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Disclaimer: Gravitation isn't mine, but Murakami Maki-sama's! ^_^v
The song
is L'arc's too.Infatuation
Chapter 7 -
Forbidden Lover.
Scared, I could hear everything as we entered the ER,
but as I laid in a stretcher to one side of the small hall, there was no one
around me.
Huff, huff...
I could feel the oxygen mask on my face.
But I also felt like I couldn't breathe no matter how calm I seemed at that
moment.
A woman waiting for her child glanced at me and that's when I
began to want to cry. Even though I did not sob, droplets of water came from the
sides of my eyes as I thought, "Where is Tatsuha? I want Tatsuha here...I want
Tatsuha here...I want..."
It was then that Tatsuha's face appeared before
mine and he held my hand while running his hands through my hair. "Are you
okay?"
That's when I began to really sob aloud.
"No...not at all..." I
answered weakly.
Like a little kid, all my tears were on my eyelids,
and everything was so blurry because I was lying down. He began to wipe my face
with a cloth. "Don't worry, Shuichi. I'm here."
I looked up at him with
pleading eyes.
What do I do?
Why is it that I feel so guilty? Should I
have called for Hiro? Yuki?
I don't know...
Wakanai yo.
"He's
just under a lot of stress. It was just an anxiety attack," the doctor had said
while Tatsuha sat in the room. "Plus, I don't think he's been eating as much as
he should. Please make sure he gets lots of rest and food."
Tatsuha bowed to
the doctor. "Arigatou gozaimashita."
Turning to me, he let out a sigh of
relief. As the doctor left, I sat at the side of the bed and walked out of the
room.
But what was waiting outside of the hospital? Though we were
leaving through the back, there were still hordes of cameras and
microphones...they made me cringe into a little ball and I felt even more sick.
So I nestled next to Tatsuha's chest as he carried me with a blanket over my
body.
With all the flashing and my blurry eyes, I could see from the sides of
my eyes that they had bombarded Hiro, Sakano-san...everyone.
They bombarded
my friends. And I could see Hiro on the other side trying to reason it out, but
with no success.
And there stood the anxiety attack starter not too far
off...
Yuki was watching from some distance away. He was leaning on a
lamppost smoking a cigarette. The smoke rose slowly into the air around him and
spread like a ghost trying to find a shape.
When he saw me, he turned around
and dropped his cigarette on the ground while crushing it under his feet thus
putting it out. Again, he was walking away from me.
I want to see your
face, Yuki.
How do you look at me now? What are you feeling?
But
through all the commotion inside my head and my heart, I clenched my eyes and
then opened them to find a very scary Tatsuha scanning the crowd. With a death
glare paralleling that of his older brother, he icily threatened, "Just stop!
WON'T YOU ALL JUST SHUT UP?!"
The crowd began to simmer and it suddenly
became quiet. "Someone's hurt and tired. There's nothing to see, all right?
Shuichi's human like everyone else. Just leave him _alone_ for now."
With a
tone even lower and rolling under his tongue, he added, "Or else."
The crowd
parted and Tatsuha held me closer in my blanket as we walked through.
I
clung onto Tatsuha while my eyes again crunched themselves until they hurt. I
didn't want to look at anything anymore. I didn't want to see anyone.
Inside,
I found myself shaking and there was Tatsuha hanging onto me as if he would
never let go. Even in the taxicab he wouldn't let me go as he sighed and looked
out the window.
Tokyo was floating by in lines and lights, I knew. But there
I was looking up at him as I leaned my head upon his chest hearing his
heartbeat.
Doki, doki.
The driver shrugged probably at this unusual site,
but he didn't say anything. I'd figure if I were being paid and there was
nothing too weird happening...then well, I'd be quiet too.
The
silence...
This silence was not disturbing. It was peaceful.
As he
paid, I struggled to sit up and finally walk by myself but Tatsuha wouldn't have
it. He scooped me up and held me as close as he could while going up the
elevator. It didn't matter that there were how many people looking at us or what
a strange site this had become. A pink haired person barely visible under a
blanket being carried by a sixteen-year-old boy, whom they probably didn't know
was a monk.
As the door closed behind us, he laid me on the bed. My arms
were so weak that I looked like I was being crucified the way they were spread
out over the bed with the blanket softly on my back. Tatsuha looked at me as he
placed his hands on the sides of my shoulders. I could feel the warmth
permeating through his body.
Those eyes looked down at me as I blinked up at
them. We were there for a few minutes with nothing to say.
"Tatsuha?" I
finally said in a squeak that I had barely recognized as my voice since I had
not talked in so long. A few hours had been enough.
His hands became
fists as he lightly pounded them on the bed to make my body jump a bit under the
impact. His eyes closed slightly as if he were in pain. "Don't worry me like
that, Shuichi!"
My eyes widened a bit at all the affection in his voice
and his actions. "I...I didn't mean to," I could barely say unable to react the
way I had wanted.
I wanted to hold him. Touch his
cheek...anything!
But it felt like I was so weak that I couldn't even do
that.
The air...he wanted to ask me something.
He opened his eyes
again, and cupped my right cheek as he smiled at me. Leaning forward, he kissed
my forehead without anything to say.
As he was pulling away, he
whispered finally to my ear, "I'm never a match for my brother, am I,
Shuichi?"
That's when my eyes opened even wider as I stared at him
looking at me with a face that showed a slight defeat.
I had betrayed
you, haven't I?
At that moment, as if to torture me, the next door
neighbor's radio loudly played a L'arc en ciel song...
And Hyde sang as
if to mock me, "Forbidden lover...ah, forbidden lover..."
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Author's
note: Ooh! Next part very interesting...
you can prolly guess what I was
listening to right? I love you Hyde!!!
*goes back to schoolwork and
Seishirou*
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