Be As You Are.
June 5, 2003- This thing here | Thursday - 1:58a.m. |
i wrote this today, i was told it was good, and in my moment of pride, i've decided to post it right here: smack-dab at the top of my posts. if you liek it, yay, if not, yay. that's just how i am. also check out my rant.. it's one post down, or.. here and .. the poem:
the world is insane
everyone is fallign apart
i am alone and still sad
life is long and bitter
the ineveitable independence
i latch onto those who seem self-actualized
so i write my dumb thoughts down
life is long and bitter
life is long and bitter
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June 3, 2003- Ranting | Monday - sometime a.m. |
just had to throw this (my very first) late night ranting and rambling up here for everyone to read and contemplate. |
April 6, 2003- Hare Rama | Sunday - 9:12p.m. |
be at peace, don't try to exist to others, and let them discover you. |
February 13, 2003- Bow to me, become my slave. | Monday - 11:20p.m. |
Look at what i can do! I'm such a dork, there weren't dorks before me.. dorks cower at my the toes of my worn-out Vans, and grovel at my duct-tape-patched backpack. Oh yeah.. you'd better go here, and download my video.. It'll rock your world: It rocked mine. |
December 19, 2002- hare krishna anyone?. | Thursday - 10:14p.m. |
Yay! well everything is just going so good, i'm not posting often. i guess that's good...
....so i got nothing for channukah from my parents.. except for a single $1 coin.. oh, yay...(not). i was/am really hoping to get this cool thing from IRiver: it's the SlimX (350) that i saw online at Bestbuy. Anyway.. enough cool links to it.... i dunno if i already mentioned it, but: I WAS ACCEPTED TO UF!!!! yeah, that's right.. no probation, no strings, just plain old early decision acceptance. (it was my first choice school, if you didn't know) finals this week have been a breeze, and i don't even hafta go to school tomorrow! i had that bitch english test monday (i hate you dostoevsky), but then the chem test was quick and painless tuesday, and i showed up halfway through the day. the next day i also showed up really late, just to take my easy american gov't test. and yesterday (no.. it actually was today.. heheh, silly me) i took my EXTREMELY easy math studies test, and left halfway through the day. wow! i'm just soo gloaty it'll make you sick, huh? going to the beach with brena and her family will be fun (i hope...), and going south to see grandparents and danielle should also be fun (i double-hope). i believe that i really earned this break.. but i wish we hadn't gotten so much HW assigned during it. oh well, i guess i am boring you a bit by now.. so i'll stop. (after this brief message from my current musical sponsor:) hare krishna hare krishna, krishna krishna hare hare hare rama hare rama, rama rama hare hare |
December 5, 2002- about time, eh?. | Thursday - 9:29p.m. |
I'm better now. YAY! go to zombo, and live by its rules. This is the site for my JV soccer team. I'm busy alot, i hope i make in to UF, i'll know by Dec 15. i understand what's happening in chemistry for the first time in awhile. i'm low on money.. if you wanna give me some, i'll spend it well, i promise. i've gotten 1$ and 2 tiny pieces of chocolate (like to hershey kisses) for channukah so far.. it's the 6th night tonight. i'm kinda bored now. brett is asleep, he's funny even when he sleeps: he keeps randomly twitching. i think that there is a different sort of IQ.. like a personality/IQ thing.. i dunno. alot of people who are very smart are just dumb people with a little more education, or a little more smarts, but i wouldn't consider them smart if i was asked. alot of peopel in IB get good grades, and can score well on tests.. but are actually very dumb. well, not dumb. i think they are just.. closer relations to more primitive animals. they work on simple emotions, ideas, and plans. they have standards, and rules, and they all follow them without questions like a blind flock of birds.just turen on the Tv and you'll see it. quality programming is rare.. even simpsons make me feel "blah..." i'm just not excited about things as much as i should.. or at least was. and people who do get excited are below me. weird. |
November 21, 2002- speak up, will ya?. | Thursday - 10:48p.m. |
We one our JV game 3-1, which sucks.. becuase it should have been 10-0. i hope varsity loses their game, i'm sorry to those of you on varsity who are nice, and who i strongly appreciate (i hope you know who you are).
wanna say anything? dislike me and want to let me know? feel like telling me how nice i am, and try and get me out of this slump? well you can tell me by clicking here. Oh, yeah.. and if you want to tell me something, be honest about it, and tell me. i can take anythign you can dish out, so bring it on. |
November 20, 2002- No pity please. | Wednesday - 11:59p.m. |
So, yeah, alot has happened, I've been really far up, but now i'm crashing down, and i may take a few with me into hell. the reason i'm finally posting is because i treat this as a journal, and when i'm doing good, i don't feel like wasting my good life to write here. however, i feel i have some bitchign to do, and i honestly don't care if anyone reads this ever.
where should i start? i guess school is a good spot. right now, after switching into a different english class (can anyone say missed commentary, or how about... never even heard about it until due date.) as a side note: i believe that if peopel liked me more, someone would have taken the time out of their busy lives to think about me and maybe think that i would like to know about this commentary... i guess not. "math studies" is a joke, i sit, and stare at the vacant desk in front of me, and never pay attention or take notes, but regularly get A's on the tests, and finish my HW in class. Chemistry is kicking my ass. after an F (59... give me a break mrs. chris) first semester, i dunno if i'm doing any better now, but i do think it's gonan hurt my college apllication if it's not gettign better. i understand most of it, but there a few key things that i'm missing, i don't even know what i don't know until i see a problem that i can't answer on a test. journalism? a joke.. but no fun anymore either, the freshmen were nice, but now it all seems like a big smiley fascade. they wanna hang out with me until i want to hang out with them, then they leave... how shallow and pathtic people are. economics... when did he grow a pineapple in his ass? he used to be a cool hippy, now he's just a grumpy old man desperately tryign to stay "cool". soccer! lets see.. my grandpa died! (we all miss you very much Grampa "Bye, Cheerio!" look, i know i missed half the tryouts, so you didn't want me on varsity to start, but be honest if i have a chance of moving up. you aren't worth the stress, money, and time in my life if there really isn't a a shot of me making the team. seriously, after missing all the varsity practices since you plopped me into JV, will i ever really get to play now? now that everyone else is bondign and getting better? and i'm forced to stagnate with people at a lower level than me? AND FINALLY, the best for last, the piece which is a big part of all the above problems, but i've neglected to mention. YOU ALL ARE... ARG.. I WANNA SAY "BASTARDS" BUT I FEEL IT DOESN'T ENCOMPASS HOW A FEEL! i hate sooo many of you at school right now, you can't imagine. (for the very few of you who geniunely have stuck by me, i love you so much for it i can't express it.) but you others.. how can you get off with such bullshit? did i really do somethign this horrible? i know i cn be a little annoying, but i'm loyal, honest, and if told to shut-up i will. hell i never ever associate with most of you, why do you dislike me so much? rumours? stories from others? you judge and classify me before we've even met. you're sick. school people makign fun of me? not helping me out with soccer? flat-out trying to keep me in the dark of everything? be glad that i'm an anti-violent person. all the old posts are moved to here.(soon at least.) I've got more to say.. but i see no point anymore. bye |
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