the bon fire.......
yeah, this is what happened yesterday.....jess and i went to the mall, i saw justin there but tried to not pay too much attention to him...then jess went with garet and got in another fight...while they were gone i was crying, staring at justin....then jess and i went to the chineese buffet, and i was a 10 year old...so itd be cheeper, and those damn chineese people didnt believe us, but they still made me ten...after that we went back to the mall,called my mom to say we were going to the bonfire and called elli so shed come and meet us at the mall right then, she thought i said 7:30, so i ran to her house and got her, jess was cold and mad when i came back cause it took me an hour to get elli...then we went to the bon fire, and it was really small, but oh well...jess and i split up, so i was there with elli and travis now...i saw justin, and started crying again, justin and corey came over and i was hiding my face sorta, then they left and audra came over she told me shed kick justins ass for me but i told her not to....then i sat down, so did elli and travis...travis went over to justin and corey, im not sure why, but then he came back, and about 5 minutes later he went over again, and justin came back with him, he sat down and he decided to walk with me, so we took a walk, and talked a bit...then elli and travis left, so did corey....justin and i went over to jess, and sat down, then he had to leave and i got a hug :) after that jess and i talked with some people and finally it was 10:15 and we went with jesse lewis (chris's step brother) and ....uhm.. i forgot his name... and we got a ride to the gas station and my mom picked jess and i up, we went to jessicas house, and then mom and i went home, i was crying and mom didnt notice cause i was sitting behind her... i went onlikne and cried, and then fell asleep....today, im just bored, and still feel like im going to cry... but i need to stop liking him...but its nice to know that he cares about me...i gotta go now....bye bye

ashley

i love you!
okay, today is jessicas birthday, and shes not here cause shes at garets house...so ill give her a present tomorrow! :) today before 5th period, corey came up to me and said" elli was looking for you!!" im like "YAY!!! and ran down the hall to her classroom then at that moment she ran out of the room and we attacked eachother and i gotted a kiss :) :) :) :) hehee okay, well thats all i wanted to tell you! okay bye bye!!

I LOVE YOU ELLI BELLI!!!!!....i really do. :)

~!GrapeFruitCake!~

uhhhh..........
....school sucks.heres and outline of the week sofar. monday (today) is gay as usual...but i did get to bring gloop (my teddy) to school today, people like him...tuesday jessica is bringing her Jesus Bunny so that gloop can meet him :)hehe wednesday is the first day of october!YAY!!!! hehe. thursday is jessicas birthday :) im gonna get her a cool present!!! sshhhhhh..... and friday...is friday.hmm,oh yeah, im gonna fill in a bunch of applications and hand them in to places...hehe...saturday im not sure if were gonna go to this family reunion thing for mark or go to the mall with jessica and get clothes/halloween stuff and sunday im going to a gay assed faggot wedding :( oh well....yeah, thats pretty much all for now....oh, today shane gave me a hug...hehe! and jacob got in trouble for turning in his chair in science, even thou i was way far away from my seat, i didnt get in ANY trouble and jacobs like " well, your yelling at me for looking back there and shes standing way over there!" and the teachers like "im not talking about her, im talking about you" hehe... hum...what else to say...? okay,i guess thats all....

later you doogie incometax juju beans!!!! (HAHHAHAHA inside joke!)

!GrapeFruitCake!

uhhhh..........
....school sucks.heres and outline of the week sofar. monday (today) is gay as usual...but i did get to bring gloop (my teddy) to school today, people like him...tuesday jessica is bringing her Jesus Bunny so that gloop can meet him :)hehe wednesday is the first day of october!YAY!!!! hehe. thursday is jessicas birthday :) im gonna get her a cool present!!! sshhhhhh..... and friday...is friday.hmm,oh yeah, im gonna fill in a bunch of applications and hand them in to places...hehe...saturday im not sure if were gonna go to this family reunion thing for mark or go to the mall with jessica and get clothes/halloween stuff and sunday im going to a gay assed faggot wedding :( oh well....yeah, thats pretty much all for now....oh, today shane gave me a hug...hehe! and jacob got in trouble for turning in his chair in science, even thou i was way far away from my seat, i didnt get in ANY trouble and jacobs like " well, your yelling at me for looking back there and shes standing way over there!" and the teachers like "im not talking about her, im talking about you" hehe... hum...what else to say...? okay,i guess thats all....

later you doogie incometax juju beans!!!! (HAHHAHAHA inside joke!)

