If I Had Let You Go

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Sanzo adored Goku.

Sure, the guy pissed him off, but he couldn’t help but like him.

“I’m STILL hungry!” whined Goku.

“We ate a few minutes ago!” replied Gojyo. “So?”

“So I’m still hungry!”

“So?”

“So...er...SANZO!” Goku yelled. “I’m hungry.”

Sanzo’s eye twitched.

Yep, the guy pissed him off.

“You’re getting annoying!” warned Sanzo.

Hakuryu screeched in annoyance as the two argued. He stopped dead in the middle of the road.

“Hakuryu refuses to move.” said Hakkai.

“I kinda noticed.” snapped Sanzo.

Suddenly, a dagger flew past Gojyo’s head, cutting off a few strands of the vibrant red hair.

“HEY! What the fuck?!”

A youkai ran towards them.

“DIE!”

“I’ll do this thing.” said Sanzo, taking out his gun.

“Nah. Sanzo, let me.” said Goku.

“Nani?”

“Time for a bit of fun. I can take this demon dude out anytime. Nyoibou!”

The demon and the boy fought each other, with the youkai overpowering him.

“Ah shit... guys! Stand back. I’m taking off my limiter.”

“Goku...what the fuck do you think you’re doing?!” yelled Sanzo.

“This guy is a lot stronger than I thought. I’ll take him out.”

He let the headband drop, as his ears and hair grew longer.

Sanzo, Gojyo and Hakkai watched in horror, as Goku, even as a youkai, was being defeated.

The other demon pinned Goku to a tree, smirked, then drew his blade along Goku’s neck.

Goku’s eyes were suddenly lifeless.

Sanzo was shocked, but his mind screamed.

‘NO NO NO NO NO!! GOKU NO! HE CAN’T HAVE DEFEATED YOU! NO! DON’T DIE!’

In his rage, he drew his gun and fired at the youkai. The youkai screamed in pain as the bullet ripped through his head.

Sanzo didn’t care about what was happening to the demon. He only cared about Goku.

He knelt urgently beside the boy, checking desperately for a pulse.

A faint thumping told him that he was still alive.

“Is he alive?” asked Hakkai.

“Yes. We have to get to a hotel or something, NOW!”

“Hakuryu!”

The dragon turned into a jeep, and drove off with the 4 men in it.

Chapter 2

Sanzo slipped the power limiter back onto Goku’s forehead.

He sighed, stroking the boy’s hair.

It was clear that he was worried.

Gojyo stood at the doorway. “How’s the baka saru?”

“Don’t call him that.”

“Why? You call him that all the time!”

Then it occurred to Sanzo that he had been a little cruel towards Goku.

“I won’t call him that anymore.”

“Hm.” Gojyo left, to see Hakkai with a concerned look on his face.

“Is he ok?”

“Who, Sanzo or Goku?”

“Goku of course! Why would I think that Sanzo was –“

“He’s acting strange, having a mood swing or something.”

“What happened?”

“He told me to stop calling Goku a baka saru, when he does it all the time.”

“Huh, that is scary.”

‘Please, wake up. Please...’ prayed Sanzo.

He cared a lot for Goku. He admired the boy’s strength.

He was the one who was able to calm him down.

Maybe he even...

Loved him.

Sanzo sighed and took a lock of beautiful brown hair, playing with it.

Those eyes flickered.

“S-Sanzo?”

“Goku...”

Goku smiled. “Thanks.”

“What for?”

“Saving me from certain death.”

It was then that Sanzo pulled the boy into his arms.

“Never do that again. Onegai. I almost lost you once, I don’t want to lose you again.”

“Sanzo...I was so sure I could beat him! I wouldn’t think – “

Then Goku understood what he meant. He buried his head into Sanzo’s chest.

“I love you.” he whispered.

Sanzo’s violet eyes became strangely emotional. Goku looked deep into them.

‘Is he going to yell at me? Is he going to scream? Is he going to kill me? Or worst of all, will he reject me?’

