i'm watching
you watch over me
and i've got
the greatest view from here.
[UPDATE: 5 feb 05: skate-aid. information
and pictures here.]
[also new image-button ... image. taken a week ago.]
[UPDATE IN PROGRESS] soon to come: a song-lyric page.
because those talk better than i can (i say this like people'd
give a damn to know about how i function or who i am.) also, new links
scattered throughout this page. some you can access, and one you cannot--the
deepest, darkest, most horrible secrets are there (::cue horrorshow
music.::)
the lyric page will work as follows: main, all-the-time definitive lyrics, and then a color change will denote "current mood" music. if you will. ah-thank-you.
the one
(worth more than twenty boys) : aych
d. r., or otherwise known as leander.
spilled upside down : march sixteen, nineteen seventy-eight; 5:54 post
meridiem.
deathtrap : michigan.
nickname(s) : lee, or aych.
it depends on the day. one of those translates to isilwen in elvish. so choice.
what i like (and what kills time) : reading (fiction; fantasy fiction;
classics), writing (freestyle; prose; novel/anthology in the works; short-fiction;
essays; collaborative), skating (board and inline figure), violin (i'm wrapped
up in strings...), guitar, gaming (white-wolf's vampire: the masquerade &
mage: the ascension), metabopills, lakeshore
tavern, long island ice tea's, figure-skating (watching, not doing, obviously).
various musical styles/groups : DMB, the cure, the smiths, operation ivy, X, bratmobile, tori amos, 3 colours red, filter, counting crows, hayden desser, kronos quartet, joshua bell, jane's addiction, the distillers, social distortion, angie aparo, dashboard confessional, something corporate, incubus, the billies (billy idol & billy joel .. shut up!), the stray cats, counting crows, silverchair, christina (shut it!), josh groban (AGAIN, shut up), peter gabriel, various classical pieces (both piano and violin).. the list can go on, and on.
what i loathe : liars. two faces. spiders. my disease.
who i trust : sadly, no-one, really.
what i fear : growing old, staying alone, becoming done for. car accidents. biochemical warfare & global warming.
obsessions: queer as folk; all things homo-sexual. straight-sex makes me nautious, and yet i find vagina's scary, too. go figure. don't even tell me i'm a typical fag-hag, because, darlings, it goes far and beyond that. the smell of rain and the bite of winter. also johnny weir, matt damon, gale harold and adam levine.
what (and who) i love : family. certain friends. my daughter. the brokenites. the angels.
what, pray tell, am i doing now? summe cum laude graduate from baker college, june 2004. i received my phlebotomy technician certificate, and am up for the ASCP board exams this spring. at current i work at hackley lakeshore hospital in shelby, MI; although i'd prefer to work closer to home, my laboratory team there is nothing short of wonderful, and they've been excellent to me thus far, making the long drive worthwhile. my long term goal is to persue labwork and finish school as an MLT (associates) or MT (bachelor's).
in my free-time, when i have it, i fly along concrete. sometimes it bites me, but othertimes? i bite back.
i will still write in the meantime, but the starving artist/writer routine doesn't pay the bills, nor does it support a 10-year-old girl. reality checks are not fun.
(images)
character websites
payton
angelo-evander : starchild
samuel
angelo : brother to starlight
carter
jaimeson : skater, antithesis
(note: short story antithesis,
which is outside of journaling/collaborative RP and was written for an english
class mid-term, is available upon email request.)
daxter
"izzy" canton : little idealist
(note: the angels and devils of church street, a story written by me
and edited by the mun behind izzy's counterpart, johnny, is available upon email
request.)
please respect the fact that, while i use celebrities to depict character physique, style, and appearance, i am in no way playing out, or writing stories under the impression it IS the celebrity!! their faces/bodies/eyes/etc. simply fit the image i have of these characters in my head. my point? these are NOT fan-fictions! the characters were birthed in my head, and then the pictures (celebs) came later, in the form of, "omfg he looks just like how i pictured carter!" and so on.
"people don't understand sarcasm; like, they take everything too seriously. people need to lighten up and go .. ice skating." -- daniel johns.
'i love pot, i love it so much. damn, today i was just like .. buddy! let's flip some biscuits!' -- dave matthews.
'he was my hero so i watched him closely. yeah, he said all the things that i wish i had said; the things i wished i had the guts to say...' -- henry rollins.
'somewhere, someone is thinking of you. someone is calling you an angel. this person is using celestial colors to paint your image. someone is making you into a vision so beautiful that it can only live in the mind. someone is thinking of the way your breath escapes your lips when you are touched. how your eyes close and your jaw tightens with concentration as you give pleasure a home. these thoughts are saving a life somewhere right now. in some airless apartment on a dark, urine stained, whore lined street, someone is calling out to you silently and you are answering without even being there. so crystalline. so pure. such life saving power when you smile. you will never know how you have cauterized my wounds. so sad that we will never touch. how it hurts me to know that i will never be able to give you everything i have.' -- henry rollins.
"keep going 'til you die."
(c) sam brown : explodingdog.com
opening font : flash genocide
opening lines : silverchair
official keeper of johnny's catch-foot spiral.
oh, the places i go:
fighting
stars : a friendly, ed-solidarity forum
