too long waiting
Mood:  crushed out
Now Playing: nada
Topic: need to come out
well imstill fucking here and im still not content and im still not able to say what i should say and yes all in all im fucking headed straight down regret zone all because i couldnt open my mouth and let out a few words how fucking stupid of me how can i just sit here and fuck my self all to hell why i ask myself why what the hell am i so scared of i mean whats the worst that could happen if i say how i trully feel and want for my own self happiness what is so hard about being me and saying what i trully want to say what the fuck am i just going to watch as i royally fuck the rest of my life over will i be damed forever how can i let this happen will i always be down and out about myself when i need not be WHY WHY WHY i am dumbfounded and completly baffaled at my actions or should i say no reactions to the things i should react to for my own sanity and serenity oh lord if you are there for me reach out and pull my head out of the mess its in restore my heart and soul to there proper state and let me be the person i long so much to be