I Don't Know
Mood:
not sure
Now Playing: Various fave bands
Today the tears flow easily. Today I am inspired... though inspired to do what, I am not sure. Today I realize so much is important about the little things. Eric Draven said it best: "I used to think they were kind of trivial. Nothing is trivial." There is so much meaning in the color of a rose or the lyrics of a song.
At what point do you accept that there is no such thing as destiny, fate, or soulmates? When do you finally decide that there is no grand master plan for all of us, we choose what our life becomes, and if you make a big mistake, you're screwed? I guess when reality falls down on you with the rest of the world. Faith is highly overrated anyway.
I have lost a lot in my life. Sometimes it's hard not to focus on it. I do realize that there are a few things that I have gained and they are more important than what I've lost, but I also feel that my feeling incomplete is justified.
In my life, the most important thing to me has always been to find a place where I felt loved. I guess I should have been more specific to myself about my goal.
No one is left who understands me anymore. I pushed away all who have. I have only myself to blame for what I've gotten myself into. I want so badly to be able to blame another! How can I live with someone who sabotages my every chance at happiness?
My birthday is fast approaching. I'm happy, but it also scares me. My birthday symbolizes emptiness and the sad progression of time. I have realized that I am much too young to feel this way, but what do you expect from someone who had to grow up way too fast?
The little things, the little things, they are so important. The most important of all is seeing who skips right over them and who holds onto them, cherishes them. To see who is too busy to notice and who keeps them in a special place in their heart is to see who loves you and who lives in you. But that's no little thing, because "nothing is trivial."
You can't break someone who is already broken.
You want to know my faith?! A Perfect Circle- Judith
You want to know my beliefs?! Rob Thomas- I Am An Illusion
You want to know my dream?! Goo Goo Dolls- Name
You want to know my hopes?! Goo Goo Dolls- Better Days
You want to know my wish?! Smile Empty Soul- With This Knife
You want to know my thoughts?! Smile Empty Soul- I Want My Life
You want to know my prayer?! Smile Empty Soul- Finding Myself
You want to know my every step, my every breath?! Staind- Epiphany
You want to know my strength?! Rob Thomas- All That I Am