!GrapeFruitCake!

oh my god, i feel so BAD
oh fuck, lastnight jessica and i went to garets house at like 1 in the morning.....we decidrd to do SOME shots...at about 2:30 we started...it tasted disgusting and had a bad smell to it....but i drank it anyway...after like 3 shots i was feeling wobbily, so was jess, garet was fine thou.. after we had 5 shots (which is enough for anyone) we went into the livingroom....and man was i fucking loud...tripping over everything...and the dogs were barking at me (i really didnt like that) jessica told me "ashley! if you be quiet for a minute,well do another shot!" so i said "OKAY!" after the 6th shot i couldnt feel my face or see much...jessica and i were hugging and jess said "kiss kiss muah muah muah" or something like that and i like fell over, but she thought i was backing away from her so i said " no" and we kissed and we madeout heh....(she says im a better kisser than elli and she has a crush on elli too) by now it was about 3:30 and jess decided to call justin....so she left a message...not all that much talking but still......and jess hung up and re dialed like 5 minutes later...and gave me the phone....his dad picked up the phone and i said "HI!" "hello...." "IS JUSTIN THERE?!" "do you know what time it is" "NO!!!!" and i hung up....yeah, i was too drunk....but thenjess told me to take another shot, so we all did and that put us all up to 7 shots and thats way too much, especially for my little body......so, we were all going into the bathroom and vomiting....very yuck! gah and now today i feel like shit, i keep vomiting and i feel dizzy.....hopefully ill be better by 10 tonight..................yeah

later doogie(HAHA......inside joke!)

?¡ashley!¿

a poem i wrote today in my spare time...............
sitting here in my puddle of tears
while my death slowly nears
i cant help but think of you
and sit here thinking what to do
you seem to not even care
as i sit here and rip out all my hair
i just wanted to be your friend
and now i guess todays the end......


yeah........okay, bye................

whatever........

oh my fucking god you asshole
oh my god, your so mean justin....what the hell did i ever fucking do to you besides fall in love with you? i mean really? thanks to you ive been crying almost all fucking day, thanks alot asshole! oh oh oh....look at this, its from justing blog


Tuesday, September 23, 2003
ah well let me see..what to say...hmm...ashley doesn't like me anymore*..that's a good thing for me, i don't need the constant harrassment because it annoys me**. I don't really care, i like being alone...

*i dont not like you, i HATE YOU you a fucking ass licking cunt face..........

**if it fucking annoyed you to have someone love you so much then boy are you gonna be in alot of fucking shit when you fucking get married! GAH! and you could have TOLD me that it was fucking annoying and i would have stopped!!!!


fuck you asshole....

