My Rape
First Experience ¦ Second Experience ¦ Third Experience ¦ My changes ¦
Living threw rape was an experience I will never forget. It took me a while to realise that is was infact a rape. I thought it was my fault. If I wasn't sleeping around as much guy's wouldn't had the idea that they could actually try something like that on me. But then I realized that No means no eather if I was or wasn't sleeping around. It brought me much pain in my life, it got to the point I truly thought I was going insane. Deeling with it was the hardest part there's always days that I think about it but I usually smile, because I'm just glad that i am alive and well. These experience made me see a lot of things in life and made me respect my self more then ever.
My love life was harder, since trusting someone was really hard. I am always worrying about the little things. I'v got in my mind that everyguy are not like those guys and that I cannot judge them without knowing them. If it would happen to me again, hopefully it wont I would act uppon it and wont let it go like I let go all the guys that did this horrible thing to me.