then look at me with these hungry eyes that wouldn't let me say no...and well,
um, wear me out...hee hee hee.
And so, after many calls, I finally made
it to the station for our live performance.
"Where were you?!" Hiro and the
others asked.
"Just thinking." They nodded their heads in relief and nodded
among themselves. "Another fight with Yuki, ne? Mmhm!"
I facefaulted and
shouted, "Why does it always come to that?!"
"Because it always
does."
As we set up the stage, Tatsuha sat in the back row and crossed
his arms. I smiled in his direction and looked down to avoid any more eye
contact.
I remember the time we had been a tv studio before and he pretended
to be Yuki...
...and ended up kissing me on the lips.
Embarrassingly,
I blushed because I liked that kiss...but would never admit it...
even though
I later found out it wasn't from Yuki at all...
"And today's guests are
'Bad Luck!'" the announcer said as the crowd shouted and squealed in
response.
I then said, "Thanks for having us today. What we're going to
perform is a song that was done long ago..."
"But of course, we put our
sound in it and hope you like it," I continued. I looked straight into the
camera with a smile and a wink, "This song is for you. And you know who you
are."
"This is Bad Luck's rendition of 'Do you really want to hurt
me?'"
The fast tempo played through Suguru-san's
synthesizer..
"[whisper] Give me time
To realize my crime
Let me
love and steal
I have danced inside your eyes.
How can I be
real?"
(Then, Hiro's guitar protruded... and I sang my heart
out...)
"Do you really want to hurt me?
Do you really want to make me
cry?
Precious kisses, words that burn me
Lovers never ask you why
In my
heart the fire is burning
choose my color
find a star
precious people
always tell me
That's a step,
a step too far
Do you really want to
hurt me?
Do you really want to make me cry?
Do you really want to hurt
me?
Do you really want to make me cry?
Words that I feel that I have
spoken
I could waste a thousand years
Wrapped in sorrow words are
token
come inside and catch my tears
you've been talking but believe
me
if its true you do not know
this boy loves without a reason
I'm
prepared to let you go.
If it's love you want from me
then take it
away
everything's not what you see
it's over today.
Do you really
want to hurt me?
Do you really want to make me cry?
Do you really want to
hurt me?
Do you really want to make me cry?
Do you really want to
hurt me?
Do you really want to make me cry...?"
At that moment,
like the man of the shadows, I saw Yuki leaning back on the wall to the farthest
corner of the studio. My eyes became wide and my heart raced faster and faster
within my chest.
I couldn't breathe and I heard the mic's sharp squeak as it
hit the ground...
It was then that all the turmoil inside of me clashed
together...
While reaching out to him, I whispered,
"Yuki?"
...and I fainted.
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Author's note: This is really
really hard...trying to find what I want to do! *tearing her heart out*
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