“I...” Sanzo’s expression softened. “I love you too.”

“Really?” Goku was in doubt.

He never thought that Sanzo could be this way.

“Truly. When I first saw you, the first thing I noticed was your eyes. They were the eyes of a person who would never lie to their loved ones.”

“Sanzo...”

“I’ve always admired and adored you Goku. But now I realise that I have to tell you how I feel...” he touched Goku’s bandaged wound gently.

“Before I lose you forever.”

Goku tilted his head upwards as Sanzo lowered his head, capturing his lips in a fervent kiss.

Sanzo read something in Goku’s golden irises.

Goku’s passion for Sanzo wasn’t going to cool.

Neither was his for Goku.

His eyes travelled along the boy’s bare chest, and the bloodied bandages.

Would it be painful for the boy if...

“Sanzo, do what you want. I’d like it too.”

“But will it hurt?”

“No.”

“Ok.”

Sanzo removed Goku’s pants.

Chapter 3

Sanzo smothered Goku with kisses, Goku moaning.

Sanzo’s lips everywhere... Goku was dreaming. He had to be.

He couldn’t imagine that this was really Sanzo.

The saru’s skin tasted salty, observed Sanzo, as he licked Goku’s navel.

“Do you promise? Do you promise me you won’t try to do anything like that ever again?”

“Yes...I do.”

Goku caressed the silky blonde hair as the monk lay between his legs, kissing them.

As Sanzo trailed more gentle kisses along his thighs, Goku felt himself go hard.

“Ahh... Sanzo... I feel so... I need more... something rougher.”

The monk wrapped his lips around his throbbing member, Goku felt intense pleasure run through his veins.

Sanzo sucked hard. He could hear the boy moaning louder and louder.

“Harder... harder... onegai...”

He sucked as hard as he could, and Goku couldn’t control himself.

He released into Sanzo’s mouth, the fluid trickling down his throat.

Sanzo was highly aroused. “I want you to pleasure me now.”

“Hai.”

Goku lay ontop of Sanzo, his sweat slicked skin rubbing against the others.

Goku then positioned himself above him, gazing into the monk’s violet pupils.

Sanzo lunged upwards, fastening himself onto Goku’s throat, dragging him down onto him.

He suckled the delicate salty skin as Goku tilted his head back.

Sanzo licked the blood red bruise tenderly.

“Did I hurt you?” asked Sanzo, removing the bandage on Goku’s neck.

“No.”

Sanzo pressed his lips gently to the boy’s wound.

“Can I fuck you?” he said softly into his skin.

Goku drew back slightly.

Sanzo, asking him if he wanted to be made love to?

“Hai. Onegai, Sanzo-kun.”

Sanzo took his erect dick and placed it into Goku’s.

Goku went tense and he screamed in delight.

“Ahh! Ohh...Sanzo... that... you..."

"You feel so good, Goku..."

"Ahh! AHH!!! SANZO!"

"Kami-sama... Goku! Ohh... I love you..."

"Ohh Sanzo... I love you too, Sanzo..." Goku gasped, gripping Sanzo's hair.

Soon it was all over, as Sanzo collapsed onto the boy’s slender but muscled body.

“Sanzo...”

“Goku, you must be tired. Sleep.”

The older man rolled off the other and onto his side.

Goku snuggled himself into Sanzo, his head slipping into the crook of the monk’s neck.

“Aishiteru, Sanzo.” whispered Goku.

Sanzo smiled tenderly, and in response, took the saru’s chin in his hand and kissed him passionately.

Goku’s golden eyes slowly closed.

Sanzo’s warm body made him feel safe.

All that mattered to him was Sanzo, and that moment with him.

“Will I ever have you in my arms again?” whispered Sanzo.

“Yes. I’ll let you.”

Sanzo felt emotions for Goku that he had never felt in a long time.

“I’ll never leave you.”

Goku’s reply was a simple kiss.

From that moment on, the two were bonded by a force stronger than friendship.

Sanzo realised that he had almost lost Goku, and he never wanted to let that happen again.

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