I FUCKING HATE YOU YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE
DarkJuggaLotus11: i'm not confusED
Ra1nB0wG1R001: i am
DarkJuggaLotus11: why?
Ra1nB0wG1R001: *folds arms* because...
DarkJuggaLotus11: *puts hands on waist* why?
Ra1nB0wG1R001: *looks away*
DarkJuggaLotus11: *smacks ashley*
Ra1nB0wG1R001: =-O
Ra1nB0wG1R001: *sits on the ground and begins to cry*
DarkJuggaLotus11: *walks away laughing*
Ra1nB0wG1R001: you know what justin, fuck you
DarkJuggaLotus11: fuck off
Ra1nB0wG1R001: gladly!
DarkJuggaLotus11: fuck off is my phrase
GrAp3fRU1T001: do i give a shit
GrAp3fRU1T001: no
GrAp3fRU1T001: now fuck off
DarkJuggaLotus11: don't hug me tomorrow please
GrAp3fRU1T001: gladly
GrAp3fRU1T001: im not even going to fucking talk to an asshole like you
DarkJuggaLotus11: well u are now
DarkJuggaLotus11: but anyway
DarkJuggaLotus11: ok
GrAp3fRU1T001: go suck your dad and leave me alone
GrAp3fRU1T001: jess was right, your such an asshole
DarkJuggaLotus11: which jess?
GrAp3fRU1T001: wallace
DarkJuggaLotus11: good for her
GrAp3fRU1T001: i dont fucking know why i even fucking like you any more
DarkJuggaLotus11: i don't know
DarkJuggaLotus11: it's ur feelings not mine
GrAp3fRU1T001: well did i ask you
GrAp3fRU1T001: no
DarkJuggaLotus11: u asked a question and no one answered it
GrAp3fRU1T001: no i didnt you retard
DarkJuggaLotus11: go back to english class and learn what a question is
GrAp3fRU1T001: oh my god
GrAp3fRU1T001: fuck you
GrAp3fRU1T001: if i ever see your fucking face ever again itll be too soon
DarkJuggaLotus11: i'll wear a paper bag
GrAp3fRU1T001: you know what, if you never liked it when i hugged you, you should have told me
DarkJuggaLotus11: i tolerated it
GrAp3fRU1T001: yeah i thought so
GrAp3fRU1T001: you hate me
DarkJuggaLotus11: i don't hate u
GrAp3fRU1T001: yes you fucking do
DarkJuggaLotus11: i don't hate anyone
DarkJuggaLotus11: well that was a lie
DarkJuggaLotus11: i hate lots of ppl.
DarkJuggaLotus11: but no u in particular
DarkJuggaLotus11: *not
GrAp3fRU1T001: sure
GrAp3fRU1T001: your just saying that so i dont fucking go and kill myself
DarkJuggaLotus11: i don't hate u because i don't feel anything
GrAp3fRU1T001: *rolls eyes*
GrAp3fRU1T001: whatever
GrAp3fRU1T001: :'( fuck you
DarkJuggaLotus11:
GrAp3fRU1T001: fuck you, your such a fucking asshole
DarkJuggaLotus11: i know
DarkJuggaLotus11: good night
GrAp3fRU1T001: fuck you
DarkJuggaLotus11: fuck u 2
GrAp3fRU1T001: i hope you fucking die
DarkJuggaLotus11: maybe i will, but not anytime soon
GrAp3fRU1T001: whatever, stay away from me forever
“DarkJuggaLotus11” signed off at 8:39:46 PM.


i fucking hate you you fucking asshole, you pissed me off TOO many fucking times, i wish i had a gun, not for me, for you, i hope you fucking die.............


im no longer using little ashley because it shows that i love justin, and i no longer even like him.....so ill just say FUCK YOU ASSHOLE!!!!!!!

yeah, im at school......
bleh, this study hall sucks ass...we have a sub today, im thinking im going to take some pictures after im done writing in this...damn, is it only monday? ahhh...im gonna die..time goes by too slowly! i got a new nickname from jessica, its grapefruitcake like fruit cake....heh...yeah, i also gave her a new one too...uhm...its angry ramen noodle girl....im going to mcdonnalds with jessica after school today...it shall be loads of fun, if i stayed with her and garet on friday i would have gotten drunk....but me mum got pissed that i didnt call her sooner, so i had to go home...*tear* hahahahah....okay.. well, its time for me to go now, unless i can think of more things to write......hmmmm oh, i got something....I LOVE YOU JUSTIN!!!!! heehee :) wooh, well...now im bored again...so bye bye


little grapefruitcake ashley

hahaha
okay, today is marks birthday, and my mom wanted to go buy him a present...julia was at girlscouts, and tina was sick...every 5 minutes.. and my mom wanted me to get him a present...so she gave me five dollars and sent me into kmart and RIGHT as i was gettin out of the car she said " get something nice for mark" im just like " yeah......." i went in and went RIGHT for the makeup...i came out about 5 minutes later and my moms like " whatd you get" and i gave her a piece of juicy fruit...not a pack of it...a PIECE of it....haha, good times